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HAPPY EASTER...
this one sucked almost as bad as they could...
let's recap Easters past...
let's begin with this terrible nightmare I have before every Easter, birthday and Christmas.
since I was little and mostly after I found out the truth about the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus, I would have the same nightmare that when I woke up there was nothing, because my mom had slept in or forgot to do it... I'd wake up and run out to where the Easter baskets are supposed to be and nothing... it was sad and I think that explains a lot about me... I have anxiety..
10th grade I got a fish from Wal-mart the night before Easter, because he smiled at me, his name was Happy... he died on Easter morning...
11th grade... I got a red dress and a black and red bandana... my dad flipped out, because I wore it to church, but I actually went to church, that Easter was actually ok. I won the Easter Egg hunt and Stacy was pregnant with Sydney.
12th grade... got a denim skirt and a red gingham bandana, my parents flipped out because I went to Matt's house for an Easter egg hunt, I had an egg smashed over my head and confetti was in my hair... I didn't win the Easter egg hunt. Sydney was just barely born.
last year... I got another denim skirt and a pink t-shirt and a pink bandana, that I wore to church when I went with Jeremy's parents and I went to the class that Jer's dad taught. I blocked mostly everything out, because Jordan had an episode and he burnt his arm with inscence because of some sacrificial thing he came up with... he went to UNI for the 5th or so time that Easter...
this Easter... last night after SNL, Jordan decided to watch Talk Sex... my mom hates that show, and sex isn't something my mom likes to talk about. She asked Jordan to turn it off, and he had to argue with her about why he watched otherwise he'd turn out gay, because he doesn't know enough about sex. I thought they were joking and at some point the argument turned into an argument about gays if it's a sin to be gay or what not. Jordan was saying "Mom I understand your stand point, but you're not understanding mine" and because I thought they were joking, I turned to my mom and said "all Jordan is trying to tell you is he's gay." and she started crying. She kept telling me and Jordan that we have become wicked and we have fallen into the hands of the wicked and so my dad got mad at me saying I have no feelings and I need to be more sensitive. and I was so confused... when she finally came back, I was like sorry mom, I was just joking around, I didn't know you guys were so seriously arguing... after that it turned into Jordan hasn't taken his medication for four days and says he's doing fine without it, but I can tell he isn't fine, because he keeps yelling at me, and I started arguing with him because I wanted to let him know that he needs to take his medicine or else he loses control over his illness... he just screaming at me to shut up, so my mom went to bed and Jordan started throwing stuff at me and he dropped something out of the freezer and I told him to pick it up because my mom had just cleaned the kitchen and he told me to shut up then he started hitting me with his pillow and my dad didn't stop him. Then Jeremy came and got me.
When I woke up this morning... I came out to where the Easter baskets were supposed to be and there was nothing, so I spent my morning putting the Easter baskets together for my family. My grandma gets pissed if she doesn't have a hardboiled egg with her name on it when she gets here. So putting my vegan morals aside, I decorated eggs for my mom, my dad and my grandma. I wrapped them in cellophane and I put them in the room where are baskets should be, I hid eggs for the Easter egg hunt and I took a shower. I did this for Jordan, but mostly my mom. My mom said thank you. Jordan looked at it, didn't say a word and Jeremy still isn't awake, because he was up all night, making sure I was ok. Needless to say Jordan still hasn't taken his medicine and he's been to UNI so many times, they don't want him there anymore. If he has an episode tonight, I don't know what will happen. I was supposed to go to Jeremy's parents church at 11:00 but because Jeremy is asleep, we haven't left yet.
This might have been the worst Easter yet. I woke up to my childhood nightmare of my mom not putting the baskets out... :( I'm so immature, but it's sad, because I know it's so important to her.
however, the day is looking up. I'm on the mensi and tech week is next week for my concert on Friday and Satruday.
HAPPY FUCKING EASTER!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
this one sucked almost as bad as they could...
let's recap Easters past...
let's begin with this terrible nightmare I have before every Easter, birthday and Christmas.
since I was little and mostly after I found out the truth about the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus, I would have the same nightmare that when I woke up there was nothing, because my mom had slept in or forgot to do it... I'd wake up and run out to where the Easter baskets are supposed to be and nothing... it was sad and I think that explains a lot about me... I have anxiety..
10th grade I got a fish from Wal-mart the night before Easter, because he smiled at me, his name was Happy... he died on Easter morning...
11th grade... I got a red dress and a black and red bandana... my dad flipped out, because I wore it to church, but I actually went to church, that Easter was actually ok. I won the Easter Egg hunt and Stacy was pregnant with Sydney.
12th grade... got a denim skirt and a red gingham bandana, my parents flipped out because I went to Matt's house for an Easter egg hunt, I had an egg smashed over my head and confetti was in my hair... I didn't win the Easter egg hunt. Sydney was just barely born.
last year... I got another denim skirt and a pink t-shirt and a pink bandana, that I wore to church when I went with Jeremy's parents and I went to the class that Jer's dad taught. I blocked mostly everything out, because Jordan had an episode and he burnt his arm with inscence because of some sacrificial thing he came up with... he went to UNI for the 5th or so time that Easter...
this Easter... last night after SNL, Jordan decided to watch Talk Sex... my mom hates that show, and sex isn't something my mom likes to talk about. She asked Jordan to turn it off, and he had to argue with her about why he watched otherwise he'd turn out gay, because he doesn't know enough about sex. I thought they were joking and at some point the argument turned into an argument about gays if it's a sin to be gay or what not. Jordan was saying "Mom I understand your stand point, but you're not understanding mine" and because I thought they were joking, I turned to my mom and said "all Jordan is trying to tell you is he's gay." and she started crying. She kept telling me and Jordan that we have become wicked and we have fallen into the hands of the wicked and so my dad got mad at me saying I have no feelings and I need to be more sensitive. and I was so confused... when she finally came back, I was like sorry mom, I was just joking around, I didn't know you guys were so seriously arguing... after that it turned into Jordan hasn't taken his medication for four days and says he's doing fine without it, but I can tell he isn't fine, because he keeps yelling at me, and I started arguing with him because I wanted to let him know that he needs to take his medicine or else he loses control over his illness... he just screaming at me to shut up, so my mom went to bed and Jordan started throwing stuff at me and he dropped something out of the freezer and I told him to pick it up because my mom had just cleaned the kitchen and he told me to shut up then he started hitting me with his pillow and my dad didn't stop him. Then Jeremy came and got me.
When I woke up this morning... I came out to where the Easter baskets were supposed to be and there was nothing, so I spent my morning putting the Easter baskets together for my family. My grandma gets pissed if she doesn't have a hardboiled egg with her name on it when she gets here. So putting my vegan morals aside, I decorated eggs for my mom, my dad and my grandma. I wrapped them in cellophane and I put them in the room where are baskets should be, I hid eggs for the Easter egg hunt and I took a shower. I did this for Jordan, but mostly my mom. My mom said thank you. Jordan looked at it, didn't say a word and Jeremy still isn't awake, because he was up all night, making sure I was ok. Needless to say Jordan still hasn't taken his medicine and he's been to UNI so many times, they don't want him there anymore. If he has an episode tonight, I don't know what will happen. I was supposed to go to Jeremy's parents church at 11:00 but because Jeremy is asleep, we haven't left yet.
This might have been the worst Easter yet. I woke up to my childhood nightmare of my mom not putting the baskets out... :( I'm so immature, but it's sad, because I know it's so important to her.
however, the day is looking up. I'm on the mensi and tech week is next week for my concert on Friday and Satruday.
HAPPY FUCKING EASTER!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D