Different
Title: Different
Pairing: Minkey
Rating: PG
Word count: 2.500
In which Minho is asexual and doesn’t know how to tell Kibum.
It had been three whole months since Minho and Kibum started dating, and Minho knew that he should have told his boyfriend about that a long time ago.
He just didn't know how. It was something personal, not that he was ashamed of, but it wasn't something that he would tell every single person that he met. But they were getting more serious, and he knew that Kibum would want something more, it was just natural.
Maybe if he had made everything clear since the beginning he wouldn't be afraid now. Afraid of rejection.
Maybe he felt in love harder than he thought was possible.
Why it was so hard? It had never been this hard before with anyone else. He always had made everything clear since day one with other people. Probably because now he was with Kibum. He just couldn't believe that the cute guy from the dance classes was actually giving Minho his number, it was impossible to tell the guy right at that time that he was asexual. Like, 'Oh, I'd love to go out with you, and by the way, I'm asexual, so don't expect sex!'
Yeah, he could have told him on their first date, more smoothly or something, but it was so good, they have chatted so easily and Minho really liked Kibum. So he just... Just couldn't. After that it all went downhill.
Minho knew it was stupid, the cliché 'if he really like you he'll accept you' type of thing, and it was probably true. He also felt bad for not being real with Key, he might expect sex, actually, he obviously expected sex.
He already had tried to make some advances on Minho, but the younger always pushed him away awkwardly and changed the subject as if nothing had happened. He could see Key's face fall, which made him feel bad, but the older boy put back his confidence mask so fast that Minho usually forgets about his guilty.
It was something that he couldn't hide, he didn't want to. He wanted to be able to tell Kibum everything.
He was afraid of rejection, maybe Kibum wouldn't want a relationship without that much sex. Even thought the older boy really liked Minho's personality, the physical closeness was probably something that he valued. Minho didn't blame him, it was an important aspect of relationships in general.
"Come on man, boss let you out your shift earlier, but you still have to do with the dishes" His co-worker's annoyed voice brought him back to reality.
The tall man sighed loudly and passed his hand thought his dark red hair. Just now he realized he had been staring at those dirty plates for almost ten minutes, actually he had been thinking about how he would tell Key about his orientation the whole day. And he didn't get to any conclusion.
"I, um- I'm finishing here, sorry." He murmured getting to work as the other guy went to swipe the tables.
He quickly finished what he was supposed to do and went to change to his normal clothes. The tall man said good bye to his co-workers and exited the restaurant, just to find his smiling boyfriend waiting for him.
Minho wasn't sure if the fact of him leaving work earlier that day was so amazing anymore.
Don't get him wrong, he loved seeing his boyfriend, he just wasn't prepared for that.
"Hey" Kibum smiled leaning forward to peck his boyfriend's lips.
"Hi" Minho kissed back and grabbed Key's hand in his. It was different for every asexual, if someone liked kissing for example, but himself loved how Kibum's lips felt against his and how holding his hand felt nice.
"Look what I got us" Kibum smiled showing the bag in his hand that was from one of their favorite cake shops. They started walking in direction or the shorter boy's apartment.
"I thought that you would cook for us" he whispered back, also smiling.
"Ya!" Key slapped his arm playfully "Don't expect me to cook you everything"
He chucked... He would miss those moments if Key really broke up with him. Stop, he told himself, Kibum wouldn't end their relationship... Right? Probably he would. He wouldn't choose to be with an asexual... Or maybe it would be because Minho hadn't told him earlier and he felt that the younger didn't trust him or...
Then Kibum abruptly stopped walking, making Minho notice that his boyfriend had ended his complain about some photographer that wanted to mess with his fashion article or something, and after that there was only tick silent.
"Ok, what's wrong?" He asked with concern
"Er..." It was it, Kibum was giving him an opportunity to say something, do it Minho! Start with a serious 'I have to tell you something' and maybe apologize for not telling earlier.
"...nothing, I'm just a little cold." Good job Minho, you got your point across pretty smoothly. He had to hold himself not to physically face palm.
"We are really close now" Key answered, still suspicious. The older man brushed it off and pulled Minho's hand inside the building, hot air immediately involving them.
They take the elevator and enter Kibum's apartment quietly, Minho knew he was making things awkward for them, but he couldn't help it. The couple left their shoes by the door and went to the dining table, where Minho started at for some seconds before letting out a sharp breath "Wow..."
Key had made everything so... So romantic. Not in a cheesy way, well, almost, but still with a good taste. The table was set for two and had some white flowers in the middle, they were candles lighted up around the room, creating light along the single lamp by the couch.
It was simple, but really pretty.
"I would put some background music, but it would be too cheesy. Don't say anything, it's just because you made me that stupid cheesy picnic last month" Kibum started, letting his coat rest on the chair's back. Cheesy wasn't really his thing, usually it was Minho's job to be all sweet and romantic. "Now come on, help me get our food" Minho gave the boy a wide smile and followed him to the kitchen, to help him putting the cake in the freezer and getting the trays of food.
They started eating and it was just so silent, it was killing Kibum. The boy wondered why Minho didn't tell him what was wrong, he thought that it was probably something that happened in work and the younger didn't want to discuss that in their special day.
"Happy three month anniversary" Kibum said in a low tone, leaning in the table to get closer to Minho, he'd just distract Minho from whatever was annoying him.
Minho gave him a weak smile "I got you something" he whispered back, they already had exchanged texts about the special day the first thing in the morning. He stood up to get a box in his bag and gave it to Kibum.
The boy smiled and undid the blue ribbon, he opened the dark box to find a light colored scarf with a modern pattern on it. "Aw, you bought that scarf!" He exclaimed, folding it in way that Minho could never repeat and putting it around his slender neck. They had seen it in a store almost a month before, Kibum had loved it but didn't have money at the time to buy it.
"Thank you, and I also got you something" he took a bag that rested against a near wall and gave it to Minho. Inside there was a deep red dress shirt, the taller man chucked when he saw it. "You really hate that shirt of mine right?"
"Well, sure, you use that stuff so much that it'll get a hole in it someday! It's time for a change, and red is defiantly your color, love" she singsonged the last part.
"Thanks, I really liked it" Minho chucked
After that they felt in silence. Key wanted to punch Minho for not helping.
When they were finished, the couple stood up and went to the sofa, leaving the empty plates to be taken care of on the next day. Minho knew that he was fucking up, but he just couldn't help it, he was so deep in thought.
Maybe it was because it was Key who was the insecure in the relationship. Yes, he was the guy that didn't know about 'less is more' and shined in his own diva-like way, but inside he cared about other's opinions and was too self conscious sometimes. And Minho was supposed to protect him. Be there for him.
He wasn't supposed to be insecure.
They just sat there, Key snuggling on Minho's arms, enjoying their closeness. Minho knew he was being ridiculous, really, there was no point in hiding it, he would have to tell sooner or later.
But he didn't expect what came next, Kibum brought his hand up to Minho's tight, making it's way up, felling his leg through the fabric Of his pants. The man just frizzed, he didn't know how to react.
It wasn't the first time that it happened, well, Kibum was somewhat more less direct since the first time Minho rejected him, but it happened other times when he was at clubs that friends dragged him to or something. And it was never someone who he really, really liked like Kibum. He didn't want to just push him away again.
The shorter male noticed that his boyfriend went stiff, but he didn't reject him. Kibum was just a little frustrated that they have been dating for three months and they didn't do anything. They were both adults and he was pretty sure that they liked each other enough.
He did understand that each person has their time to be ready but he was in his early 20's and he felt that he couldn't hold much longer. It was obvious that he wouldn't force himself upon Minho, but he wanted something more than the pg-13 make out sections. So Key decided to go a little further with his hand.
Fuck, Minho screamed inside his head. He wouldn't have a panic attack, it only that it was... Uncomfortable, really. It wasn't going to end up well, just say something now Minho, but be kind, just tell him and it will all be over...
Kibum's hand went to the pant's bottom, tracing the outline of Minho's member.
"Ok, Kibum, please stop" Minho said with a controlled tone, gently pushing his boyfriend's hand away. He immediately regretted his action, he saw the look in Key's eyes fall, it turned into a mix of sadness and maybe guilty.
"Oh, I'm uh- I'm sorry Minho" he was going to stand up but the taller boy grabbed his wrist. Minho was going to say something but stopped, taking a moment to formulate his talk.
"Don't worry Minnie, I'll just clean the table" Kibum tried to give him a warm, understanding smile, but failed a little, letting show his true felling on the corner of his mouth.
"No, wait. I'm sorry" he started with an apologize "I have something to tell you"
Kibum remained quiet, letting the younger explain whatever he wanted to. Minho took a deep breath before speaking.
"I really should have told you before, like a long time ago. I'm..." He hesitated for a moment "I'm asexual" in his mind he had prepared a bigger speech but he suddenly forgot all of it.
For a brief moment Key was silence, he didn't show any type of reaction. Time passed and by that point the tall man was ready to anything, from sadness to anger to disgust and lack of knowledge. But he didn't expected that.
Key started laughing.
Minho couldn't say anything, for a moment he just stated at a laughing Kibum.
"What is so funny?" It wasn't anger in his voice, more like shock.
Kibum took his minute to stop laughing and murmured a 'sorry'. Then he slowly put his hand over Minho's and almost unnoticeably, went to sit a little away from the younger male, giving them some centimeters of space, the action made Minho sad.
"I'm-" Minho tried, "I'm sorry" he stood up ready to go home but he was pulled back to the sofa.
"Minho I'm not laughing at you or anything" his expression turned more serious. "I'm laughing because- because" he started giggling.
Minho sighed, frustrated, Kibum wasn't taking it seriously like he should.
"Sorry." He covered his mouth "I was laughing because you are so idiot"
What he would answer? He felt hurt.
But Key continued, "I was worried for three entire weeks about why you didn't want to do anything!" Minho raised an eyebrow, what?
"It was because of me? I wasn't attractive enough?" He asked like if it was to himself "I was going crazy Choi Minho!" He faked an angry tone.
"What...?" Has Minho heard right? This was the only feeling Key had right now? Not anger, nor sadness? "You mean... That you don't care? You aren't angry or disgusted?" He was sure that shock was all over his face.
"Why would I ever be disgusted?" He sounded offended "Sure, I'm kind off pissed because you didn't tell me earlier and you made me feel that there was something wrong with me for the last month but..."
"There's nothing wrong with, you are perfect bummie. I'm sorry for making you feel that way" he cut him off, perplexed by the thought of Key considering not being the perfect human being.
Kibum smiled with the compliment and continued "But I can forgive you for that. I mean, I don't fully... Understand" he tried "Like, how everything works for you, or if I... You will have to have patience with me" He stopped carefully checking if Minho found anything he said rude or uncomfortable.
"I'm sorry" he was embarrassed "I'm not sure what... If we can, like cuddling and stuff or..." His checks turned light pink and he took his hand off on top of Minho's hand.
Minho took his hand again and hooded it with a firm grip. "No, that's ok. But... You are... Ok with that?" he couldn't believe that Kibum was taking it that lightly.
"Yeah" he answered without missing a heartbeat "It's... Different" he searched for each word carefully "But I love you Minho, and I'm not in this for sex"
Minho froze, it wasn't the first time Key said he loved him, but it was the first time after he knew the truth. It felt nice, it felt more real and sincere that way.
He smiled "I love you too, thank you."
Key was a little hesitant in doing something next, but Minho only smiled a little and pulled him in a one armed hug, putting his head on his broad shoulder "Don't worry, I'll tell you if something makes me uncomfortable"
They stood like that for some time, neither knew how much, but eventually the couple when to Kibum's bed, and coddled there, only enjoying each other's closeness.
It would be hard, they both knew, but it would be worth it.
Pairing: Minkey
Rating: PG
Word count: 2.500
In which Minho is asexual and doesn’t know how to tell Kibum.
It had been three whole months since Minho and Kibum started dating, and Minho knew that he should have told his boyfriend about that a long time ago.
He just didn't know how. It was something personal, not that he was ashamed of, but it wasn't something that he would tell every single person that he met. But they were getting more serious, and he knew that Kibum would want something more, it was just natural.
Maybe if he had made everything clear since the beginning he wouldn't be afraid now. Afraid of rejection.
Maybe he felt in love harder than he thought was possible.
Why it was so hard? It had never been this hard before with anyone else. He always had made everything clear since day one with other people. Probably because now he was with Kibum. He just couldn't believe that the cute guy from the dance classes was actually giving Minho his number, it was impossible to tell the guy right at that time that he was asexual. Like, 'Oh, I'd love to go out with you, and by the way, I'm asexual, so don't expect sex!'
Yeah, he could have told him on their first date, more smoothly or something, but it was so good, they have chatted so easily and Minho really liked Kibum. So he just... Just couldn't. After that it all went downhill.
Minho knew it was stupid, the cliché 'if he really like you he'll accept you' type of thing, and it was probably true. He also felt bad for not being real with Key, he might expect sex, actually, he obviously expected sex.
He already had tried to make some advances on Minho, but the younger always pushed him away awkwardly and changed the subject as if nothing had happened. He could see Key's face fall, which made him feel bad, but the older boy put back his confidence mask so fast that Minho usually forgets about his guilty.
It was something that he couldn't hide, he didn't want to. He wanted to be able to tell Kibum everything.
He was afraid of rejection, maybe Kibum wouldn't want a relationship without that much sex. Even thought the older boy really liked Minho's personality, the physical closeness was probably something that he valued. Minho didn't blame him, it was an important aspect of relationships in general.
"Come on man, boss let you out your shift earlier, but you still have to do with the dishes" His co-worker's annoyed voice brought him back to reality.
The tall man sighed loudly and passed his hand thought his dark red hair. Just now he realized he had been staring at those dirty plates for almost ten minutes, actually he had been thinking about how he would tell Key about his orientation the whole day. And he didn't get to any conclusion.
"I, um- I'm finishing here, sorry." He murmured getting to work as the other guy went to swipe the tables.
He quickly finished what he was supposed to do and went to change to his normal clothes. The tall man said good bye to his co-workers and exited the restaurant, just to find his smiling boyfriend waiting for him.
Minho wasn't sure if the fact of him leaving work earlier that day was so amazing anymore.
Don't get him wrong, he loved seeing his boyfriend, he just wasn't prepared for that.
"Hey" Kibum smiled leaning forward to peck his boyfriend's lips.
"Hi" Minho kissed back and grabbed Key's hand in his. It was different for every asexual, if someone liked kissing for example, but himself loved how Kibum's lips felt against his and how holding his hand felt nice.
"Look what I got us" Kibum smiled showing the bag in his hand that was from one of their favorite cake shops. They started walking in direction or the shorter boy's apartment.
"I thought that you would cook for us" he whispered back, also smiling.
"Ya!" Key slapped his arm playfully "Don't expect me to cook you everything"
He chucked... He would miss those moments if Key really broke up with him. Stop, he told himself, Kibum wouldn't end their relationship... Right? Probably he would. He wouldn't choose to be with an asexual... Or maybe it would be because Minho hadn't told him earlier and he felt that the younger didn't trust him or...
Then Kibum abruptly stopped walking, making Minho notice that his boyfriend had ended his complain about some photographer that wanted to mess with his fashion article or something, and after that there was only tick silent.
"Ok, what's wrong?" He asked with concern
"Er..." It was it, Kibum was giving him an opportunity to say something, do it Minho! Start with a serious 'I have to tell you something' and maybe apologize for not telling earlier.
"...nothing, I'm just a little cold." Good job Minho, you got your point across pretty smoothly. He had to hold himself not to physically face palm.
"We are really close now" Key answered, still suspicious. The older man brushed it off and pulled Minho's hand inside the building, hot air immediately involving them.
They take the elevator and enter Kibum's apartment quietly, Minho knew he was making things awkward for them, but he couldn't help it. The couple left their shoes by the door and went to the dining table, where Minho started at for some seconds before letting out a sharp breath "Wow..."
Key had made everything so... So romantic. Not in a cheesy way, well, almost, but still with a good taste. The table was set for two and had some white flowers in the middle, they were candles lighted up around the room, creating light along the single lamp by the couch.
It was simple, but really pretty.
"I would put some background music, but it would be too cheesy. Don't say anything, it's just because you made me that stupid cheesy picnic last month" Kibum started, letting his coat rest on the chair's back. Cheesy wasn't really his thing, usually it was Minho's job to be all sweet and romantic. "Now come on, help me get our food" Minho gave the boy a wide smile and followed him to the kitchen, to help him putting the cake in the freezer and getting the trays of food.
They started eating and it was just so silent, it was killing Kibum. The boy wondered why Minho didn't tell him what was wrong, he thought that it was probably something that happened in work and the younger didn't want to discuss that in their special day.
"Happy three month anniversary" Kibum said in a low tone, leaning in the table to get closer to Minho, he'd just distract Minho from whatever was annoying him.
Minho gave him a weak smile "I got you something" he whispered back, they already had exchanged texts about the special day the first thing in the morning. He stood up to get a box in his bag and gave it to Kibum.
The boy smiled and undid the blue ribbon, he opened the dark box to find a light colored scarf with a modern pattern on it. "Aw, you bought that scarf!" He exclaimed, folding it in way that Minho could never repeat and putting it around his slender neck. They had seen it in a store almost a month before, Kibum had loved it but didn't have money at the time to buy it.
"Thank you, and I also got you something" he took a bag that rested against a near wall and gave it to Minho. Inside there was a deep red dress shirt, the taller man chucked when he saw it. "You really hate that shirt of mine right?"
"Well, sure, you use that stuff so much that it'll get a hole in it someday! It's time for a change, and red is defiantly your color, love" she singsonged the last part.
"Thanks, I really liked it" Minho chucked
After that they felt in silence. Key wanted to punch Minho for not helping.
When they were finished, the couple stood up and went to the sofa, leaving the empty plates to be taken care of on the next day. Minho knew that he was fucking up, but he just couldn't help it, he was so deep in thought.
Maybe it was because it was Key who was the insecure in the relationship. Yes, he was the guy that didn't know about 'less is more' and shined in his own diva-like way, but inside he cared about other's opinions and was too self conscious sometimes. And Minho was supposed to protect him. Be there for him.
He wasn't supposed to be insecure.
They just sat there, Key snuggling on Minho's arms, enjoying their closeness. Minho knew he was being ridiculous, really, there was no point in hiding it, he would have to tell sooner or later.
But he didn't expect what came next, Kibum brought his hand up to Minho's tight, making it's way up, felling his leg through the fabric Of his pants. The man just frizzed, he didn't know how to react.
It wasn't the first time that it happened, well, Kibum was somewhat more less direct since the first time Minho rejected him, but it happened other times when he was at clubs that friends dragged him to or something. And it was never someone who he really, really liked like Kibum. He didn't want to just push him away again.
The shorter male noticed that his boyfriend went stiff, but he didn't reject him. Kibum was just a little frustrated that they have been dating for three months and they didn't do anything. They were both adults and he was pretty sure that they liked each other enough.
He did understand that each person has their time to be ready but he was in his early 20's and he felt that he couldn't hold much longer. It was obvious that he wouldn't force himself upon Minho, but he wanted something more than the pg-13 make out sections. So Key decided to go a little further with his hand.
Fuck, Minho screamed inside his head. He wouldn't have a panic attack, it only that it was... Uncomfortable, really. It wasn't going to end up well, just say something now Minho, but be kind, just tell him and it will all be over...
Kibum's hand went to the pant's bottom, tracing the outline of Minho's member.
"Ok, Kibum, please stop" Minho said with a controlled tone, gently pushing his boyfriend's hand away. He immediately regretted his action, he saw the look in Key's eyes fall, it turned into a mix of sadness and maybe guilty.
"Oh, I'm uh- I'm sorry Minho" he was going to stand up but the taller boy grabbed his wrist. Minho was going to say something but stopped, taking a moment to formulate his talk.
"Don't worry Minnie, I'll just clean the table" Kibum tried to give him a warm, understanding smile, but failed a little, letting show his true felling on the corner of his mouth.
"No, wait. I'm sorry" he started with an apologize "I have something to tell you"
Kibum remained quiet, letting the younger explain whatever he wanted to. Minho took a deep breath before speaking.
"I really should have told you before, like a long time ago. I'm..." He hesitated for a moment "I'm asexual" in his mind he had prepared a bigger speech but he suddenly forgot all of it.
For a brief moment Key was silence, he didn't show any type of reaction. Time passed and by that point the tall man was ready to anything, from sadness to anger to disgust and lack of knowledge. But he didn't expected that.
Key started laughing.
Minho couldn't say anything, for a moment he just stated at a laughing Kibum.
"What is so funny?" It wasn't anger in his voice, more like shock.
Kibum took his minute to stop laughing and murmured a 'sorry'. Then he slowly put his hand over Minho's and almost unnoticeably, went to sit a little away from the younger male, giving them some centimeters of space, the action made Minho sad.
"I'm-" Minho tried, "I'm sorry" he stood up ready to go home but he was pulled back to the sofa.
"Minho I'm not laughing at you or anything" his expression turned more serious. "I'm laughing because- because" he started giggling.
Minho sighed, frustrated, Kibum wasn't taking it seriously like he should.
"Sorry." He covered his mouth "I was laughing because you are so idiot"
What he would answer? He felt hurt.
But Key continued, "I was worried for three entire weeks about why you didn't want to do anything!" Minho raised an eyebrow, what?
"It was because of me? I wasn't attractive enough?" He asked like if it was to himself "I was going crazy Choi Minho!" He faked an angry tone.
"What...?" Has Minho heard right? This was the only feeling Key had right now? Not anger, nor sadness? "You mean... That you don't care? You aren't angry or disgusted?" He was sure that shock was all over his face.
"Why would I ever be disgusted?" He sounded offended "Sure, I'm kind off pissed because you didn't tell me earlier and you made me feel that there was something wrong with me for the last month but..."
"There's nothing wrong with, you are perfect bummie. I'm sorry for making you feel that way" he cut him off, perplexed by the thought of Key considering not being the perfect human being.
Kibum smiled with the compliment and continued "But I can forgive you for that. I mean, I don't fully... Understand" he tried "Like, how everything works for you, or if I... You will have to have patience with me" He stopped carefully checking if Minho found anything he said rude or uncomfortable.
"I'm sorry" he was embarrassed "I'm not sure what... If we can, like cuddling and stuff or..." His checks turned light pink and he took his hand off on top of Minho's hand.
Minho took his hand again and hooded it with a firm grip. "No, that's ok. But... You are... Ok with that?" he couldn't believe that Kibum was taking it that lightly.
"Yeah" he answered without missing a heartbeat "It's... Different" he searched for each word carefully "But I love you Minho, and I'm not in this for sex"
Minho froze, it wasn't the first time Key said he loved him, but it was the first time after he knew the truth. It felt nice, it felt more real and sincere that way.
He smiled "I love you too, thank you."
Key was a little hesitant in doing something next, but Minho only smiled a little and pulled him in a one armed hug, putting his head on his broad shoulder "Don't worry, I'll tell you if something makes me uncomfortable"
They stood like that for some time, neither knew how much, but eventually the couple when to Kibum's bed, and coddled there, only enjoying each other's closeness.
It would be hard, they both knew, but it would be worth it.