I spelled congratulations wrong ( Read more... )

And I can't because it won't be seen in the right light, if seen at all. I've chosen between Chris and multiple people before, because he wants me to choose. He demands it. And I've listened before, I've followed. Listened to his every whim, apologized for my past that he does not accept. And he thinks he's the bitch? Not that I take pride in being ( Read more... )

I watch him walk away. And part of me wants him to stay, while the other wants him to stay away. So easy to get wrapped up and entangled. Easy to forget my tasks, to forget what it's like to be free. I don't want to have a weighed-down feeling when I'm with someone. I don't want to have the weight on my shoulders almost all the time. I want someone ( Read more... )

he has a xanga site. there's so much i cannot tell him because he will not listen ( Read more... )

Morose is the word for the day, whether or not it's the actual mood ( Read more... )

I got a C+ last semester. It means no car. And while I know I have no right to be pampered enough to have my parents let me use their car, it's the norm that I wish I were a part of. I am supposed to be living off of groceries that I buy from the store. Am I to walk? Not that it wouldn't be healthy. It's just that this is a matter of control. I ( Read more... )

The Jterm trip was excellent. It was exactly what I needed even if everything was wrong. Details on that later, tonight is for venting ( Read more... )

My trip has been postponed two days by two deaths ( Read more... )

People say funny things. They do mean otherwise even in the ones I always thought would fulfill their word. I can't expect anyone to stay true 24/7, but the moodiness is a bitch sometimes. Time to go back to school. Time to go away. Time to reenter this. I'm not happy at Messiah. But I want to be content within it. I'm going off into the desert, ( Read more... )

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