so i'm here online when i should have my happy ass in bed...i've come to conclude dat i'm not EMO!! yea~ for me. but it seems like everyone around me is emo...hum...i kinda feel left out. oh well ( Read more... )

so here i am all sore from work. sitting here wondering if i've done n/ething wrong. wat have i done...short temper, angry, happy, sad, all of da above. mixed emotions all around. sometimes jus wanted to move so far away. yet i dont kno whass keeping me up here. wat is da attachment.

so i go to work at 8am thinking i work a 8-6pm shift today...but no~...my zone manager changed my schedule to my co-workers schedule and my co-workers schedule to my schedule w/out tellin no one. gawd things i do for this company ( Read more... )

Saundra: hello?
someone who calls da phone: hello is kai dere?
Saundra: he's busy tossing his salad and eating tuna right now...could i take a message?

jus another day in da neighborhood. huh... i need to work out. maybe i'll do dat while my laundry in washing tonight...do some cardio. yup thass the plan...hopefully...i cant wait til friday..payday...2nd shot. i really need to work out. i really do. i'll jus buy something from the store like a jump rope. i dont kno.

so here i am. i jus dont really want to do n/ething. we should look for new apartments or a house but instead we're prolly goin to stay home and i'm goin to play my PS2...i was at the store today and i was reading da business section of the newspaper yesterday and ps2 is made by sony and x-box is made by microsoft...so being japanese and being dat ( Read more... )

my new life has begun...well not really but it's close enough. i've had more energy den ever... but i dont kno if it's from da T or not. i get real tired after my 10-11 hr days at work...but den again i'm all over da damn place. i havent really felt n/e hornier. i'm never horny...hehe i jus like to look at pretty pretty gurls wid a nice BUTT. thass ( Read more... )

i'm happy happy joy joy. mark this day 9/17/04 re-birth of KAI!!

world of loneliness...breaking da habits dat haunt...sick of feelin as da whole world is on my shoulders. high expectations, jus waiting for me to collapse. not knowing where to turn, where to run, where to hide...in this game of life alone.

i'm reading a journal thing my ex wrote me a long time ago...it's kinda weird to read this over again. it kinda makes me smile and kinda gives me hope, but i've changed since those days...it jus feels weird to kno dat someone has loved me all dat much before. this is a strange feeling...why cant i believe dat someone could love me like dat? wtf.. ( Read more... )