welllll I think I def still love her (we knew that already) but I think this arrangement could work out for the time being at least. I finally talked to her about it for the first time since it went down, and i feel alot better. I feel really happy at the moment, not gonna lie. I missed her so much and it all felt so amazingly right this weekend ( Read more... )

Wow I'm back at school now. This whole weekend seems like a blur i cant even tell if it was real. I am so confused about alot of things right now, i thought about her the whole train ride back here I havent been this preoccupied with her in like a month I dunno I guess I am gonna have to play the waiting game again and see what happens. Im so happy ( Read more... )

so yeah last night was totally out of the blue and im still a little dazed, Im almost not even sure it actually happened, like im imagining it because im going nuts, but I know it was real. It felt too good not to be. Its gotta be. Where does it go from here? I cant even answer that for myself. But suddenly it feels like things might be turning for ( Read more... )

Wowza. That was very hot and very confusing. I feel like I just had a good time with my friend JD but i havent had a drink yet today. Wowza this is gonna be umm
Wowza

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am officially going nuts... again.......

I am fucking retarded. Why the hell did I do that. I knew it was a bad Idea. I probably wont sleep now. I need to talk to someone in particular but hell what are the chances I mean especially lately. I wanna cry again. It still felt so right. I am more confused than ever why the fuck did I do that wwhy why why why why somebody shank me.

wow. more thinking. almost overnight someone went from being the most important person in my life to barely even a friend. We never talk anymore, I don't know what to do or say. I miss her. I diddnt realize it until now but damn i do miss her. I miss everything. Fuck ive never been this confused in my life.

oi, Im thinking about tomorrow alot now. Im kinda like confused and a little scared whats gonna happen. I have no idea how i am gonna feel when it happens, and the complete lack of any idea how she will act toward me also is a little disconcerting. Everything has changed so much, things we said would never happen things we promised each other all ( Read more... )

Fuckin a 2 midterms tomorrow but hell i get to go home after that for the weekend to enjoy the homecoming festivities. should be bitchin.

I love my friends here they rock. We went grocery shopping today we got an effing coconut. and lots of candy. Running out of beer tho. I am the observer of observing. now that Im over my own shit Im back to my old ways of helping fix whatever is bothering everyone else. I also have discovered that I LOVE beer, Ive been drinking it daily for a week ( Read more... )