i'm done trying. i don't want to have to remind someone to be my friend. so that's it. i have more important things to worry about and too much to be happy about to be affected by this kind of thing ( Read more... )

Soo I'm in Canada now and it's okay except everyone I chilled with over the summer have completely stopped blazing...everyones "maturing" but I never understood why drinking was considered growing up while smoking weed is a high school thing. In my experience, alcohol has been the cause of the majority of the mistakes I have made, especially ( Read more... )

Agh things are changing alot and I like the majority of them but some things just really suck. I've defenitely been happier in the past couple weeks, mostly because I have a boyfriend that actually treats me well. I just don't feel like I'm actually here, if that makes sense. I'm starting to get my homework done for once but I don't see the point ( Read more... )

i haven't been this happy since i was a little kid...or maybe on ecstasy. i have an amazing boyfriend and i love all my friends specially my BEST friend manda! me and my boo took a shower today and we washed each others hair and we had sex for the first time and it was amazing...i think i really like him. and im seeing m.i.a. tonight AND tomorrow ( Read more... )

Things are going so good right now. I've been doing a TEENSY bit of coke lately to keep things running smoothly. Oh and I tried Ketamine yesterday...yeaah it's a tranquilizer so I was expecting to be slurring my words and stuff but I only had a tiny bump or "free sample" so I was able to babysit like an hour after I took it. I also bought ( Read more... )

Some things are improving and some are just getting worse. I'm failing some classes and doing average in others, but I wish school would let me work at my own pace because I have to be in a certain state of mind (aka sober/focused) to get my work done ( Read more... )

i think my parents have realized that i finally figured out they can't control me. and they really don't like it. but what are they going to do? pretend to be me via phone calls and quit my job? or maybe they'll tape the doors to the house closed so i can't get out when my friends come to pick me up. it makes me sad but they can be such assholes ( Read more... )

Ahh I feel so gross right now..I haven't been high in like two weeks and this stupid soberness is making me care about things. I just got a new glass bubbler and my first paycheck so I'll be back to normal by tomorrow ( Read more... )

Yeah..I'm pretty bad at keeping journals ( Read more... )

My mom is pissing me off so much, because she keeps accusing me of smoking and stuff.  She's always like "Your dirty clothes smelled like smoke" and I don't understand why she's going through my laundry in the first place.  I mean it just makes me feel guiltier because if she knew the truth about my life, smoking would be the least of her problems ( Read more... )