Betty, it's official. This is the second story in this fandom that actually made me cry. Valediction and The Sign. Brian contemplating his life in front of the tree is among the most powerful things I ever read in my life. Although I 'knew' that you would never kill Brian (ha! I also 'knew' that you wouldn't kill a kid and see what happened) I was bawling.
'Goodbye, Theodore' broke my heart.
And for one split second you made me fear, that after Brian's new decision something would happen to speeding!Justin. You truely deserve your middle names Mean and Evil. ;)
Thank you so much for sharing your immense talent with us. Love. B.
As I was reading, I too thought that something could happen to a speeding Justin due to Brian's decision. But I kept telling myself, no life would not be that cruel to Brian.
When I wrote this, it actually occured to me that it would be totally ironic if Justin accidentally killed himself on that very tree just after Brian decided he wasn't going to go through with it. It really appealled to my evil spirit. Luckily, I managed to restrain myself, but it was tempting. *g*
I have rarely hoped and prayed, with heart beating fast, while reading the last few chapters of a story, but I did here. I had a feeling that something was very off with Brian, like he was protecting his "family" from something; could it be from the bad guys? From a disease? It was something, but I should have known that Brian would turn ideas on their sides and come up with trying to protect his loved ones from fate! *head palm* I was so hoping that Brian would finally realize the flaw in his logic and decide to live, with Justin in NY, and to my utter relief, he finally did. What an excellent, suspenseful, heart wrenching story you have written! Thank you for the wild ride, and I look forward to reading the epilogue (and your other stories). xo
Yes, Brian was very 'off' throughout. He had reason to be, but his logic was completely flawed. And the different theories of what could be wrong with him were fun to read. :-)
I am speechless!! What you have done in this chapter is soo perfect and emotional. You have done such an amazing job portraying Brian's thoughts, his struggle and in the end the perfect solution was that he decided not to do it by himself. It was sooo heart breaking but in the end when Justin arrived I had a smile on my face because I know that from now on the things will get better. I cannot wait for the epilogue!!!
I'm glad you liked Brian's thought process in the end. It was one of the most important aspects of the story and it needed to be believable, even though his whole thinking in the story was very skewed.
Of course, I love your story and I have enjoyed reading. But in me is a reluctance on Brian's stitiger behavior. I try to always tell myself that Brian is sick and therefore behaves as extreme. He went through a lot (his difficult childhood, the bashing, lost his son). But eventually he has to try to deal with it. And to kill themselves is the worst solution. Instead he inflict more pain on Justin (who had also a very difficult time). He should get professional help to overcome his depression. Summary: Justin is too good for this world and Brian needs treatment for his depression to get them under control. And I'm Justin's opinion. "It can´t be that simple." I think it won´t be. There is still a long way for both. Justin must learn to trust Brian again and Brian must build confidence in his surroundings / trust in others. Because he has tried alone for too long. This story is incredibly emotional and intense and is a very difficult issue, but again you have created something really great. I look forward to the epilogue.
Personally, I could never see Brian going to seek professional help. In this story, he isn't just depressed, but he also suffers from the effects of insomnia which doesn't exactly help you think clearly. You're right that there's still a long way to go, but now that Brian has taken the first step Justin can help him. It won't be easy by any stretch of the imagination, but even Brian thinks that they will get there in the end. So there's hope. :-)
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Betty, it's official. This is the second story in this fandom that actually made me cry. Valediction and The Sign. Brian contemplating his life in front of the tree is among the most powerful things I ever read in my life.
Although I 'knew' that you would never kill Brian (ha! I also 'knew' that you wouldn't kill a kid and see what happened) I was bawling.
'Goodbye, Theodore' broke my heart.
And for one split second you made me fear, that after Brian's new decision something would happen to speeding!Justin. You truely deserve your middle names Mean and Evil. ;)
Thank you so much for sharing your immense talent with us. Love. B.
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Thank you for your generous comment.
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Betty
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And the different theories of what could be wrong with him were fun to read. :-)
Thank you for your lovely comment.
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Thank you. :-)
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Summary: Justin is too good for this world and Brian needs treatment for his depression to get them under control. And I'm Justin's opinion. "It can´t be that simple." I think it won´t be.
There is still a long way for both. Justin must learn to trust Brian again and Brian must build confidence in his surroundings / trust in others. Because he has tried alone for too long.
This story is incredibly emotional and intense and is a very difficult issue, but again you have created something really great. I look forward to the epilogue.
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Thank you.
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