This is the only entry I've ever been proud of. Ever.

[k__kurkova]

I now have space for only three icons and I don't really care, because I still have the only one that anybody actually likes. I never deleted these keywords despite the fact I actually hated the person in question for a while. It was really bad, too. I did awful things. I tried to sleep with his friend and I slept with his arch enemy, but now we

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[s_elizabeth]

You should be proud of everything you've written because they're all genius. I think I've told you that before, and I've told you when you showed me snippets of your rough drafts from prehistoric times. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I did read all of this, and well, I'm proud of you. I miss you, and you should keep a look out for something coming your way some time soon.

[k__kurkova]

No, not really. This is the first time where I feel like I've ever been any sort of honest about anything. And wouldn't you know, I've been repressing. Out comes over two thousand words. I cannot believe you read all of this. I deleted one part about the Gays of Our Lives thing, sob. I thought it sounded mean sort of. What am I waiting for? I love you and I miss you. I was just talking about you the other day.

[s_elizabeth]

Well, I agree this one takes the cake, but I still say all your others were fantastic. Also, I thought that Gay of Our Lives thing was hilarious, alright? You should be seeing something probably as long as this if not more about a lot of things I should have said to you and to anyone else who wants to hear it. I have a feeling they wouldn't. I haven't been the best person. Sigh, I wouldn't know why you would. I'm not worthy of that, you know?

[k__kurkova]

I feel like another person was inhabiting my body and this just came out. I think this might have something to do with something that happened this week and I have to tell you all about it. I will just say that I lost someone and it's been very emotionally taxing. I thought that it was funny, too! But I didn't want to get slapped for it! I can't wait, then. Because I think today, that's what everyone should do. Write everything that's ever made you cry. That's how I feel today. You're always the best person. And you are. I've needed you these past couple of weeks.

[welling_t]

I wish all of the entries on my friends page were this interesting. You're beautiful and Jeff Buckley is wonderful.

[k__kurkova]

I would certainly hope not, because wow, I wouldn't want anybody to feel the way that I do today, you know? But. That's a huge compliment coming from you. Kate Moss told me millions of lovely things, and then lots of other people, too. I think I have a Jeff Buckley song for each and every single one of my moods.

[howie_day]

Jeff Buckley is my god. If I knew you better and wasn't so shy I'd say something more profound than his music is almost always apropos.

[k__kurkova]

He's mine, too, actually, and I know nothing about music at all, save for what I like. Do you believe that certain songs can change your life? I think that's what this one has done for me. You don't have to say anything. I am shocked anyone got through this at all.

[joeylaurenadams]

We do tend to be most critical of ourselves, and like you said people tend to see those things in us that we don't, or maybe we simply won't acknowledge. On the flip side of that, people tend to put off on others those negative things they feel about themselves but won't face, like passed on denial. This post is almost full circle, the part that is missing is the resolution. Since life isn't a half hour sitcom, I hope that you find yours in your time.

[k__kurkova]

I don't know why that is, because really, if people saw half of what I did, they would run in the other direction. I would very much enjoy someone telling me all the negative things because I am never going to believe any of the positive. I'm sure there will be a resolution, and then it will be onto the next, you know?

[damon__albarn]

As long as we keep you entertained I think it serves its purpose.

[k__kurkova]

Well. Me and someone else have determined that we have not been seeing as much lately as we could be. So if you wanted to kill someone or like, have someone beaten up, we would really enjoy that next episode.

[damon__albarn]

I was thinking about having an exploding boat of some sort in the next one.

[k__kurkova]

Oh my god, that would be great. Can I guest star as Coco the drag queen, because I would really like that.