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I am slightly frightened of myself right now. It turns out that the social "filter" that I've used all this time has used up a lot of my brain power, and I maybe was operating at 25 - 50% mental capacity when communicating with other people. Now, with the help of my absolutely AMAZING therapist, all of my psychological problems have apparently been solved, and I'm thinking more clearly than ever. My mind is now free to think through every situation calmly and rationally, and while I'm thinking of nothing in particular, I come up with ideas. Constant ideas. Amazing ideas. Nothing but ideas. I'm writing each of them down in my BlackBerry, and any of them could make millions if placed in the right hands. I will be pitching these ideas to the various businessmen I have gotten to know during my tenure at BakBone Software (who are specialized for GROWING new small businesses). I am absolutely amazed with the extent to which my brain has been held back and weighed down all of these years. I know this self-congratulation is probably is making me sound like a vain asshole, but I'm just conveying my honest emotions. I wonder if this renewed enthusiastic drive to learn and invent is powered by excitement surrounding the Obama election and how awesome this country is going to become over the next eight years. Either way, this week, the week of 11/3/2008, will never be forgotten as a time of great change and the possibility for peace and prosperity in my life.
7/31/09 EDIT: This entry is a case study in bipolar mania.
7/31/09 EDIT: This entry is a case study in bipolar mania.