[fic] 50 Times the Denial
Hi, everyone. Hope you guys had an awesome Christmas and New Years.
Mine involved family & friends, friendly strangers, a dog, watching the 3D version of Avatar, further acquainting myself with the immersive world of Dragon Age: Origins and oddly enough, getting The Bouncer, a PS2 Squaresoft game that came out in 2001 and garnered such a simultaneously high and low reception that I thought, "why the hell not?" Throw in a panic attack over something bank related, and that about sums up my new year holiday (to be continued when Chinese New Year rolls around).
Those of you who've friended evocates may already be aware, her 2010 has started with quite the 'shounen manga' type of 'dramatiku akushun'. I won't go into detail. What this basically means is that she's got a lot to sort out right now, so I'll be handling more Windshear-related updates than before until she's more or less dealt with the real life shit that's hit the fan.
That said, have 50 sentence on the oddity that is 3359, most of them written by me but only because Dream barely felt like writing. I'm considering doing sentences on 10069 for the next update as well. Thoughts? Requests? And don't worry, Dream's safe now. Send her some positive energy, guys.
And we'll definitely complete Windshear.
Enjoy~♥
50 Times the Denial [for 1sentence]
Authors: kagayachou and evocates
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn
Characters/Pairings: Sasagawa Ryohei x Gokudera Hayato
Theme Set: beta
Rating: PG-13
Warnings[s]: slash
Summary: 50 sentences on Ryohei and Gokudera's mutual dysfunctionalities of the Windshear variety.
#01 - Walking
Gokudera tried to be quick about it, almost running around the corridor to avoid being seen by the older man, except that pride would not allow him to make such a cowardly retreat so openly, and as a result, Ryohei caught up anyway.
#02 - Waltz
It was Tsuna who put it into Gokudera's head that teaching Ryohei how to do ballroom dancing might improve the Lawn Head's chances of getting hitched, but it didn't mean Gokudera was happy with taking the female role, especially when Ryohei loudly exclaimed that he was extremely sure Gokudera was a man, and "Goddamnit, dumbass, watch where you put your feet!"
#03 - Wishes
He wasn't sure how the Lawn Head found out - no wait, he was sure that a certain baseball idiot had something to do with it - but there, right by Ryohei, asleep with his drooling head on the table, was a lumpy white cake that read, 'Happy Birthday, Octopussy,' and Gokudera was at a loss for whether he would have preferred a store-bought cake, a homemade one, or none, absolutely none at all.
#04 - Wonder
Sometimes, Gokudera would stop mid-insult and just stare at him, all wide-eyed and unguarded; Ryohei could never figure out how to make that look last, let alone how to make it come about in the first place, but boy oh boy did he try.
#05 - Worry
Ryohei squinted as he tried to tell whether Gokudera was suddenly leaning into him because the man was desperately tired, incredibly drunk or heavily wounded, because if there were any other reasons, the universe would explode.
#06 - Whimsy
Gokudera screamed himself hoarse for the dumbass to let go until he chanced upon the jagged rocks that were maybe a thousand and something meters below the bloody cliff that the fucking Lawn Head insisted on scaling, and that was all good because Ryohei just wanted to show his Octopus Head the most extremely breathtaking sunrise he could find.
#07 - Waste/Wasteland
Carefully, Ryohei smoothed out the crumples and laid the used pieces of paper on the table once again, mentally prepared to spend a few hours to really focus and try to figure out what Gokudera saw in their last doodling session before everything got chucked into the bin.
#08 - Whiskey and rum
A long string of creative, multi-lingual curses echoed through the bedroom wall and into Tsuna's ears after Gokudera woke up in bed to find Ryohei wrapped tight around him, like a giant octopus.
#09 - War
Finally, Gokudera barked at him to take a fucking break; there were only so many people Ryohei could heal at a time, and Sun flame users had no business to let themselves burn out.
#10 - Weddings
On such occasions, they look at each other, and think of not marrying, not dating, and certainly not falling in love with that stubborn bastard.
#11 - Birthday
He'd almost managed to convince the dumbass that he'd baked the cake to show him how it was really done, when Bianchi sauntered into the kitchen and started gushing about how cooking was the truest expression of love.
#12 - Blessing
As a teenager, it had been a constant fear - being outed by Shamal or worse, the Tenth - but when everyone and their bird suddenly became extremely supportive of his non-existent relationship with Ryohei, Gokudera just wanted a good strong drink, and amnesia, blessed amnesia...
#13 - Bias
While they were never going to agree on who was the most important person in the world, at least they both thought that the ones they were debating between made the most precious couple ever.
#14 - Burning
And then there came the troubling matter of Ryohei becoming hot - and smoking hot when shirtless, which was already his typical fashion of choice - but one day, when he was emptying the contents of a plastic bottle over his head and the water was making his sunkissed six pack glisten under the clear summer sky, he became so sizzling hot that Gokudera slapped himself for staring, among other things, and stomped out of sight.
#15 - Breathing
After winning that impromptu dance competition against 15 year old Lambo, a flushed and undoubtedly tipsy Gokudera slid down from the dinning table and directly onto Ryohei's lap, thereby temporarily robbing the older man of thought, speech and the ability to breathe.
#16 - Breaking
"Oops," Ryohei says, and hopes that Gokudera won't notice that he broke an entire drawer of test tubes again.
#17 - Belief
"I just think he's hot," Gokudera swore at the mirror, "and that is all."
#18 - Balloon
While Gokudera understood the logic behind making balloon sculptures, he had never bothered to put theory into practice, and it was kind of amazing watching Ryohei deftly shape and twist those long balloons into whatever the brats wanted, in seconds, and with hands that could shatter boulders, no less.
#19 - Balcony
Since Gokudera swore to blast Ryohei's balls off if he ever banged his door off its hinges again, Ryohei got creative.
#20 - Bane
No matter how much Gokudera might decry that Ryohei had been, is, and will always be the bane of his existence, Kyoko knows that the slight glances and small smiles that Gokudera shoots Ryohei's way when he thinks no one is looking speaks the truth much, much more.
#21 - Quiet
When they reached the mountain summit, Gokudera was actually kind of thankful to hear Ryohei loudly exclaim, "Now, we rest to the limit," so he didn't have to voice it as a demand himself.
#22 - Quirks
One of Ryohei's oddest quirks, Gokudera finds, it his habit of unwinding the bandages around his hands whenever he finishes a mission, and pocketing them to keep no matter how dirty or bloodied they are.
#23 - Question
In response, Gokudera tugged Ryohei down by that itchy tie that he didn't like wearing anyway, and very quickly divested him of everything, including the original question.
#24 - Quarrel
Sometimes, it was so easy to lose his temper at the Lawn Head that it was downright unsettling when it was Ryohei's turn to be angry at him first.
#25 - Quitting
Glowering at Ryohei for mashing the butt of his last cigarette into the ashtray, Gokudera growled, "The hell do you care?"
#26 - Jump
If Tsuna says 'Jump,' Gokudera asks 'How high,' but if Ryohei says the same thing, the response will only be the resounding 'FUCK OFF, LAWN HEAD'.
#27 - Jester
If Reborn is the self-appointed Vizier in this Court of Fools, then surely Ryohei and Gokudera must share the position of Jester, given how often their slapstick antics amuse everyone.
#28 - Jousting
When Gokudera refused to have "a battle of wits" with "an unarmed person," Ryohei stood still for a couple of minutes with his brows creased and lips pursed, then hurried off to retrieve his trusty boxing gloves.
#29 - Jewel
Never once has Ryohei compared Gokudera's eyes to emeralds, because they are not - they are more like stormy seas, too dark and usually too conflicted and angry to be bright and clear like jewels.
#30 - Just
Perhaps to others, it's just a hand on the shoulder, but Tsuna knows better, knows Gokudera well enough that he doesn't like to touch other people, and for him to reach out to Ryohei says far too much.
#31 - Smirk
It didn't take long for Ryohei to notice, once he started paying attention, that Gokudera always seemed the happiest when he was in the midst of solving extremely tough shit, but then again, the same sharp tug of his lips also tended to reveal itself when Octopussy was about ready to eat him alive.
#32 - Sorrow
Gokudera didn't know whether to laugh or cry when he realized that his birthday, his mother's death-day, was also the first day he... and Ryohei... that.
#33 - Stupidity
"ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID OR SOMETHING," reverberates through the Vongola mansion, but to Tsuna's surprise, the roaring voice is not Gokudera's, but Ryohei's.
#34 - Serenade
It wasn't so bad when the baseball idiot sang to the tonfa bastard, but when Lawn Head decided to try his hand at it too, Gokudera was so mortified that he triple-bombed the dumb jock before remembering why he shouldn't.
#35 - Sarcasm
Usually, Ryohei could chalk up the harsh words as part and parcel to Gokudera's 'does not play well with others' attitude, but this time, "Oi, whatever you just said sounded extremely not nice!"
#36 - Sordid
As he had been drunk, Gokudera recalled little of that first night, but he remembered leaning against a wall initially, legs wrapped securely around Ryohei's hips, and good, strong trusts that made him loose his mind before the other man slowed down, stepping back from the wall, and then there was nothing else to lean into or hang onto except for the fucking dumbass, who just fucking stood there- fucking started walking- fucking carrying him across the room to, "Fuck me, what did I do?!"
#37 - Soliloquy
Ryohei had prepared a speech - complete with keywords on index cards and a few doodles here and there to quickly remind him of what to say - but he'd forgotten about putting his cue cards away, and when Gokudera found them spread out on the library table, he couldn't tell whether he was more surprised by the fact that Ryohei honestly liked him, or that he could actually understand the whole damned confession.
#38 - Sojourn
As a result of realizing that Ryohei had developed feelings for him, Gokudera arranged for the Vongola Sun guardian to be sent on a very long mission away from Italy, preferably lengthly enough for the fool to return with a bride, and maybe a brat or two of his own.
#39 - Share
And when that plan failed, Gokudera found himself answering to the Tenth and Reborn, the latter being the one who then signed him up for a ten day training regime with Coronello, wherein the Vongola Storm was expected to learn how to work with the Vongola Sun come what may, "Unless you'd prefer - who else is free at the moment - Mist?"
#40 - Solitary
Given a choice, Gokudera prefers to be alone - or with the Tenth, but Ryohei isn't - and there were times when a man's got to do what a man's got to do, which is why when Gokudera continues to avoid him, Ryohei grabs him by the shoulders and screams, "GODDAMNIT, OCTOPUS HEAD, I LIKE YOU WHETHER YOU'RE DRUNK OR SOBER!"
#41 - Nowhere
Ryohei's confession speech went up in smoke, never to be cited, ever, though not through lack of trying, but Gokudera hung onto those cue cards anyway... somewhere.
#42 - Neutral
Reborn once commented that his Sun and Storm guardians were too passionate to be anything but extremely explosive with one another, and Tsuna wholeheartedly agreed; Nii-san and Gokudera-kun certainly knew how to set each other off.
#43 - Nuance
Sometimes, Gokudera becomes so caught up with the subtle details on the equation that Ryohei has to smudge the chalk a bit just to get him to look at the rest of the blackboard once more.
#44 - Near
Now that there was room for comparison, though not that there was a particular cause, Gokudera found that shrugging Yamamoto's arm off his shoulder was considerably easier than prying himself out of Ryohei's iron grasp.
#45 - Natural
Ryohei used to call Kyoko when it got late, to reassure her that he was safe and would be home soon, but as time progressed, he started calling her fiancé more, because Tsuna could pass the message along just as well without all the nasty details that neither of them wanted her to hear, and then... it was only natural, wasn't it, to stop calling the married couple in the middle of the night and start reporting to the young mafia don's Right Hand Man instead?
#46 - Horizon
Gokudera didn't really care for watching the sunrise because he just wasn't a morning person, but when they finally returned to the mansion, and evening rolled around, he marched Ryohei to the roof and ordered him to watch the sun go down.
#47 - Valiant
"I'll cover you, you said," Gokudera groused at the unconscious dumbass on the infirmary bed.
#48 - Virtuous
"You honestly think that your sister seriously believes you when you say we had a 'private wrestling match' on a bed?"
#49 - Victory
Ryohei gave a loud whoop of joy when, out of the blue, he realized that he had brought a genuine smile to Gokudera's face a few months ago, but for the life of him, he couldn't remember what exactly happened in the first place.
#50 - Defeat
"I... I give up," Gokudera's response came in a breathless whisper with flushed cheeks, averted eyes, and a grudging, "you dope."
Mine involved family & friends, friendly strangers, a dog, watching the 3D version of Avatar, further acquainting myself with the immersive world of Dragon Age: Origins and oddly enough, getting The Bouncer, a PS2 Squaresoft game that came out in 2001 and garnered such a simultaneously high and low reception that I thought, "why the hell not?" Throw in a panic attack over something bank related, and that about sums up my new year holiday (to be continued when Chinese New Year rolls around).
Those of you who've friended evocates may already be aware, her 2010 has started with quite the 'shounen manga' type of 'dramatiku akushun'. I won't go into detail. What this basically means is that she's got a lot to sort out right now, so I'll be handling more Windshear-related updates than before until she's more or less dealt with the real life shit that's hit the fan.
That said, have 50 sentence on the oddity that is 3359, most of them written by me but only because Dream barely felt like writing. I'm considering doing sentences on 10069 for the next update as well. Thoughts? Requests? And don't worry, Dream's safe now. Send her some positive energy, guys.
And we'll definitely complete Windshear.
Enjoy~♥
50 Times the Denial [for 1sentence]
Authors: kagayachou and evocates
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn
Characters/Pairings: Sasagawa Ryohei x Gokudera Hayato
Theme Set: beta
Rating: PG-13
Warnings[s]: slash
Summary: 50 sentences on Ryohei and Gokudera's mutual dysfunctionalities of the Windshear variety.
#01 - Walking
Gokudera tried to be quick about it, almost running around the corridor to avoid being seen by the older man, except that pride would not allow him to make such a cowardly retreat so openly, and as a result, Ryohei caught up anyway.
#02 - Waltz
It was Tsuna who put it into Gokudera's head that teaching Ryohei how to do ballroom dancing might improve the Lawn Head's chances of getting hitched, but it didn't mean Gokudera was happy with taking the female role, especially when Ryohei loudly exclaimed that he was extremely sure Gokudera was a man, and "Goddamnit, dumbass, watch where you put your feet!"
#03 - Wishes
He wasn't sure how the Lawn Head found out - no wait, he was sure that a certain baseball idiot had something to do with it - but there, right by Ryohei, asleep with his drooling head on the table, was a lumpy white cake that read, 'Happy Birthday, Octopussy,' and Gokudera was at a loss for whether he would have preferred a store-bought cake, a homemade one, or none, absolutely none at all.
#04 - Wonder
Sometimes, Gokudera would stop mid-insult and just stare at him, all wide-eyed and unguarded; Ryohei could never figure out how to make that look last, let alone how to make it come about in the first place, but boy oh boy did he try.
#05 - Worry
Ryohei squinted as he tried to tell whether Gokudera was suddenly leaning into him because the man was desperately tired, incredibly drunk or heavily wounded, because if there were any other reasons, the universe would explode.
#06 - Whimsy
Gokudera screamed himself hoarse for the dumbass to let go until he chanced upon the jagged rocks that were maybe a thousand and something meters below the bloody cliff that the fucking Lawn Head insisted on scaling, and that was all good because Ryohei just wanted to show his Octopus Head the most extremely breathtaking sunrise he could find.
#07 - Waste/Wasteland
Carefully, Ryohei smoothed out the crumples and laid the used pieces of paper on the table once again, mentally prepared to spend a few hours to really focus and try to figure out what Gokudera saw in their last doodling session before everything got chucked into the bin.
#08 - Whiskey and rum
A long string of creative, multi-lingual curses echoed through the bedroom wall and into Tsuna's ears after Gokudera woke up in bed to find Ryohei wrapped tight around him, like a giant octopus.
#09 - War
Finally, Gokudera barked at him to take a fucking break; there were only so many people Ryohei could heal at a time, and Sun flame users had no business to let themselves burn out.
#10 - Weddings
On such occasions, they look at each other, and think of not marrying, not dating, and certainly not falling in love with that stubborn bastard.
#11 - Birthday
He'd almost managed to convince the dumbass that he'd baked the cake to show him how it was really done, when Bianchi sauntered into the kitchen and started gushing about how cooking was the truest expression of love.
#12 - Blessing
As a teenager, it had been a constant fear - being outed by Shamal or worse, the Tenth - but when everyone and their bird suddenly became extremely supportive of his non-existent relationship with Ryohei, Gokudera just wanted a good strong drink, and amnesia, blessed amnesia...
#13 - Bias
While they were never going to agree on who was the most important person in the world, at least they both thought that the ones they were debating between made the most precious couple ever.
#14 - Burning
And then there came the troubling matter of Ryohei becoming hot - and smoking hot when shirtless, which was already his typical fashion of choice - but one day, when he was emptying the contents of a plastic bottle over his head and the water was making his sunkissed six pack glisten under the clear summer sky, he became so sizzling hot that Gokudera slapped himself for staring, among other things, and stomped out of sight.
#15 - Breathing
After winning that impromptu dance competition against 15 year old Lambo, a flushed and undoubtedly tipsy Gokudera slid down from the dinning table and directly onto Ryohei's lap, thereby temporarily robbing the older man of thought, speech and the ability to breathe.
#16 - Breaking
"Oops," Ryohei says, and hopes that Gokudera won't notice that he broke an entire drawer of test tubes again.
#17 - Belief
"I just think he's hot," Gokudera swore at the mirror, "and that is all."
#18 - Balloon
While Gokudera understood the logic behind making balloon sculptures, he had never bothered to put theory into practice, and it was kind of amazing watching Ryohei deftly shape and twist those long balloons into whatever the brats wanted, in seconds, and with hands that could shatter boulders, no less.
#19 - Balcony
Since Gokudera swore to blast Ryohei's balls off if he ever banged his door off its hinges again, Ryohei got creative.
#20 - Bane
No matter how much Gokudera might decry that Ryohei had been, is, and will always be the bane of his existence, Kyoko knows that the slight glances and small smiles that Gokudera shoots Ryohei's way when he thinks no one is looking speaks the truth much, much more.
#21 - Quiet
When they reached the mountain summit, Gokudera was actually kind of thankful to hear Ryohei loudly exclaim, "Now, we rest to the limit," so he didn't have to voice it as a demand himself.
#22 - Quirks
One of Ryohei's oddest quirks, Gokudera finds, it his habit of unwinding the bandages around his hands whenever he finishes a mission, and pocketing them to keep no matter how dirty or bloodied they are.
#23 - Question
In response, Gokudera tugged Ryohei down by that itchy tie that he didn't like wearing anyway, and very quickly divested him of everything, including the original question.
#24 - Quarrel
Sometimes, it was so easy to lose his temper at the Lawn Head that it was downright unsettling when it was Ryohei's turn to be angry at him first.
#25 - Quitting
Glowering at Ryohei for mashing the butt of his last cigarette into the ashtray, Gokudera growled, "The hell do you care?"
#26 - Jump
If Tsuna says 'Jump,' Gokudera asks 'How high,' but if Ryohei says the same thing, the response will only be the resounding 'FUCK OFF, LAWN HEAD'.
#27 - Jester
If Reborn is the self-appointed Vizier in this Court of Fools, then surely Ryohei and Gokudera must share the position of Jester, given how often their slapstick antics amuse everyone.
#28 - Jousting
When Gokudera refused to have "a battle of wits" with "an unarmed person," Ryohei stood still for a couple of minutes with his brows creased and lips pursed, then hurried off to retrieve his trusty boxing gloves.
#29 - Jewel
Never once has Ryohei compared Gokudera's eyes to emeralds, because they are not - they are more like stormy seas, too dark and usually too conflicted and angry to be bright and clear like jewels.
#30 - Just
Perhaps to others, it's just a hand on the shoulder, but Tsuna knows better, knows Gokudera well enough that he doesn't like to touch other people, and for him to reach out to Ryohei says far too much.
#31 - Smirk
It didn't take long for Ryohei to notice, once he started paying attention, that Gokudera always seemed the happiest when he was in the midst of solving extremely tough shit, but then again, the same sharp tug of his lips also tended to reveal itself when Octopussy was about ready to eat him alive.
#32 - Sorrow
Gokudera didn't know whether to laugh or cry when he realized that his birthday, his mother's death-day, was also the first day he... and Ryohei... that.
#33 - Stupidity
"ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID OR SOMETHING," reverberates through the Vongola mansion, but to Tsuna's surprise, the roaring voice is not Gokudera's, but Ryohei's.
#34 - Serenade
It wasn't so bad when the baseball idiot sang to the tonfa bastard, but when Lawn Head decided to try his hand at it too, Gokudera was so mortified that he triple-bombed the dumb jock before remembering why he shouldn't.
#35 - Sarcasm
Usually, Ryohei could chalk up the harsh words as part and parcel to Gokudera's 'does not play well with others' attitude, but this time, "Oi, whatever you just said sounded extremely not nice!"
#36 - Sordid
As he had been drunk, Gokudera recalled little of that first night, but he remembered leaning against a wall initially, legs wrapped securely around Ryohei's hips, and good, strong trusts that made him loose his mind before the other man slowed down, stepping back from the wall, and then there was nothing else to lean into or hang onto except for the fucking dumbass, who just fucking stood there- fucking started walking- fucking carrying him across the room to, "Fuck me, what did I do?!"
#37 - Soliloquy
Ryohei had prepared a speech - complete with keywords on index cards and a few doodles here and there to quickly remind him of what to say - but he'd forgotten about putting his cue cards away, and when Gokudera found them spread out on the library table, he couldn't tell whether he was more surprised by the fact that Ryohei honestly liked him, or that he could actually understand the whole damned confession.
#38 - Sojourn
As a result of realizing that Ryohei had developed feelings for him, Gokudera arranged for the Vongola Sun guardian to be sent on a very long mission away from Italy, preferably lengthly enough for the fool to return with a bride, and maybe a brat or two of his own.
#39 - Share
And when that plan failed, Gokudera found himself answering to the Tenth and Reborn, the latter being the one who then signed him up for a ten day training regime with Coronello, wherein the Vongola Storm was expected to learn how to work with the Vongola Sun come what may, "Unless you'd prefer - who else is free at the moment - Mist?"
#40 - Solitary
Given a choice, Gokudera prefers to be alone - or with the Tenth, but Ryohei isn't - and there were times when a man's got to do what a man's got to do, which is why when Gokudera continues to avoid him, Ryohei grabs him by the shoulders and screams, "GODDAMNIT, OCTOPUS HEAD, I LIKE YOU WHETHER YOU'RE DRUNK OR SOBER!"
#41 - Nowhere
Ryohei's confession speech went up in smoke, never to be cited, ever, though not through lack of trying, but Gokudera hung onto those cue cards anyway... somewhere.
#42 - Neutral
Reborn once commented that his Sun and Storm guardians were too passionate to be anything but extremely explosive with one another, and Tsuna wholeheartedly agreed; Nii-san and Gokudera-kun certainly knew how to set each other off.
#43 - Nuance
Sometimes, Gokudera becomes so caught up with the subtle details on the equation that Ryohei has to smudge the chalk a bit just to get him to look at the rest of the blackboard once more.
#44 - Near
Now that there was room for comparison, though not that there was a particular cause, Gokudera found that shrugging Yamamoto's arm off his shoulder was considerably easier than prying himself out of Ryohei's iron grasp.
#45 - Natural
Ryohei used to call Kyoko when it got late, to reassure her that he was safe and would be home soon, but as time progressed, he started calling her fiancé more, because Tsuna could pass the message along just as well without all the nasty details that neither of them wanted her to hear, and then... it was only natural, wasn't it, to stop calling the married couple in the middle of the night and start reporting to the young mafia don's Right Hand Man instead?
#46 - Horizon
Gokudera didn't really care for watching the sunrise because he just wasn't a morning person, but when they finally returned to the mansion, and evening rolled around, he marched Ryohei to the roof and ordered him to watch the sun go down.
#47 - Valiant
"I'll cover you, you said," Gokudera groused at the unconscious dumbass on the infirmary bed.
#48 - Virtuous
"You honestly think that your sister seriously believes you when you say we had a 'private wrestling match' on a bed?"
#49 - Victory
Ryohei gave a loud whoop of joy when, out of the blue, he realized that he had brought a genuine smile to Gokudera's face a few months ago, but for the life of him, he couldn't remember what exactly happened in the first place.
#50 - Defeat
"I... I give up," Gokudera's response came in a breathless whisper with flushed cheeks, averted eyes, and a grudging, "you dope."