I don't want to be the one the battles always choose, cuz inside I realize that I'm the one confused

[kane_isthara]

I do wonder... how many posts am I at?

"What do you want to bitch about today, Alex?" Hmmm.. I dunno. I just know I have an opperunity to update my journal, so I want to take it.

Lets take it from the top!
  "Is any of this real... or not?"

I have alot in my heart lately that I'm having a hard time expressing. I don't know why.. I mean, I've never

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[anderson1126]

Maybe you just feel like there's nothing that you're very special at...I don't mean that you're useless, but that you aren't receiving attention from normal areas (such as work, school, or any special skill)so instead you expect a lot of attention out of James. I understand how you feel...sometimes Seth and I don't have more than five minutes to each other before falling asleep each night. Some days we go on without even knowing how the other one's day was. I think it's just part of a healthy, growing relationship. I think that if you find something outside of your relationship that you can take individual pride in, then it may help with your problems with the "deficient attention" situation. I love you, buddy, and I want to help you as best as I can. Hope to hear from you soon.

[kane_isthara]

That was one of my thoughts as well. ^_^ Thanks Ash. Hehehe *Hugs*

[anderson1126]

Anytime, little bro. *hugs back*