Sometimes I'm gay

[kandistarr]

Sometimes I hate being gay. I hate that I can't openly talk about Heather (to random people, such as customers and such) and refer to her "as my girlfriend". I hate that seeing us hold hands disgust some people. I hate that I will probably never be able to be married. Our wedding will be nothing to anyone other than us. I hate that if something

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[delphinese]

*hugs*

[kandistarr]

*huggles back*

[delphinese]

people suck, but oh well. You're full of the spiffiness

[sunnydecho]

Oh, yay! This was a good post. I'm not gay, but I feel the same way about gay-bashers. I hate how so many people are close minded bigot assholes. But you are the best. so yay!

[kandistarr]

*smiles* yay indeed

[optimumjollies]

-big hug-

i feel all of those same things.

pride mixed with sadness.

but i do find solace in this: that i will keep being myself, and true to myself, no matter what asshole or group of assholes tells me i'm "wrong". no matter what some ignorant self righteous tool needs to say to me, i'm still gonna be me. fearlessly.

no one, not a president, not a government, nothing can take that away.

[kandistarr]

indeed.
I am me. I know that. I don't try to hide it either. I just hate that something that is so right to me... is so wrong to so many people. I hate that I have to worry about something happening to Heather even more than a straight woman would because I would be stuck out in the waiting room until someone tells me something. I hate that even if we were together for 80 years and one of us dies, the other woud be left with shit. I love my gayness though. I mean, I'm from the south. Do you know how evil sourthern baptist are?? evil fuckers. I overcame that though. I didn't let them win. I was proud there... I'm proud here. I guess this is a pointless ramble... so i am gonna end with this

*hugs back*

[optimumjollies]

not a pointless ramble at all :]

Mandy and i have talked about those very things - about what exactly is going to happen when we are old, the fears, the things we are going to have to face, all the adversity.

we've decided to, at some point, visit my family lawyer and discuss putting in place as many things as we can before the time comes. (power of attorney, etc.)

i am quite familiar with the evil of southern baptists. they are my walking-living-breathing nightmare. i admire your personal strength and determination for standing up for yourself in that kind of enviornment.

not an easy task by any means. <3

[consortofvenus]

I want you to know that I respect you. And I don't think you look like anything but you. Although I have no idea what you look like but still lol.

People... many people... have strange ideas, like when they think I'm gay because I like the color purple and pink and have long hair... It feels good to know that I think more logically than most people :P.