Another rant

[kage_ankoku]

It's not that I'm angry. At the most I could describe myself as frustrated. But mostly I'm just tired

Tired of always being "wrong". Tired of always being treated like a sack of shit. My opinions warrant no merit, no acceptance, cannot be right, and just prove what a fucking dumb shit I am.

I'm tired of this bullshit

Comments

[shayna611]

many *hug*s and much strength to you

[kage_ankoku]

Aw. Thanks *hugs* I really appreciate the hugs and the wishes of strength.

Sorry for the delay in replying. I've spent most of the past few days either passed out in bed or at school/work.

[shayna611]

no worries

and I totally agree that cliches are what they are for a reason - they work. No story ideas are new. It's what you do with the ideas that matters. And, though your abilities with prose and style may be still growing, you most certainly have the knack for devising and telling interesting stories, so don't let anyone make you think otherwise :)

[kage_ankoku]

Exactly! There are all sorts of things that can be done with cliches to add your own twist to them (why oh why did this just make me think of Pepsi Twist? ^^;). Aww... thank you, really. I try to make things interesting for the readers so I'm glad you think I have a knack. And I'm always trying to improve my prose and style.

Thanks again. ^^

[the_ratgirl]

oh hun, -huggles and snuggles tightly- i am sorry that your friend treats you like that. that is really uncalled for. I would like to read some of your stories if i can. I am sure you are a great writer. I have a couple stories that are a work in progress, however i haven't looked at them in a little while because i have been working lots. and those kids sound soo cute. wish i could have been there.

-huggles and snuggles more- Love you hun and take care

[kage_ankoku]

*snuggleglomps* S'okay. I'm not happy about it, but I feel a little better now that I'm actually talking about it rather than just letting it build inside. Between my sister and I, we're trying to find a more permanent solution before I end up freaking out at her; just because she does it to me doesn't mean I should to her.

I wouldn't say a great writer. ^^; I still have universes to go. But you can find most of my stuff here: http://community.livejournal.com/runaway_tales/tag/%5Bauthor%5D+kage_ankoku Or under my Story and Writing tags. I'd love to hear about some of your works in progress, even if they're currently in pause because of work. :3

The kids were adorable, let me tell you. I think all the young children in the world are united in some sort of effort to cheer me up; yesterday there was this one-year old whose laugh made me so happy. I loved it. <3 It was one of those laughs that are really high, almost like little shrieks and it ends in this kind of hiccup sound

[pirate_mousie]

That's... uncalled for. It sucks that she treats you like that; you don't deserve it. I would suggest that you call her on it (as gently as possible, of course) and ask her to at least use some tact, since it seems to me that mostly she doesn't think about other people before she speaks, but since you rely on her to get to class much of the time, and she doesn't seem like the kind of person to react favorably, I wonder if that's a good idea after all.

*has absolutely no useful advice and offers hugs instead*

Also! All three of my main fairy boys have offered to help cheer you up in the traditional way: semi-nude poses.

[Duex: ...Wait. What?]
[Double: We have, we have?]
[Zree: Of course we have! You don't want her to feel down, do you?]
[Double: Well, no, no, but--]
[Zree: Great! ^^ Let's get this off.... *whisks Double's shirt off*]
[Double: #o.o# !!!]

[kage_ankoku]

Her response to me telling her gently to use some tact would be along the lines of, "Fuck you, it's your fault, get out of the house and don't come back until you apologize." She doesn't take to anyone implying that she might want to take more care before speaking. I watched her do this to her sister the other day actually, though not quite for the same reason. And then she forgets she was ever angry with you, but when you ask her about it she's still right and you're still wrong. It's rather unfortunate actually.

*shakes head and hugs* No, I really appreciate your advice. I might end up telling her that she needs to treat others better one day anyhow, when I just stop caring. I just don't want to get to that point.

*chokes on ginger ale and bursts out laughing* Between your AU and this, I'm pretty damn cheery. xD Thanks, I really appreciate it.

[pirate_mousie]

I understand. You don't want to risk the friendship, and it seems like an awful lot of hassle that won't get much results, anyway.

Yay! ^^ I'm glad.

[Zree: But we haven't even gotten to the best part yet! *struggling to Duex's clothes*]
[Duex: Give it up, chump. Apple made these clothes, so the won't rip, and there are so many fucking buttons even I'm not entirely sure how they're supposed to come off. XP]
[Zree: Yeah? We'll just see about that! *whisk!*]
[Duex: o.o Double! Help!]
[Double: *is too busy hiding behind stuff* Hang in there, man, hang in there.]

[kage_ankoku]

As I said, she's great fun, in small doses that is. I've had a lot of great times with her. But being around her constantly can be corrosive. It's complex dilemma to say the least.

And somewhere, behind a bush or a pillar Tiffany is hiding with a camera waiting for these guys to take it all off. XD

[Tiffany: Shhh! You're not suppose to tell anyone I'm here! A bunch of sexy, hot guys are about to take it all off, and to waste this kind of opportunity would be purely sinful. >3]

*snickers* You guys. All of you are great at cheering me up. Thanks. ^^