XXXXXX: you've meant more to me than anyone in my life, ever, and i know i threw that away, and i just want you to understand that i know what a fuckup i've been
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This is too sad, especially because I don't even know what you're referring to. You've never fucked me over. You are a confusing person, I admit, but I always took it in a fun way. I still miss you sometimes and wish I could go back to CW for one day and hang out with you and Leroy and Audrey.. the old gang. :) So.. just wanted to say that I care if I see you again, even though I suppose it's not too likely that I will. I always thought you were a great friend. *hugs* Good luck on whatever.. 'growth process' you're heading into.
The issue Kai, if you want total honesty, is you live in your own world where it's very hard for anyone else to be acknowledged. I remember maybe two times when you asked me how I was doing and a million times where you told me everything that was going on with you. Don't get me wrong, I love to hear how people are doing. But a few meaningful "How was your day"s are nice too.
I think I know a little of these past events that caused you to lose relationships here in the present, but tough shit. No one (except my roommate from last year) has a perfect or easy life. Having a shitty childhood is a reason for making bad choices later on but not an excuse. You're better than you've been.
I'll probably never see you again and, well, that won't be any different from not seeing you after first semester last year. I'm not saying it makes me indifferent, only that you not coming back doesn't change my social order since you disappeared months before anyway. There is a twinge of sad though, we had fun back in the day.
hey darlin... I'm sorry things didn't work out, and things had to end on the note they did. Yes, I loved you, and I hope you know that and never doubt that. In all honesty, you hurt me, badly, and twice. And you broke all trust between us. You never opened up to me, never talked to me, told me anything. And when you did, half of it was lies, as I found out later on. I don't regret anything about us, I'd do it all over again. I really would. I miss you, I do, maybe you don't want to hear that, maybe I don't want to admit that to myself even, but I do. I do hope to see you again, if not soon, maybe some day. I wish only the best for you and I hope you get everything you need worked out, and I hope we can still talk. Take care of yourself sweetie. I'm still here if you need me, and you can always call me.
Heya. I've been out of the loop for a bit so I'm not clear on what's going on, but I'm sorry you've been having a hard time. Human brains can be positively atrocious things to deal with, yeah? It's been a while, but I still think of you as a friend, and I'm glad to hear that you're working towards fixing whatever it is that's causing you so much distress. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to call (443-512-0754). Hopefully I won't come to regret posting that on LJ, haha. Anyway, I'm home most of the day, although as a creature of the night, it might be difficult getting ahold of me before noon as I'll probably be sleeping. e___e' *snug*
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I think I know a little of these past events that caused you to lose relationships here in the present, but tough shit. No one (except my roommate from last year) has a perfect or easy life. Having a shitty childhood is a reason for making bad choices later on but not an excuse. You're better than you've been.
I'll probably never see you again and, well, that won't be any different from not seeing you after first semester last year. I'm not saying it makes me indifferent, only that you not coming back doesn't change my social order since you disappeared months before anyway. There is a twinge of sad though, we had fun back in the day.
Good luck.
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I'm sorry things didn't work out, and things had to end on the note they did. Yes, I loved you, and I hope you know that and never doubt that. In all honesty, you hurt me, badly, and twice. And you broke all trust between us. You never opened up to me, never talked to me, told me anything. And when you did, half of it was lies, as I found out later on. I don't regret anything about us, I'd do it all over again. I really would. I miss you, I do, maybe you don't want to hear that, maybe I don't want to admit that to myself even, but I do. I do hope to see you again, if not soon, maybe some day. I wish only the best for you and I hope you get everything you need worked out, and I hope we can still talk. Take care of yourself sweetie. I'm still here if you need me, and you can always call me.
Love Always,
Caleb
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