Ignore the post following this, because it'll be for my stamps x.x;
I apologize if I seem kind of, erm, 'emo' for a while. I read something I could have lived without reading, and I'm kind of... blah for other reasons.
This is all just ranting/rambling/venting (good and bad), so don't expect me to answer some questions on things I don't give much information about.
I DID have a good day. Mom took me to the International Market today, and I got Yakinori so I could kind of complete riceballs. After that, I went to Marie's birthday party. Being there with Marie, Kara, and Beka was fun. Just.. I wish I could have spent the night there. I understand it wouldn't have been the best idea, since tomorrow is one of her mom's days off. But still, it would have been nice to be able to spend some more time with her. We haven't done really anything in ... forever. By that, I mean something like simply hanging out. Sure, there was Christmas and New Year's Eve, but that wasn't a long time. Today, there were Kara and Beka there, so not much could be said about us. And Marie, if you're reading this, I love you, and I miss you already. I'm trying to better myself so I seem happier, nicer, and ... a bit more fun to talk to, since I know I haven't been interesting to talk to at all for the past, what, half year? Year?
This morning wasn't great. I got up, and went to take a shower. Lalalala, washing hair, self, shaving, out of shower... Drying off, applying baby oil to soften legs more, fan's been on for shower time and 10+ minutes afterwards. This is when the stupid argument takes place. I walk out of the bathroom, turning the fan off on my way out. My dad yells downstairs at me to turn it back on because "there's mold above the shower", and it's my fault. That crap's been there for months, but he just wouldn't listen. So, the idiot continues his yelling, and some of the sentences contained "damnit" and "fucking fan". He's been cussing at me a lot lately, and that's never something to do when you were PMSing (thankfully, I'm not anymore). I yelled random things back at him, stormed off to my room, and slammed the door shut like an immature child. But that's what I do when I'm angry. It's just a really good thing he didn't come down to yell at me some more for slamming my door. If he did, I probably would have started cussing at him. I've never cussed at my parents for fear of being hit... Well, mother would probably just get really pissed and yell something about not speaking to her that way. My dad would most likely hit me.
Umm... Sis and Kenzie are gone, moved to Florida. So, I'm stuck with no one that I can really talk to at home. I miss Alan more than Krissy, since he's been gone a lot longer and I can literally tell him anything and he wouldn't care. He knows of my sexuality and doesn't care. Though, he said it might be "just a phase". I don't think it's a "phase" when a girl have feelings for the same girl for a little over 2 years (now). But, whatever. Everyone generally thinks differently, right? .... Right?
There are people I can't tell if I know them or not, no matter how long I've known them. Just as I keep some secrets from my family, I can keep secrets from even my closest friends. But... then, sometimes, I cry a bit because they deserve to know some things, but I don't want to make them worry. I went through that with my mom in 7th grade when I was diagnosed with both ADD and depression at the same time.
I guess this is the part when I get myself on Myspace and message my brother, Alan, about problems. He's like my most dependable therapist... Kind of. I don't think I really can wait 5 fucking months (June 1st) to see my brother and sister again. It's just too damn long. I miss them so much, even though Krissy left just this Friday.
End.
Erm. Non-emotional-related stuff begins now::
Going to do that random songfic soon, most likely with Basch X Vaan or Balthier X Vaan.
Bonus chapter (the good stuff!) for LLNH will be started after the songfic's done.
I got banned from deviantART for a while because of that "BalthierVaan - Lesson 1" picture. Guess it was too graphic. Thus, I've decided to make a site with my more 'graphic' (yaoi, self-mutilation, etc.) art. The link will be posted once I create it and .. get something on there.
This is all just ranting/rambling/venting (good and bad), so don't expect me to answer some questions on things I don't give much information about.
I DID have a good day. Mom took me to the International Market today, and I got Yakinori so I could kind of complete riceballs. After that, I went to Marie's birthday party. Being there with Marie, Kara, and Beka was fun. Just.. I wish I could have spent the night there. I understand it wouldn't have been the best idea, since tomorrow is one of her mom's days off. But still, it would have been nice to be able to spend some more time with her. We haven't done really anything in ... forever. By that, I mean something like simply hanging out. Sure, there was Christmas and New Year's Eve, but that wasn't a long time. Today, there were Kara and Beka there, so not much could be said about us. And Marie, if you're reading this, I love you, and I miss you already. I'm trying to better myself so I seem happier, nicer, and ... a bit more fun to talk to, since I know I haven't been interesting to talk to at all for the past, what, half year? Year?
This morning wasn't great. I got up, and went to take a shower. Lalalala, washing hair, self, shaving, out of shower... Drying off, applying baby oil to soften legs more, fan's been on for shower time and 10+ minutes afterwards. This is when the stupid argument takes place. I walk out of the bathroom, turning the fan off on my way out. My dad yells downstairs at me to turn it back on because "there's mold above the shower", and it's my fault. That crap's been there for months, but he just wouldn't listen. So, the idiot continues his yelling, and some of the sentences contained "damnit" and "fucking fan". He's been cussing at me a lot lately, and that's never something to do when you were PMSing (thankfully, I'm not anymore). I yelled random things back at him, stormed off to my room, and slammed the door shut like an immature child. But that's what I do when I'm angry. It's just a really good thing he didn't come down to yell at me some more for slamming my door. If he did, I probably would have started cussing at him. I've never cussed at my parents for fear of being hit... Well, mother would probably just get really pissed and yell something about not speaking to her that way. My dad would most likely hit me.
Umm... Sis and Kenzie are gone, moved to Florida. So, I'm stuck with no one that I can really talk to at home. I miss Alan more than Krissy, since he's been gone a lot longer and I can literally tell him anything and he wouldn't care. He knows of my sexuality and doesn't care. Though, he said it might be "just a phase". I don't think it's a "phase" when a girl have feelings for the same girl for a little over 2 years (now). But, whatever. Everyone generally thinks differently, right? .... Right?
There are people I can't tell if I know them or not, no matter how long I've known them. Just as I keep some secrets from my family, I can keep secrets from even my closest friends. But... then, sometimes, I cry a bit because they deserve to know some things, but I don't want to make them worry. I went through that with my mom in 7th grade when I was diagnosed with both ADD and depression at the same time.
I guess this is the part when I get myself on Myspace and message my brother, Alan, about problems. He's like my most dependable therapist... Kind of. I don't think I really can wait 5 fucking months (June 1st) to see my brother and sister again. It's just too damn long. I miss them so much, even though Krissy left just this Friday.
End.
Erm. Non-emotional-related stuff begins now::
Going to do that random songfic soon, most likely with Basch X Vaan or Balthier X Vaan.
Bonus chapter (the good stuff!) for LLNH will be started after the songfic's done.
I got banned from deviantART for a while because of that "BalthierVaan - Lesson 1" picture. Guess it was too graphic. Thus, I've decided to make a site with my more 'graphic' (yaoi, self-mutilation, etc.) art. The link will be posted once I create it and .. get something on there.