'Good' morning.
Hello world,
If they wanted me gone they should have told me to my face, not gone behind my back like a bunch of high school drama queen cowards. Not that it wasn't surprising, but I found textual proof that Joe and Sara hated me. Got copies of some AIM transcripts from a few months back. It's nice to see how far back my so-called 'friends' were pissing on me behind my back. It's not like I'm honestly surprised, really. Joe always hated me. I could tell, I'm not blind. I knew Sara wasn't fond of me.
They were my friends. They might not have thought it, but they were my friends. I was proud to know them. I cared for them, and I would have done anything for them if they needed me. I knew in my heart that I was the tag-along. That I was only there because of Annie. But I lied to myself because I wanted to feel like I had a family of friends. That I was valued. I was wrong.
Brien's the one that I cried about. I still miss him. I still love him, and I always will. I guess I did it to myself, really. Maybe I was selfish, I don't know. Maybe I drove them away but I never, NEVER considered ANYONE my sidekick! (Sorry, I'm replying to things I read, that you haven't seen.) Not Annie, not Brien, no one. They were my friends, my equals. People I respected and wanted to emulate. I made mistakes, I'm not perfect. Far from it, but I didn't deserve to be betrayed. *Bitch rant end.*
Life goes on, it's not over yet. I'm in summer classes, and things are gong well. Art history's kinda fun. It's good to be doing things, keeps me occupied. If I don't occupy myself, I get depressed. Classes are over on the 12th, and then I start trying to get ready to move into the apartment *eep.* Nothing more fun that moving in with a bunch of costumers. It's going to be great - they're fantastic.
Things hit a few rough spots between Scott and I, but things are still going strong. I'm so happy I'm with him. He's... well, yeah. Bright spot in my life.
(P.S - Looking back, I am SO GLAD that my paranormal investigation team never got off the ground. It wasn't the concept, it was the company.)
If they wanted me gone they should have told me to my face, not gone behind my back like a bunch of high school drama queen cowards. Not that it wasn't surprising, but I found textual proof that Joe and Sara hated me. Got copies of some AIM transcripts from a few months back. It's nice to see how far back my so-called 'friends' were pissing on me behind my back. It's not like I'm honestly surprised, really. Joe always hated me. I could tell, I'm not blind. I knew Sara wasn't fond of me.
They were my friends. They might not have thought it, but they were my friends. I was proud to know them. I cared for them, and I would have done anything for them if they needed me. I knew in my heart that I was the tag-along. That I was only there because of Annie. But I lied to myself because I wanted to feel like I had a family of friends. That I was valued. I was wrong.
Brien's the one that I cried about. I still miss him. I still love him, and I always will. I guess I did it to myself, really. Maybe I was selfish, I don't know. Maybe I drove them away but I never, NEVER considered ANYONE my sidekick! (Sorry, I'm replying to things I read, that you haven't seen.) Not Annie, not Brien, no one. They were my friends, my equals. People I respected and wanted to emulate. I made mistakes, I'm not perfect. Far from it, but I didn't deserve to be betrayed. *Bitch rant end.*
Life goes on, it's not over yet. I'm in summer classes, and things are gong well. Art history's kinda fun. It's good to be doing things, keeps me occupied. If I don't occupy myself, I get depressed. Classes are over on the 12th, and then I start trying to get ready to move into the apartment *eep.* Nothing more fun that moving in with a bunch of costumers. It's going to be great - they're fantastic.
Things hit a few rough spots between Scott and I, but things are still going strong. I'm so happy I'm with him. He's... well, yeah. Bright spot in my life.
(P.S - Looking back, I am SO GLAD that my paranormal investigation team never got off the ground. It wasn't the concept, it was the company.)