hey, guess what? I discovered the one person I can talk about on here with no worries. Well, actually, there's more than one person, but hehe ( Read more... )

my head is a confusing place. be glad you don't live there. I think maybe the little people wasn't so far off. It's like theres all these different mes and they all hate eachother, and they all have different opinions and viewpoints. it's so very confusing. it makes my head hurt. I think that's why I get headaches. they're all pounding on the ( Read more... )

I have nothing to say except I'm sick and I finally finished this:

( the longest survey...ever. No, really. )

Today was a good day, I think. Saw Eileen, loved art as always and work was pretty good. Worked with Kevin (and spilled half a pitcher of Frapp mix on him-oops.) and that was fine. I went over to Alex's place to paint with his roomate Jeff. Jeff's a really cool guy, very nice and genuinely interested in others. We're painting a sort of light- ( Read more... )

Today I opened. I only got 4 hours of sleep so when I woke up I was mostly tired and a little cranky, since I had cramps and stuff. But I decided I was going to be in a good mood, and when I got to work I had my plan. I got off at 10, mom was gonna be here at 11, and I would just wear my work shirt and chage into a skirt for The Huntington, our ( Read more... )

Okay, so recent events. I talked to Dru over the weekend. I called her at 2 am Friday night. We talked for a while and everything seemed...surprisingly okay. If anything, she seemed indifferent. Thinking back, I was worried maybe she didn't even care anymore. I said I'd call her the next day at 10pm. I kept my word for once and called her at ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking lonely it's not even funny. I'm tired of being pathetic and...just tired. I mean, really tired. Inside. I feel lacking friends even though I have friends. I miss everyone so much...Tears are pricking my eyes for the second day in a row. Although last time it was outright crying, and technically it was saturday night. Fuck.

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So today was not an especially good day. I feel too weak and teary to talk about it, or yesterday...or any day for that matter. Please someone let me know you still care. I miss everyone...I feel adrift in a sea of loneliness.

"now and again it seems worse than it is
but mostly the view is accurate."

A few nights ago my friend Denise called me and asked if I could pick her up from her mom's house in Banning Friday (last) night. I didn't get off work until 11:15 and said I didn't want to drive out there by myself, by way of excuse. So she said if she could get someone to go with me, would I go? I didn't know what to say, so I said okay. Well ( Read more... )

So I've only got a half an hour before I need to get ready for class, which does not leave me enough time to do my homework, and I'm updating my journal. What sense does that make? Maybe I'll just say fuck it. There's really no point in doing part of it. And she drops three anyway. So...blarg ( Read more... )