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It's been a while since I actively updated here - and maybe I will start again. I need somewhere semi-private to vent and think things out.
I work in an accounting office. It's rough. I don't even know where to start with how to explain how busy it is and how much they demand from us.
I'm not an accountant. I took the job because they were hiring, and they thought I was smart - so they asked if I wanted to be a staff accountant instead of an accounting assistant. Of course I said yes - more money and looks good on a resume.
Anyway, I want out it. And I'm in a weird spot now - because I don't really want to be an accountant and everything I want to do, I did more than 10 years ago. It's been tough trying to a new job.
However - I'm not fleeing for my life... I have a house with a garage... I have the internet, and food... so I guess things could be worse.
I finally got active in church. All my old shit is private now - but I tell you this, my entries now are 180° from where this journal started. It's weird to think back on it too. It's weird to see how and why it all played its part in my life. And as I get older and meet different people, and how I can explain things to them - it's all been for a purpose. Everything is for a purpose.
The pendulum swings both ways.
So, as I update here, there will be weaves of religion with my life.
It makes me feel good to be where I'm at. I've always loved my life - but it's so much better now.
Now that my religion is in check - I'm going to start working on my health and body. I'm grateful every day for the muscle and bone structure I have to carry all of me around.
I bought a a water rower with my tax returns and I really enjoy it. I will get better at it, and I've started a new eating plan ... well kind of started. I can't just throw out all my food... fuck that. I'll eat like a fatty for another week or whatever and slowly switch it all over. But the eating plan looks sweet and the best thing about it is everything in the books is servings size: 1. I can't stress how important that is to me!
I'm also thinking about working 8 to 5 instead of 9 to 7. I just yah... I need my life to change so I can get out of my job.
I really feel like, if I can change my life... still continue to progress in my life with this job, I should be able to find something new. Plus becoming smaller is always a confidence boost.
I work in an accounting office. It's rough. I don't even know where to start with how to explain how busy it is and how much they demand from us.
I'm not an accountant. I took the job because they were hiring, and they thought I was smart - so they asked if I wanted to be a staff accountant instead of an accounting assistant. Of course I said yes - more money and looks good on a resume.
Anyway, I want out it. And I'm in a weird spot now - because I don't really want to be an accountant and everything I want to do, I did more than 10 years ago. It's been tough trying to a new job.
However - I'm not fleeing for my life... I have a house with a garage... I have the internet, and food... so I guess things could be worse.
I finally got active in church. All my old shit is private now - but I tell you this, my entries now are 180° from where this journal started. It's weird to think back on it too. It's weird to see how and why it all played its part in my life. And as I get older and meet different people, and how I can explain things to them - it's all been for a purpose. Everything is for a purpose.
The pendulum swings both ways.
So, as I update here, there will be weaves of religion with my life.
It makes me feel good to be where I'm at. I've always loved my life - but it's so much better now.
Now that my religion is in check - I'm going to start working on my health and body. I'm grateful every day for the muscle and bone structure I have to carry all of me around.
I bought a a water rower with my tax returns and I really enjoy it. I will get better at it, and I've started a new eating plan ... well kind of started. I can't just throw out all my food... fuck that. I'll eat like a fatty for another week or whatever and slowly switch it all over. But the eating plan looks sweet and the best thing about it is everything in the books is servings size: 1. I can't stress how important that is to me!
I'm also thinking about working 8 to 5 instead of 9 to 7. I just yah... I need my life to change so I can get out of my job.
I really feel like, if I can change my life... still continue to progress in my life with this job, I should be able to find something new. Plus becoming smaller is always a confidence boost.