on Friday night... i read that my ex spent a day with her valentine. I know it could mean something playful... but that night... I just... couldn't hold in my tears...

I told JJ that I couldn't be home... I needed to go... he said... "I understand..." and I left...

I called Obi and told him what was goin' through my head... after I hung up... I ( Read more... )

I care because I wish to...

I care also because I believe in the golden rule...

I care because I believe the love God has given me is the love I'd like to have in my life...

Because at the end of it all - when you start to cry for help... the only person that will really be there... is God...

So it has been 3 weeks. No talking - nothing at all. I feel a bit more relieved as the days go by. However, I can't help but feel that this is it. This is all that will be left of a relationship gone so far. A relationship that was built on trust and security. Gone ( Read more... )

I know I'm supposed to write my thoughts to ease up how things are going and everything. Sometimes though I feel as though I'm just thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking... and then I need to do things - when I start doing things I just forget to write ( Read more... )

It's my mother's birthday today. A shame that she is in Cambodia with my father and doing missionary work. I guess that's not too bad when you're considering they're doing God's work. But in any case: Happy Birthday Mom!

I wonder how they are doing. Before I dropped them off, they told me to call them if any emergency arrived. I don't count the ( Read more... )

Yeah - one of my used-to-be closest friend from church text messaged me telling me about a tornado warning. That was an hour ago. I have been watching the news since ( Read more... )

So when Obi was over 3 nights ago... I looked over my livejournal stuff and read 5 years ago as to why it was the happiest day of my life ( Read more... )

and... I know she never reads this... but just in case in some future hope that something may happen... that if God has us meant to be... then I shall use this as proof that I never missed a day of telling her.

Happy Birthday Jessyca Soeung.

Okay - it's only been three years. But it feels like an eternity ( Read more... )

i don't even wish to begin to feel anymore than i already do ( Read more... )