I really feel like the world is a dream. Not like the matrix, but something more.....sinister. The thing people hate is feeling like they are being controlled. Feeling like this gives me a very persistent feeling of anxiety that I just cant stand now. I don't know how to get rid of it ( Read more... )

well..it all started out like the average day. I wake up...look around, think about how curious I am, and then I stand up and walk into the bathroom at look at myself in the mirror. I think I am dazzling so it can't be helped. I just really want to be left alone right now. I don't know what I say or what I do, but this is the only medium where I ( Read more... )

It's that special time of day for me to spill useless garbage into the interwebs. It doesn't directly impact anyone's lives. Hence the reason why I say it's rather useless.It's amazing how much control the human mind has over other bodily functions. The anger brought to the light from my previous post is still there. I feel that it may be possible ( Read more... )

I have never imagined in the depths of my mind and soul lurked the ability to feel such an intense rage. I have long known that I have an almost hulk-like repression problem. Thank God that it's not accompanied with a personality disorder. One day, I will get over this amazing hump. For the past six years, this anger has been constant...hidden ( Read more... )

I am preparing for a nice brisk walk down the street to DOom's house. I was supposed to go out with my homegirl tonight, but meh...i am not in the mood really. Last night kind of burned me out as it were. It was alot of fun though. My friends that I used to work with decided that they wanted to go to a gay/lesbian spot. Of course...I am not of the ( Read more... )

i must say. this was a random video i found. i Hope that one day I am blessed to have a lil monkey prince that is this intelligent. Perhaps one day a woman will knock me out and make the dream come true.....LOL!!

korean baby singing hey jude

i swear in this life that me and money aren't meant to get along lol I did get the new job though. This must be the penance I pay to get ahead a bit.

As always, I have dumb stuff to talk about lol. I had an odd day that went by in the week where I didn't fight against the grain like I always do. I wasn't stubborn for no reason. I didn't hide behind a nonchalant face and actually showed some sign of emotion. That was interesting. Don't really want to talk about it to be honest because thinking ( Read more... )

man...as soon as the goblin king stops unplugging the intranets, i will be able to update..and boy do i have an update!!!

peace...

In continuation of what I wrote a few days ago, this fucktard of a woman that I know is under the impression that I am her "sex partner" HAHAHAHA!!! That was cute the first time I heard her say it over the phone. What kind of guy does she take me for. It is one thing to be in the heat of the moment and biological and chemical precosis take place ( Read more... )