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kaitlincoop33

Back for a bit...

Dec 11, 2006 13:56

You were wrong, you know. When you said, "Good things happen to good people, and bad things happen to bad people" A person can be evil, truly evil and have everything handed to them on a silver platter. And a poor person, with a heart full of gold and can barely make enough money to survive on. I believe the saying is true, "You reap what you sew ( Read more... )

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findouthow December 11 2006, 20:57:51 UTC

I'm saving this in my memories to draw strength from.
I feel really bad for questioning God when I need him the most. I feel guilty and ungrateful that I'm not focusing on the wonderful things that I do have in my life. Wonderful mother and brother and good friends. Maybe it's just a phase that I have to go through to know that I truly believe in Him. Things just came at me so fast, I'm still trying to catch up and make the best out of the worst, but it's hard. Guilt and anger seem to be eating at me from the inside out and I don't want to be that person who carries around those feelings and shuts down.

I just have to patient with this situation and with myself. I know I'll come around soon.

kaitlincoop33 December 12 2006, 18:08:02 UTC

I was thinking of you when I started to write everything down. Each person has to go through their own triumps. *hugs* How is your mom? Is she doing better?

findouthow December 13 2006, 04:26:01 UTC

Thank you. I just talked her, she's doing the best she can. She's actually doing better then me, but I'm so proud of her. Her first treatment is tomorrow. I hope that everything goes well. I don't think I can take anymore set backs.

She's so strong and I can only draw from her strength. One day at a time, just trying to get through the ups and downs.

kaitlincoop33 December 13 2006, 14:47:12 UTC

I'm glad she's doing okay, I'll pray for her and that all goes well. *hugs*

Set backs, they are very hard to deal with, My sister in law who has Berkets(sp?) she has to have another surgery today. And she's had 5 so far I think.

I just wish I could close my eyes and everything was like it was 3 months ago.

perfectchange December 12 2006, 13:43:36 UTC

I know what you mean, but I kind of just accept whatever happens now. I used to question God myself and I'd feel bad. I don't know, but it's probably a reason why I've become more of a pessimist.

*hugs*

kaitlincoop33 December 12 2006, 18:09:27 UTC

*hugs* Yeah I know what you mean. I take it one day at a time now.

lasha4god December 12 2006, 14:06:49 UTC

*Big Hugs* -- I appreciate how open and honest you are and I'm sure others do too. Hopefully it can be a message to someone who needs hear it just as much as you need to write it out. Glad you are finally coming to terms and healing.

kaitlincoop33 December 12 2006, 18:11:09 UTC

*hugs* Thank you. Something was telling me to write it down, and I did. I hope that it will touch someone who is reading it.

How are things with your husband and his brother? I hope the brother is adjusting better.

lasha4god December 12 2006, 21:49:05 UTC

We haven't seen him much lately. I hope and pray he'll come to heal and actually grieve, but somehow I don't see it happening soon.

kaitlincoop33 December 13 2006, 14:48:37 UTC

Yeah I hope and pray that he does, I believe he will come around. There's only so much you can take of not healing and grieving.