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[kaesa]

I am depressed and feel totally useless. I keep being an idiot and reaching out to people who I know aren't going to respond, and then they don't respond and I'm like "oh nooo it's me they hate me" when in fact they're just doing shit like, uh, being too sick or busy to respond, or in one case being sick AND busy AND trapped in fucking Wyoming

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[greensword]

I have slept maybe 10 hours total over the last three days so I don't have anything more coherent to say than *hugs!* but I thought I would say at least that and then come back later. So: *hugs!*

[kaesa]

Thank you. I do appreciate it. <3 But go the fuck to sleep!

[greensword]

I am back! And rested. It was Mystery Hunt, so I had not been prioritizing sleeping.

I am sorry you are feeling so low. I have never been good at reaching out to people when I am feeling that way, which is why livejournal has always been such a help to me - I feel like I'm sharing without burdening other people or compelling them to respond. But with fewer people on livejournal it's not as helpful as it used to be and also, sometimes you can't replace hearing someone's voice or getting a hug or sharing hot beverages together, the tangibility of the reminder that you're not alone.

Also screw your landlord it is too cold for a broken heating system, too cold.

[morbane]

"Why do they have a kid?" I ask. "Who is this kid?" My burger comes. I pick the sequins out of it. Never liked the taste of sequins.

I find this very satisfyingly absurd (but also reasonable).

Good luck? I hope tomorrow's better. I think today was just not a very good day.

[kaesa]

Thanks! The burgers with sequins are from canon and are a lesson in Why Not To Let A Sexy Robot Pick The Menus Of His Own Signature Restaurants.

Today is not shaping up to be much better (my apartment is officially ten degrees below the legal limit right now. hooray) but at least the maintenance people are here today and one will supposedly be coming in an hour or so to fix the heat.

[kaesa]

That sounds really cold, jeez. I'm sorry! I'm currently huddled in my bed with the space heater on at full blast and four layers of clothes because the temperature just keeps getting colder and I can't make it turn on again anymore. (Every few hours it goes back on for like... a minute.)

That's okay, I don't really know that anyone who follows me knows the fandom; I'm kind of posting it as a way to not just be all negativity and blah? If you're curious, though, it's Undertale, a ridiculously cute video game full of bad puns and awesome characters.