Comments | justreadmyspine: Unhappy

justreadmyspine

Unhappy

Mar 14, 2009 02:02

For most people, having a baby would be one of the happiest times of their lives. Stressful and tiring and all that, yes, but still one of the happiest times. For me, I am the unhappiest I think I've ever been in my life. And that really fucking sucks.

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turtleohs March 14 2009, 13:19:24 UTC

I believe things will get better soon. & I know its no consolation but I <3 you! you know if you need anything at all... just let me know.

justreadmyspine March 15 2009, 10:07:24 UTC

I wish I believed things will get better soon :( They'll be better when you're here, though, so at least I have something to look forward to :) I <3 you toooooo!!! I seriously don't know what I would do without you to talk to every day.

tangledupinblue March 14 2009, 15:43:30 UTC

I'm so sorry Bonnie :( Know that it WILL get better. Colic is not indefinite, once the screaming stops I think that you're going to feel way better about life. Hang in there.

justreadmyspine March 15 2009, 10:08:21 UTC

Tony, Ilan's pediatrician and I all do not believe that it's colic, or at least not all colic. We are of the mindset that if a baby is crying, there's usually a reason for it. Thank you for the encouragement, though, I appreciate it.

orilladelmar March 22 2009, 20:52:58 UTC

I think that there is an idea or an expectation that it's "the happiest time" in people's lives but it's actually usually the most difficult times in people's lives. My parents work with children as a career and they say over and over that people have an expectation that after having kids they're supposed to be way happier, but usually it's harder. Yes there are happy times but there are also really sad and depressing times for all parents. I hope that things begin to work themselves out, and hopefully you don't have the sentiment that you aren't happy while everyone else is, because in reality I don't think that's true..

justreadmyspine March 22 2009, 21:00:53 UTC

I definitely know what you mean. I worked in the baby room at a daycare and saw parents go through lots of rough times with their babies. So I didn't really expect this to be a super happy time for me. I did, however, expect it to be better than it is. Difficult, sleepless, etc., yes, but not this bad. I pretty much live for bedtime, and I dread getting up every day because I'm so miserable. I'm sure some of this will be helped once I'm able to get back on an anti-depressant, but even then, I dunno. Boo :( Thanks for the encouragement though, I really do appreciate it!