YAY. I have been worried about this since the day I sent away the application. But now I have nothing to worry about anymore. This fall is going to be fucking AMAZING. The summer will still probably suck, but come september my boring crappy shitty life with few friends is changed. Finally being able to meet new people my age, whew, kick ass!

It is amazing how one person.. Or one thing can just fuck up everything. God I hate being a guy, its way too fucking hard.

I need alcohol. I need to get these voices out of my head. I need to stop dreaming, or rather, having nightmares of all of this crap. My whole life is just wasting away infront of me and I truely have nothing to look forward to. I guess what makes me feel the worst is knowing that if I were to dissapear tomorrow, nobody would know. Nobody.

Ok so lets see.. Last week I had an industrial sized stainless steel grill dropped onto mein body. The thing must have weighed more then 500 pounds and it had me trapped onto the floor in a rather precarious position. So I go to get that looked at, and luckily there is no serious damage to my back or groin (thank god). However, since I managed to ( Read more... )

PLEASE. There are very few things I care so much about in life. Just please please please don't dissapoint me. Please.

I have a problem.. And this problem has a problem. And I don't know how to get rid of either of these problems and it has been driving me absolutely crazy. Which is exactly why I need to grow some balls, get the fuck out of this place and meet new fucking people. You have no fucking clue how crazy this is making me. I have been up since 5am today ( Read more... )

Ok, so, here are some of my summer goals ( Read more... )

Red Stripe... Hooray beer!

I am so physically and mentally exhausted.. Haven't shaved in a week and I feel like I am working so hard it is killing me. I need to fix this.

I was gonna write some long sappy journal entry about how depressed I feel and blah blah blah.. I had it all typed out too ( Read more... )

I feel so lost right now.. So fucking lost. I have ZERO motivation to do anything and I never see or do anything with my friends/acquaintances. I am fucking totally out of it and I really want to get back in. Fuck.

Oh yeah.. I am so sick of bitching on LJ so just ignore it if you don't like it.