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May 13, 2005 15:42

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anonymous May 13 2005, 14:51:30 UTC

I'm so... confused a lot of the time. I struggle to define life and how I should live it. I struggle to make the right choices. But then the ones I thought were right turn out to be incorrect later. I learn, ofcourse, but it's still frustrating. For I think I have the general idea however the details fuck me over ( ... )

anonymous May 13 2005, 19:44:22 UTC

Sometimes I really feel like nobody is there for me. At least not in the same way that I'm there for everyone. My best friend, while being a wonderful person, tends to go "....oh...." whenever I tell her that I'm upset about something. And a lot of other people tend to be like "UGH! Why are you upset NOW?" I really don't want to say anything about it, because I almost feel like I'm being selfish. I get really lonely a lot of the time and there's not a ton I can do about it. My best friend has been temporarily living with her boyfriend, and that sort of means that she doesn't really want to see anyone else. I asked her if she wanted to go to my other friend's club night and she came back with "Brad wouldn't like it." I guess I just feel like if I were to disappear, nobody would miss me.

anonymous May 13 2005, 20:11:29 UTC

alot of the time I feel like my life is a joke. I get so frustrated with it that I think about what it would be like if I were dead. I never think about the actual act of killing myself, but I just wonder if I would have a better "afterlife" than an actual life. This life. ANd I think about what other people would do if I died. I know that my family would miss me, but I also know that nobody else would care. Maybe its my fault. Im a loner. I dont let people in...I dont trust people enough to become attatched to them, or to let them become attatched to me ( ... )

anonymous May 14 2005, 21:09:32 UTC

I've really been feeling weird again lately and want to start cutting... I won't because I promised someone real important to me that I'd never do it again, but I'm struggling a LOT with trying not to break that promise... and it doesn't help that I've not been sleeping much lately, some nasty insomnia has kicked in bad.

gaaah, sorry this is such a downer ^^;

anonymous May 14 2005, 21:23:58 UTC

I can never forgive my father for grounding me an entire summer because I told him I got raped and he didn't believe me, saying I was "fucking around and trying to cover for it," which was absolutely untrue (I was a virgin when I was raped) and haven't been able to truly think of him as my father even though this was a long time ago ( ... )