Afraid of Losing You part 1

[juulchii]

Title: Afraid of Losing You
Beta:  jackiestolz 
Pairings: Ian/Anthony, Ian/Melanie
Genre: Fluff, Angst
Rating: T
Warnings: Drinking, drugs
Summary: After some problems with Anthony's last girlfriend Kalel, he and Ian are now living happily together. But Kalel comes back for revenge, and will do anything to break them up. 
Author's Notes: My first one-shot of Smosh! I took way too long to write this. And I am almost shitting my pants for actually uploading it here… Please don’t hurt me~
Previous Chapters: One-Shot
Part: one, two

Afraid of Losing You
part 1
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It was a beautiful day in Sacramento. The sun was shining, the sky was light blue and there was a warm breeze in the air. It wasn’t too warm, so most people used this day to enjoy outside activities and to take the kids out before the very hot days were coming back. But this carefree life in the summer didn’t count for the two boys of Smosh.

One of the boys, Ian Hecox, sat on the couch and dozed off.  The door to the backyard was open, and the air of the warm weather made him sleepy. He was making a script for the new video and fell half asleep while thinking for the beginning of first scene. The script lay on his knees and the pen was still open in his hand. His head was leaning against his own shoulder. Despite still being awake and hearing the little voice in his head saying he had to finish what he started, his eyes felt heavy and the atmosphere only helped his drowsiness.

He sat in this position for a while without knowing that his best friend (and lover) Anthony Padilla was sitting next to him. He was leaning on the side and gazed at his friend as he kept slipping back to the world of dreams.

At one point, Ian felt someone’s presence very close to him. He opened his eyes a bit and looked directly into Anthony’s eyes. Ian cried out. He wildly waved his arms like a ninja, causing his pen to fly across the room and the script to fall to the rug.

“Fuck, Anthony! You almost gave me a heart attack!” Ian shouted out.

Anthony laughed his well-known laugh and lowered his head to his arm. “Sorry, but you were laying here so quietly, I didn’t want to wake you up.”

“So you just quietly sat here and stared at me?” Ian questioned a bit sarcastically.

Anthony nodded. He had a big smile on his face and his eyes radiated a warm feeling over him, exactly the opposite of Ian’s icy eyes.

“I’ve counted all your summer freckles. You are so cute with them,” Anthony said casually, his eyes still fixed on Ian.

Ian felt himself blush. “Creeper,” he murmured, caught off guard. He wanted to grab his script and hide his face, but he got pushed on his back by Anthony’s strong arms that held his arms. He was on top of the startled Ian and grinned.

“And now that you’re awake, I can see your eyes,” Anthony said softly.

Ian frowned. He didn’t get why Anthony was so clingy all of the sudden, but he didn’t hear any jokes or lies in his words. Ian felt butterflies and had the urge to kiss Anthony’s red lips, but he acted as if Anthony’s words didn’t mean anything to him.

“What’s with my eyes?” Ian said nonchalant.  He tried to look past Anthony’s warm gaze.

“They are perfect,” Anthony whispered. He leaned in closer and Ian was forced to look at him. “You are perfect.” Anthony’s lips touched Ian’s and Ian’s body was pumping with electric shock. Every sense became ten times stronger and Ian tried not to push against Anthony to deepen the kiss.

After a few seconds, Anthony broke the kiss. Ian slowly opened his eyes and missed the warm body immediately.

“Anthony - “ Ian began, but Anthony leaned in again and kissed his neck. Ian gasped while Anthony’s tongue licked the crook of his neck to his ear. Ian softly kissed Anthony’s temple and pinched his hand.

“Anthony,” Ian began again, this time while grinning to his boyfriend. “What’s wrong with you? Is it the nice weather?”

Anthony stopped and his face hovered above Ian’s, their noses almost touching. For one second, Ian saw a strike of sadness in his expression, but Anthony quickly covered that up with a smile.

“I’m just glad that you’re with me.”

At that moment, Ian understood it all. “You’re thinking of Kalel, aren’t you.” It wasn’t a question.

Anthony was quiet, and with almost a yearning look he stared in Ian’s blue eyes. He jumped off him and kneeled next to the couch where Ian was still lying. He faced the ground. His warm eyes lost the battle to the sadness.

Ian looked concerned. It didn’t surprise him that Anthony hadn’t forgotten the cold words of his ex-girlfriend.

“Forget that bitch! You have me now.” Ian laid a finger under Anthony’s chin and looked lovingly to him. “Though I hope that I grant all your wishes.”

Ian smiled brightly, triggering a little smile on Anthony’s soft lips. Ian fixed his bangs and leaned in for a passionate kiss. Their lips matched perfectly together.

“Thanks Ian,” Anthony said after the kiss. “I know I shouldn’t think about this but…” He sighed deeply. Ian tried to say something to cheer him up, but before he could he stood up. “I’m going back to the computer.”

“Hey,” Ian said tentatively and held his hand to stop Anthony from leaving. “Shall we do something tonight? We can go out, or watch a movie. Take a break from it all.”

Anthony nodded. There was a small smile on his face, but Ian could clearly see the sadness and pain in his expression. He pinched Ian’s hand and left the room.

Ian sighed. ‘I better leave him alone,’ he thought. He grabbed his script, sat back and continued staring at the blank paper, not feeling the need to search for his pen.

Ian thought back to when he broke up with Melanie half a year back. She took that well, even after she heard the reason. Ian honestly told her he was gay, and that he’s with Anthony. He hadn’t seen her since then, but they still have contact on the Internet.

In the time of his break up, Anthony hadn’t told to his girlfriend Kalel yet he and Ian were dating. Ian eventually convinced him and 2 months later, Anthony found the courage to tell her. But since then, Anthony acted differently.

“Kalel,” Anthony began slowly. “I am gay, how many times do I have to tell you?”

“You are not gay,” Kalel sneered. “You are not seriously telling me that this is the reason you don’t want to have a relationship with me.”

“I’m telling you the truth!” Anthony said quickly.

“S - so what, are you with Ian now?” Kalel’s anger made her stutter. She had her arms crossed and evaded Anthony’s gaze.

“I’m sorry that I’m throwing this all at you.” Anthony walked closer to her. He straightened his arms to her, hoping she would calm down.

“He doesn’t love you.”

“What?” Anthony frowned.

Kalel hit his arms away and looked furious. Anthony was bewildered and didn’t move.

“Do you really think Ian loves you? He still has lots of contact with Melanie and they see each other all the time behind your back. He’s only getting close to you ‘cause you work together.”

Anthony was astonished. “Where do you get this idea?”

“Isn’t it obvious!” she hissed. “Do you think he seriously cares about you? Or that anyone cares about you?”

He froze. Anthony opened his mouth to retort, but he let himself sink deeper in the words of the girlfriend he used to love. It stung.

“Only I love you Anthony,” she said with a sweet voice. She shuffled to Anthony, who stood numbly and held his hands. “No one will love you more if you leave me. They lie, Ant, and deep down you know that. They will only go for your looks, not for your true self.”

She stood on her toes and her lips almost touched his skin. She continued to whisper in his ears. “You are alone baby. You can only love me because my love is real for you. Ian doesn’t care about you, he said that to me. He doesn’t like men, and he likes you the least.”

Kalel grinned. Anthony stared at her cold eyes. After a few seconds he staggered back, pushed her hands off him and walked away.

“Hey Anthony,” Ian said while he knocked on his friend’s room door. He heard him growl and let himself in. Anthony sat his chair and looked absentmindedly around the room. The computer was still paused at the login screen. Ian bit his lip, unsure of what to do. Eventually he made a smile appear and jumped to his boyfriend. He leaned his arms on Anthony’s head.

“I’m going Ant, to the park or something to get ideas.” He found out that when he was outside, the scenery of trees and green grass always helped his imagination to work. Anthony blinked and nodded.

“’Kay,” he said hoarsely. “Will you be back soon?”

Anthony turned and looked at Ian with his puppy eyes. Ian felt his heart jump. He wished he could stay with him and give all the attention he wanted. But he was busy with this script for days and it had to be done.

“I promise,” he finally said and gave Anthony a peck. He rubbed his lightly red cheeks to comfort him and walked out of the room. He grabbed his script and a new pen and skipped out of the house to be in the park as fast as he could, with the plan to be finished with writing and back with Anthony.

*

When Ian has reached the park, he immediately noticed how much more crowded it was. All the benches where he used to sit were taken by elders or parent who watched their children run and scream through the park. Ian smiled warmly. He thought of the future. Maybe he and Anthony would also end happily like the elderly couples who sat hand in hand.

Ian decided to sit by the fountain. He didn’t have to wait long for the ideas to flow through his mind. He clicked the pen and was about the write when he heard someone calling his name.

Ian looked up and saw to his surprise someone he knew very well walking up to him.

“Melanie?” he brought out.

Melanie waved and laughed. Her long blonde hair fell over her shoulders, waving in the wind as she ran to him.

“Hi Ian!” she said cheerfully when she stood by him. She hugged him, which caught Ian off guard. He awkwardly hugged her back.

“Wow Mel, what are you doing here?” Ian asked when they let go.

“I was just back from Kalel and she told me I had to come here for some good pictures,” she said. Ian remembered how many times Melanie wanted to take pictures of some beautiful scenery. She never wanted to be in the shot so Ian mostly played as model. Not that it bothered him, he liked the attention.

“Then what a coincidence you found me here! It has been such a long time since we saw each other,” Ian said.

“Yeah, right?” Melanie agreed.

The two walked through the park together, talking about how they were and what they are doing. Ian noticed how cheerful and happy Melanie was to see him again. After the whole Kalel situation, Ian was relieved that there were also people who could take this well.

Ian hoped Anthony had someone like Melanie. Ian wouldn’t know how he would feel like if someone you once loved told you these hateful words.

Ian withhold his thoughts as he had this conversation with Melanie. He knew she and Kalel were good friends, but he had to discuss this another time.

“Shall we drink something?”

“Hm, what?” Ian said hazy.

The sky had already begun to glimmer with the setting sun. Ian didn’t notice they walked out of the park. They’ve reached downtown. Melanie pointed a café where they played music.

“What time is it?” Ian scratched his head. “I promised Anthony to be home soon…”

“Ah come on Ian! I’m not planning to go home yet.” Melanie poked Ian’s side with her elbow. “I’ve got so much to tell! Please, just one drink.”

With begging eyes Melanie looked at Ian. Ian didn’t know what to do.

“I could stay for a bit and - “ he thought out loud, but got cut off by a tug at his arm.

“Well come on then!” Melanie laughed. She pulled Ian’s arm and practically dragged him along the road to the café. Ian wanted to protest. He obviously would rather to be with Anthony and to finally begin with the script. But he felt bad to say no to a very happy Melanie.

Ian opened the entrance door and beckoned to Melanie to enter first.

“Go ahead, I have to check my make-up really quick.”

“Outside?” Ian frowned.

Melanie waved Ian to leave and smiled. Ian shrugged and walked inside while Melanie searched in her bag. She abruptly stopped when Ian was gone and looked narrowly gazed around. She then stopped her eyes to someone. A woman with dark green hair leaned mindlessly to a wall and stood up. She slowly walked to Melanie’s direction with her head down. She pulled from her jacket pocket a flask that contained a transparent liquid.

“Use everything?” Melanie muttered when the woman. The woman bared her teeth.

“Everything,” Kalel said with a devilish smile.

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