...jess still hates her body
THE GOOD
well, the doctor seems to have a better idea about what's wrong with me. even though he isn't telling me...thats because he knows i'll go home and find out all about it then my symptoms will get magically worse. but, the good thing is at least he doesn't think i'm making it up any more. it only took almost 10 months to convince someone...
THE BAD
one of the things he did tell me about is that i have optic neuritis, which is most likely caused by whatever is wrong with me. this is something that unless they were looking for it (apparently) the eye doctors wouldn't have seen...or something. basically, something in my lovely head is putting pressure on my optic nerve which is slowly but surely fucking up my eyes. i guess i should have told my doctor about it sooner, because the damage so far might be permanant. but the doctor has given me a lot of steroids to take over the next 10 days to try...TRY mind you...to stop the progession, and POSSIBLY reverse what's happened so far. the other thing he said is i may be developing some sort of migraines. i got medicine for that too. this headache that i've had for a week and a half now...doc says i'll be lucky if its gone in two months. he's hoping for 6. OH BOY! but the medicine should keep it from spiking, which is okay. i can live with the dull pain.
THE YUCKY
i have to take 11 pills a day. i feel like my father. grrr. i'm taking "prescribed" vitamins, plus a bunch of other crap, and i don't like it. but if it'll make everything go away, thats fine by me.
THE WEEKEND
went to see ice age 2 on friday...it was pretty funny. it was too long though...while i was continuously amused, i was also bored halfway through. does that make sense? then we went to red lobster where i had the most giant lobster tail i've ever seen and it was mmmmmmm. i was going to see bayside that evening, but i didn't feel like it. i started to get a spike in my headache, and the doc had given me these migraine pain killers to take. i took one and had an almost allergic reaction and some pretty crappy side effects. i almost considered going to the hospital because my tounge got all swollen, and i didn't want to choke to death in my sleep. i didn't feel like going though, so my dad woke me up every hour to make sure i was still alive.
saturday i ended up going to long island with my friend kristi to see bayside. the sleeping were eh. paramore was ok...i think i would have liked them better in a decent club (the sound system SUCKED). bayside rocked as usual.
today, sunday, i cleaned a little in the house, cleaned my car, and thats it. a nice end to my first three-day weekend.
THE NEXT WEEKEND
next friday i might go to wilkes-barre, pa to see i am the avalanche. i dunno yet. if not, then MAYBE saturday i'll go into manhattan to do some museum hopping. depends if i have other plans or the money or whatever. i just dont know...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........................