i feel so alone...it sucks. Also people take advantage of me...ALOT. I hate this its so gay. I helped someone out BIG TIME...i could have went to jail for them...is that not showin love or what...alot of people say they would dio shit like that but i actually do it, and i get shit on in return...see why i hate my life?? I hope somethin turns out ( Read more... )

not many people wished me happy birthday...the only presents i got were from dee, liz and dillions mom. i didnt have that great of a birthday this year...or is it the fact that now im 19 no one HAS to get me anything anymore, its weird...bu anyway, CONCERT JULY 1ST BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!!! I think me and someone in particular need to hook up even ( Read more... )

i have nothing to say really...just i need to move on, is kinda hard when you dont have anything, except the memories of that person. If I had memories with someone else then it wouldnt be so hard, or am i wrong...i seek guidance, someone please help me...

This weekend i graduated from high school. I wasnt nervous like everyone else, I wasnt excited, and I wasnt happy. I just had this feeling of total blah...and im getting tired of that feeling, like the only time i dont feel like that im playing music in front of people. When I play I feel really energetic and happy, it's the closes thing to nirvana ( Read more... )

i've been pretty depressed here lately...i dunno y, and it sucks. Hopefully when i get out of this piece of shit,(Rome), I'll be a lil bit happy. Im gonna miss my buddies like josh, ashely, chelsey, bethany, charles, chris, my sister, kris, morgan, blake, and if i missed ur name im really sorry, im think of about 50 more people but it would be ( Read more... )

This guy, who fucked me over HARD and I hate him with a passion, came up to me with his hand out to shake my hand this afternoon. I fucking lost it, i yelled "FUCK YOU! YOU HAVE GOT SOME FUCKING BALLS YOU KNOW THAT?? GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!" For those who know what i am talking about, he has got some balls dont he?? If we weren't at school I ( Read more... )

you know this new cd kinda pisses me off...only a few songs hav really meaning. Like B.Y.O.B. and Cigaro, its hard, but there is meaning in those songs...Old School Hollywood, and This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm on This Song, are pointless...i think they just had some really good guitar riffs and didnt have time to write anything good so they ( Read more... )

Everybody, everybody, everybody livin' now ( Read more... )

this was honestly the best concert i have ever been to...silvertide started out the sucked. Then the Exies came on...and the fuckin rocked. Finally the moment we all wait all nite for happened....BREAKING BENJAMIN!!! THEY ROCKED THE ROOF OFF OF THAT MOTHER FUCKER!!!! If the opportunity to go to another concert with josh and company arises, I am ( Read more... )

This weekend was odd...same shit with you know who...and i was laying down after a long talk with john wright and it hit me...i need to wake the fuck up and get outta this stupid ass fog im in. I have a band and a future in culinary school to worry about...plus i kinda like this one chick and i hear she likes me back...but we havnt talked about it ( Read more... )