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[kaeren]

what about yourself scares you?

i will allow anonymous and disable IP logging so you can confess with 100% freedom.

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[anonymous]

That 4 years ago I seriously contemplated killing my girlfriend rather than dump her - it was just easier that way and she seemed too miserable to live anyhow.
That I've done too many things without memory of them & have been told about them after the fact.
That I have trouble discerning the difference between real life, dreams, drug hallucinations & fantasies in my head.
That I've never hurt anyone and when told I never *could* hurt anyone I want to severely injure the person who said it, just to prove a point.
That I don't plan on living past 50, and will commit suicide before allowing myself to die helpless in a hospital bed.

[laurelly]

What scares me is that I have to take pills that prevent me from homocide. I have a temper unlike no other, even tried to kill a few people. Luckily for them I got either frustrated or bored and gave up. It sucks that w/o pills I could fly off the handle at any moment...

Did you fucking touch me?!

Hah, I didn't think so...

[eclecticerudite]

Not that it really applies to me, but I did think of it when I read your entry. Do you know that the leading cause of suicide is depression. lol

[anonymous]

...when I get angry I lash out and deliberately hurt those I love to make them feel the way I do; I feel like I have no control at all over what I say or do when I get like that

...there are people I hate so much it consumes my thoughts constantly, and I'm terrified that I'll never be able to just let it go and see their behavior as inconsequential

...my behavior changes when I drink and I'm terrified that I won't be able to stop when I want to (and I don't want to yet)

afraid

[juicy69]

that i trust people too easily