Maybe another good workout will help me sleep
I'm sorry my classes haven't been going well over the past week. I should probably get more sleep.
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I know I shouldn't worry but I can't help it. He just left without saying anything and still won't say anything but that he's fine. I'm starting to feel like I'm always waiting. Waiting for someone to come home. Maybe it's because it's still so close to that curse, but I feel helpless. As if Kenji is expecting me to be someone I'm not. Do I change so much in the years between now and then? I just can't see it, no matter how much I try to. I can't see the person he seems to expect me to be. How could I not worry about him? I see so much of Kenshin in him that I keep worrying about him.
it isn't that I don't have faith in him. I trust him. I just don't want him to get hurt. I know I'm reckless and headstrong. If he's the same way then he'll probably get into trouble easily. No matter how strong he is. I can't stay calm like Kenshin seems to. I want to make him understand that I worry because I care about him. I really care about him. I'm not pretending like he thinks.
Private
I know I shouldn't worry but I can't help it. He just left without saying anything and still won't say anything but that he's fine. I'm starting to feel like I'm always waiting. Waiting for someone to come home. Maybe it's because it's still so close to that curse, but I feel helpless. As if Kenji is expecting me to be someone I'm not. Do I change so much in the years between now and then? I just can't see it, no matter how much I try to. I can't see the person he seems to expect me to be. How could I not worry about him? I see so much of Kenshin in him that I keep worrying about him.
it isn't that I don't have faith in him. I trust him. I just don't want him to get hurt. I know I'm reckless and headstrong. If he's the same way then he'll probably get into trouble easily. No matter how strong he is. I can't stay calm like Kenshin seems to. I want to make him understand that I worry because I care about him. I really care about him. I'm not pretending like he thinks.