6-ish Week Update

[justreadmyspine]

Ilán will be six weeks old this Sunday. I'm still not sure if it feels like it's been more or less time that. Everything is still a blur, what with my bad labor, traumatic C-section, and horrible recovery

Comments

[solastsummer66]

It really does sound tramatizing, but I want to hear your birth story when you are up to writing it out. Im glad you are both feeling better now except for his poor tummy

[justreadmyspine]

It's actually good to know that someone wants to hear it, because it gives me more motivation to write it! I'm at my mom's house right now, using her laptop, because our Internet hasn't been working and Comcast is coming out tomorrow to fix it because it's a modem issue. But anyway, while I'm here, I'm getting the notebook in which she kept track of things at the hospital (I think up until I went into surgery) so that will help me write the story since I don't remember a lot of what happened, or at least not the order, because I was so out of it. I am going to have such a hard time writing it. I still cry my eyes out when I read other people's stories - both C-section stories because it reminds me of my experience, and vaginal births, because that's what I wanted and didn't get. I'm also going to get my mom's camera and take the photos off of it so I can post them. I haven't even looked at my C-section photos yet - not cuz I know they'll be gross (LOL) but because I don't know if I can handle it emotionally. But I want to see

[queen_gen]

I want to hear it too but I also dread hearing it a bit. I think I may cry. I've felt a bit traumatised ever since you gave birth because it seems so unfair that it had to be so difficult. You were so happy the whole time you were pregnant and so excited about the baby. You should have had a better time in labour. But I'm glad you both got through it and are happy now.

[justreadmyspine]

Well I'm glad you still want to hear it even if you're also dreading it :P I'm dreading writing it! I think it will be good for me even if I cry the whole time, or can't write it all at once. I still wonder how I'll react to seeing the photos of my C-section. I've only seen one so far, of Ilan being pulled out of me, but you can't see my stomach or anything too graphic. I've wanted to look at them but just haven't been able to bring myself to yet, but I'm going to when I write my story, and I'm going to post them for people who want to see them because while I find it heartbreaking, I also find it fascinating.