Once again, I'm skipping my classes. This is the last week of classes and I know I'm going to have lots of trouble making it to all my finals. I also wait for a couple hours to leave my room when I'm hungry or need to go to the bathroom, just cause I don't wanna go anywhere. Tomarrow will be 2 weeks since I last showered, and I smell bad, and now ( Read more... )

Been a while since I updated, and I guess sort of a lot happens. For starters, I"m not obsessed anymore, which is awesome. I went to a party last friday and hung out with this cool girl, and now that I can be attracted to other people, I'm not crazy for this one girl. I also booked my plane ticket, I'll be getting in 9:40 PM I think on May 14th ( ( Read more... )

After skipping my classes for 3 days, and locking myself in my room, and not even spiking up my hair, I think I may be rejuvinated. Thats not to say that I'm going to do anything, like work, or starting the conversation I need to start. But, it was really nice being a recluse. I could definately make a life out of it, if I had a little more stuff ( Read more... )

Today I woke up and realized that I had two projects due this morning. I ended up staying home, just cause, and I've been kinda blue all day. Just left for food for the first time today, at 9PM, and I ran into the punk girl again. We never say anything to each other when I see her anymore. She was smoking with some guy. I'm still a little upset ( Read more... )

Ok, so, last nights astronomy lab was tourturous. I wanted to say something, but couldn't cause there were other people around. I couldn't stop staring, which has potential to get me into trouble. Last night, I was very restless again. Going to bed at 1, I didn't get to sleep until 4, then woke up at 5, slept at 5:30, woke up at 7, slept at 7:30, ( Read more... )

Yeah, wierd crap. Although I've known for a while that I'm gonna fail physics and probably calc 2, today is when I first cared. AND, it's very discouraging being in astronomy class and spending more time staring at a very sexy girl than paying attention to class. AND I feel really bad for some people who I know. My aunt has had stomach problems ( Read more... )

Ok, so, the field trip with Kathleen was to be my defining moment. I tried to talk to her and she seemed very much interested in talking to me, so I didn't bother trying anymore and now I am giving up on her. I still like her, but I don't think I'll be persueing her anymore unless she initiates something, which won't happen. So, after spending the ( Read more... )

I actually felt really good today. Didn't feel sad cause of Kathleen, didn't feel bored doing nothing, didn't feel outcasted by everyone starting at me wierdly. Despite still being a childish loser who can't ask out a woman, I'm pretty damn content with what I've made for a life out here in the New Mexico wasteland. My room is so great to be in now ( Read more... )

Watched a pretty cool thingy on VH1 about Green Day: Dookie, and it put me in a really punk mood. I woulda made an awesome punk if I wasn't such a nerd. Anyway, bought Dookie, and a fan, so now I'm cold (which is good for me) and happy. Plus some people on TheFaceBook from my school messaged me, which is neat. Now, we just need some cool people to ( Read more... )

Well, I skipped my classes today, as well as last friday. I have had virtually no public contact for the past 4 days. Today, I was very content (I won't use the word happy, I refuse to). It really is too bad that I'm obligated toward school. I'd like to just, you know, do absolutely nothing right now. I leave my room MAYBE twice a day, once to eat ( Read more... )