I think I'm going to write in here again.

I somehow managed to almost forget it - I've always been bad with dates. I should have felt it with all the weird dreams I've been having lately. The one where she kills herself again right before I get home to see her ( Read more... )

I somehow managed to almost forget it - I've always been bad with dates. I should have felt it with all the weird dreams I've been having lately. The one where she kills herself again right before I get home to see her ( Read more... )

I'm reading this book called The End of Faith.  It's basically about how faith brushes up against the logic / reason of the 21st century and argues that religion is nothing more than outdated myth.  In a somewhat more dramatic tone it describes how continuing to hold steadfast onto religious beliefs (fundamentalists) will eventually cause the ( Read more... )

"I contend that we are both atheists. I just believe in one fewer god than you do. When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours."

Only 10 days left of Orchestra Festival (read: Band Camp). Thank you lord! Not that my time here hasnt had its fair share of fun and excitement - its just the lack of highspeed internet and various friends from back home has worn me down. I'm sick of dial up ( Read more... )

I really miss my mom.
I wish I had told her more about what was going on in my life - instead I always tried to avoid conversation.

I saw Garden State tonight for the first time. It sort of describes how I feel.

Numb.

Or is it fake?

My mom would have always loved me no matter what I did.

I wish I showed her more appreciation.

I think I was a bad son.

We are all so stupid.

Does anyone else find it just a tad bit racist to force Dubai Ports to divest its interest in any American assests from its purchase of P&O? Its been bothering me a lot lately - "OMG AN ARAB HES A TERRORIST KICK HIM OUT OF THE UNITED STATES!!!!!!!" - so I found myself thanking Bush for actually saying to people "Um, hello - Being Arab doesn't make ( Read more... )

Despite the smiles, the laughter, the playful demeanor - not a minute goes by that I dont think about it. My dad looking over the handrail and seeing her swaying. The panic. My sister fumbling to find a knife. The cpr that my father didnt know how to do. Me looking into a cardboard box where a doll lay, half expecting it to move at any moment ( Read more... )