take off that scab young man

[kapayapaan]

a few hours ago paranoia struck me. i don't know why i always do this. i always think for the worse. my head plays these thoughts so vividly too. what's worse all these thoughts is always about somehow me being struck down, put down or whathaveyou. i was so close to screaming in the car about to say, shut up, deus. shut the fuck upi have too much

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[spinnacle]

Fear can be worn like a badge of honor or a delusion of which others can trap you with. It's a basic common aspect of humanity, and while painful, it's almost a necessity. I don't think "feel better" fits well with this entry, but I hope things(fear) get better.

[kapayapaan]

ah, yeah... thanks.

hello. i missed you.

[spinnacle]

De nada.
I missed you too. One of these days, I should run through your journal and see what's new. Life's been crazy.

[kapayapaan]

ah don't need to. my life is eh.

[irrelation]

i agree with the last line wholeheartedly.
& i've seen you on aim various times, but never had the time to actually talk to you. i will though, soon.

i hope things get better. <3.

[kapayapaan]

it will get better. i'm casting out my demons one by one...

[furcap]

Will a cookie not make you tear yourself to shreds? I have tons of cookies.

[kapayapaan]

what kind? my favorite is the double choco chip. the dough is choco and two types of chocochips milk and white. (: (hey, should call it triple choco chip...)

[furcap]

...i don't have anymore of those. :(

[kapayapaan]

BAH!

[nadjaistaken]

everyone has fear to get over or be pushed over by. paranoia can be an instinct, but don't let it bring you down.

p.s. i'm reading coraline. thank you x whoa+

[kapayapaan]

like i said up... i'm casting my demons out one by one...

books! i haven't started on yours yet. (sorry!) i should start soon though. right after i finish my current book. i actually have the pride and predjudice. hehe. i stopped due to my friend's comment that all i'm reading are girl books. i'll read it soon though. it's probably good, i stopped after the second page. haha. i loved the letter, the picture -i wish i could've thought of those for you- and most of all the choco goodies. very good. milkyways are my favorite, my lola is bringing a whole box for me when she comes oh-so-soon! muwaha. i forgot to thank thee tres mucho. and so... i thank thee tres mucho!

[anonymous]

we'll have a good talk, yezz we will, godbro.

- ailene.

[kapayapaan]

i think i'm going to say uh-oh. uh-oh.