Out of Focus

[kaninchenzero]

Context, in short: I was voluntarily admitted to a psychiatric hospital (the Trauma Unit at Timberlawn Mental Health System) on 23 December 2009 and stayed ten days. I'd been depressed and anxious for a while but late last year things started to get really bad. I could not stop thinking about harming myself or killing myself and I had a plan for

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[smittythesmith]

Sounds harsh. I wish you luck in detaching from your relatives. I'll pray for you if you'd like.

[kaninchenzero]

Thanks.

While I appreciate the sentiment that you'd like to do something nice I'd rather you didn't pray for me. It's not you personally: I'm atheist and I don't like anyone at all praying for me. Thank you very much for asking.

[smittythesmith]

Chronic pain is difficult to deal with, I know; Let me know if you change your mind.

[kireishojo]

Wow. I hope you come to grips with this in a safe and sane time period. *zen Hug*

[kaninchenzero]

Thank you. I'm working on that and there are people who are actually good for me in my life. So I do have help.

[poeticalpanther]

*hugs* Missing you! I didn't want to bug you in case you were just being hermitty, but I have definitely missed your voice around. I hope you can find some comfort that helps soon.

[kaninchenzero]

*leans* I was being hermitty but I don't think it was in a good way. I'm going to try to not just fall off the world again. But I'm also gonna try to not expect a lot of output from myself either. It was pointed out, correctly, that I have abused someone: me. It's good that I haven't abused anyone else but I should work on not abusing me too. So I'm trying.

It's a whole lot harder than it sounds.

[kaninchenzero]

It's okay I don't have a whole lot of insight either. But well-wishes are always welcome. :)

[uistic]

I'm really, really sorry to hear that you're not doing well.