Emotionally exhausted. I can't take anymore. Please, just make it all stop. I want to breath again.

I am feeling very, very, very INSECURE today. I hate feeling this way. It makes me want to throw up. I wish I didn't get crazy like this. Sometimes I feel completely insane. I can't seem to function right. And every thought that comes to my mind is totally RIDICULOUS. I feel confused and distracted. I find myself questioning things that need not be ( Read more... )

I, I'm thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
that God himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay

I can't get that song out of my head. I can't get enough of it. It makes me smile. I love it ( Read more... )

Tonight was my very last Miracle of Forgiveness Institute class. I almost didn't go. I am glad I changed my mind at the last minute. It was a very inspiring class tonight ( Read more... )

I can't seem to comprehend life after death. After Tyler I thought I understood. But with another friend gone and more on the way I can't help but feel emptiness when I think about it. I mean what the fuck is all this??????????? I feel like this is all just one big acid trip. I want to come down already.

I wish I had the balls to kill myself.

I can't feel this way anymore. It's making me insane. It's making my heart beat a thousand times too fast. It's taking my breath away. It's sending lightning bolts though out my body. It's making me feel stupid and desperate and lonely. It's pushing away. It's eating me alive. It's making me crazy. REALLY, REALLY CRAZY! I can see into the future. ( Read more... )

I often wonder about the path I’ve chosen for myself. Did I really choose this path or was I meant to follow my feet to this place? For me, it has always been easier to blame the course of my life on fate. Recently fate has seemed a fool to me. So I have taken responsibility for my own life. Whichever the path, whereever my feet carry me, it will ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my birthday. I am now 23. My sister called me an old lady. Of course she was joking but in all honesty I do feel like an old crippled lady. A weathered woman staring through a distant window into her box full of memories. 59.8 more years of life left for me ( Read more... )

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