There's gonna be a change. It's something I've wanted for a long time now. But it's gonna happen, and it's gonna happen now. Wait for it. Watch for it. Be expecting it, because if you don't, I won't, and if I don't, it won't happen. Believe in me, because without your support I am nothing.

I dream last night about someone that made me see him in a very different light. I miss him. I missed him before the dream. But now I see him different and miss him more. I wish I had a way to see him again. Anyways, I just recovering from last night while my roommate is gone.

Can parents actually forget their cheldren exist? When a child moves out of the house is it then their responsiblity to keep in contact or they just... die off? Or am I just... The Forgetten Child?

Why is everyone so excited to leave everythng they've ever known? I'm not. I mean, who am I going to watch Packer games with on Sundays? I didn't watch them because I was interested in them. I watched them because it was good quality time with my family. Now they're all going to be together watching the game and I'm going to be alone. I won't ( Read more... )

Thanks everyone for remembering my birthday! You made my day really great! I'm so glad I have great friends like you!

There are so many reasons why... even if I did lose weight and even if he did want me... why I shouldn't be with him. I know them all and yet I'd do anything for him... if he called me right now and asked me to do anything I would do it.

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I keep thinking... if I lost weight he'd love me again. And my head says do you really want someone can only love me at 100 lbs? But my heart says... I want him no matter what it takes... if it means losing weight.. I'll do it... gladly! Why? Because my 17 year old heart believes that I love him that I should pursue that love. Smarter people ( Read more... )

I can't think of anything happy anymore. Everything reminds me of going away and leaving everything important to me or my weight problem or what I used to be and have and lost. I don't want to go any where or do anything. I'm sad and ashamed and lonely. People look at me with such pity in their eyes I just wanna curl up in a ball and die. I ( Read more... )

Do I have any friends who care? Any that won't take advantage of me? Any that won't desert me? I guess not.