i hear you talk about all this, but then i think why can't i care? i mean i do care on one level, but *really* care?
but then i realized, you have your fight, and i have mine. even with my bipolar vastly improved from the past, i'm still my greatest danger. i still see it that i'm much more likely to hurt/kill myself than someone else do it. and it's a daily battle that uses up a lot of my energy to keep everything together. and when i'm better, i go fighting for people like me. i don't have enough energy to go out and pursue another cause. i can't even fight the gay fight.
Re: you know...kalisagalinaMarch 27 2006, 16:35:42 UTC
ah, see, signal from noise. What is signal, and what is noise? You find signal- bipolar, then you try to apply it.. to this bigger picture... it gets lost in the noise. It becomes "all this
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yeah, same cause, different slant, different niche. same inequality. that guy on the plane really touched me. why oh why didn't he take his meds? it's the curse of bipolar. what about the people who want meds but can't afford them or the doctor to prescribe them? why do the good psychiatrists tend to be the ones not on insurance panels (because insurance sucks with all their red tape)? yeah, don't get me ranting about bipolar.
but i go where i can go. make some use of this illness i have. be the best effector molecule i can be in whatever niche i am in. err...
Re: you know...kalisagalinaMarch 28 2006, 06:41:43 UTC
There you go-- except all that stuff isn't because of bipolar, its because we live in a society where profit comes before people. In other words, capitalism
is the reason people can't afford their medications
is the reason people can't afford the good psychiatrists
is the reason that so many have no control over their lives
I think if more of the "intellectual elite" cared on a core level as you do (I'm not talking about the goddamn junior league throwing money at the cause o' the week) they might become a vehicle for real social change- as it stands, they are the most caste-oriented people on the planet.
All I can understand is that we must keep talking. Dialogue. We know this is wrong, we know the caste system is alive and well.
And the victory is born when we voice it, call attention to it. Bringing it up to our colleagues.
But I don't know, Renee, how to really do it all that well. Mostly I just say it, let people get uncomfortable. But that's as far as I get- I move the reeds a little and expose the concrete wall.
All I know is this isn't working.
(In fact I think we have all known it for at least a decade now)
You are a badass, Renee. We will always be terrorists.
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but then i realized, you have your fight, and i have mine. even with my bipolar vastly improved from the past, i'm still my greatest danger. i still see it that i'm much more likely to hurt/kill myself than someone else do it. and it's a daily battle that uses up a lot of my energy to keep everything together. and when i'm better, i go fighting for people like me. i don't have enough energy to go out and pursue another cause. i can't even fight the gay fight.
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but i go where i can go. make some use of this illness i have. be the best effector molecule i can be in whatever niche i am in. err...
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There you go-- except all that stuff isn't because of bipolar, its because we live in a society where profit comes before people. In other words, capitalism
is the reason people can't afford their medications
is the reason people can't afford the good psychiatrists
is the reason that so many have no control over their lives
And that's why we fight the exact same cause.
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All I can understand is that we must keep talking. Dialogue. We know this is wrong, we know the caste system is alive and well.
And the victory is born when we voice it, call attention to it. Bringing it up to our colleagues.
But I don't know, Renee, how to really do it all that well. Mostly I just say it, let people get uncomfortable. But that's as far as I get- I move the reeds a little and expose the concrete wall.
All I know is this isn't working.
(In fact I think we have all known it for at least a decade now)
You are a badass, Renee. We will always be terrorists.
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