May you find some comfort here....

[kara05]

I never thought my mind would get the best of me ... but lately it has. These past few weeks Ive been so NOT happy. I’ve been slightly giddy for a few minutes here and there but I haven’t been genuinely happy in a LONG time, and its really starting to mess with me. I have so many thoughts in my head and so much confusion that I don’t let out that

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[mydecember5]

Hey Kara this is Sam. I definately know what you're going through. I, myself, have a friend who has been changing due to other people around her. She used to live closer to me and then moved away and now whenever I see her it's just not the same as how things used to be. She never used to drink or smoke and hated the idea of it and now everytime we go out she has to smoke at least 2 cigarettes (she knows i hate smoking because alas both of my parents smoke). And I pretend to be happy a lot as well because I just don't really want people to be sad or upset for me so I just pretend to be happy and upbeat all of the time because I don't really want to bring other people down, ya know? I know what you're going through though Kara, believe me I really do. I'll be praying for you hun, just be strong. love ya tons!

[kara05]

SAMMIE!..
i didnt know you had an LJ! I feel exactly how you feel bout not want ppl to be sad or upset for me, I hate that so I hold it all inside... and then one day ... I jus get upset for no reason (the straw that broke the camel's back) But thanks so much for being there! You such a sweetie! and if you EVER EVER EVER need anyone to listen ... you got a friend in me lol! Thannks babe!

[mydecember5]

Kara darlin! Ah yeah ok see I did have a livejournal awhile back and then I got rid of it because people from Hartley that I didn't want to read it were reading it and talking to me about things I wrote the next day which was odd for me..haha so I got a xanga and then I axed that after a year of that and now I'm back here again. But oh yes I definately know what you're going through Kara..It's seriously one of the hardest things you have to face. And sadly Senior year is when you start to see the true colors of people and who your REAL friends are. I mean there are some people from gradeschool that I wish I was closer with right now and I miss those relationships I used to have with them, and then there are some that i've known forever that have done a 360 and aren't the same person they once were and are the polar opposite (in a negative way). Like one person I thought was one of my best friends for example basically changed because of the people she was hanging out with and now she acts just like them and has backstabbed me on

[kara05]

THANKS GRL!

[dashiznit16]

Kara I LOVE YOU! Im always here for you, and i do know what you're going through...this year ive had changes in best friends. amy who was always my best friend....never calls me anymore and we never hang out! however in spite of that ive gottan soooooo much closer with maria and im glad for it. as you get older things change people's interests and values change also
im always here for u remember that! i had so much fun with u at prom

[kara05]

Whit,
I cant believe Ive known you for 3 years now!! OMG! N i know youre there for me and I thank God for that! And I would do anythign for my lil cleaner haha... Im so glad that we finally got to hang out at prom and I hope its not the last time we do it!... no matter what anyone says you were the best dancer there!! I love you !

[xtw1nklex]

KARAAAAAAA! since you have given me given me advice and comfort in my times of need, it is indeed my turn to try to help you out! first off tho...i had such a good time with u at prom and afterwards....it sucks u didnt stay the night but at least u got to come hang out with us. anywho in regards to what u said about not being happy and just putting on a mask and stuff...we def all do that, some more than others but there is a point where u just have to let ur guard down and let it out. no one is too macho to cry and is ever too happy to let something get to them. maybe its a good thing that u let mallory kno u are hurt by the things she's doing so she knows and may try to change her habits and just kno that you are upset. ill try to think of more to tell u...right now we're learning bout peeing.....but yeh u kno im here for u! and whit is too....so u at least have 2 friends who are ALWAYS willing to listen and help u!! i love u kara!!!!

[kara05]

Thanks Maria, and like I told whit... Im so glad that you guys are there for me!... I havent been friends with you as long but Im so happy that I got to know you before I graduated! (i almost missed out!)
As for your advice.... thanks grl, I def have to talk to Mal about everything cause I dont think she really gets why Ive been weird lately.
One last thing, I HAD SO MUCH FUN AT PROM! Im so glad we got to sit with you guys! Hopefully we can all dance like that at Hartley's lol...
on a serious note, you and whit rock my world!