[Multi-chapter] The Watches Series: Affinity (8/??)
Title: The Watches Series: Affinity
Authors: syunikiss1990
Beta: andreja1989 <-- as always arigatou ♥
Pairing: SakurAiba
Genre: Fantasy, Drama, Romance
Rating NC-17
Disclaimer: No, we don't own anything... We're just Border Watch's glaziers
*MASTERPOST*
The puzzle seemed to click in his mind. Why Sachiko was everywhere around Masaki lately. Why Masaki was avoiding him every time after they had made love. How could he have been so blind? How could he ever even believe that this man, who could probably get everyone he wanted seeing who he was right now, would really fall for him and stay at his side. He never felt so used and betrayed before, not to mention angry and jealous. His emotions rushed through his veins but surprisingly he stayed calm on the outside as Masaki jumped up and Sachiko turned around to see who or what the taller man was looking at. Her eyes widened in surprise and she quickly stood up as well, following Masaki who quickly walked over to him. Silence filled the air for a little while, as everything in the park seemed to feel the tension in the air. Finally Sho broke the silence.
“Thank you Sachiko, I'll take over from here.” The girl probably noticed the dangerous tone in his voice as she quickly got away without even bothering to look back. He didn't like the way Masaki looked at him, with eyes full of guilt and shock. The younger man wanted to say something but he cut him before he could even say a letter.
“We will talk in the apartment.” Without waiting he turned around and set straight to their apartment. By the steps he heard behind him he knew Masaki was following him. As soon as they reached it and were standing in the middle of the living room Sho finally turned around to face the younger man.
“Sho-chan it’s not…” Masaki started but he cut him off.
“So this is what you have been doing while I was away every time. Sneaking with that girl behind my back. You don’t even care about what might happen while you are out there with her! She is not qualified to protect you in case something happens. You are supposed to stay inside or at least tell me where you are going when you are going out so we find you when something does happen. But you don’t care about that, do you? It would be even worse if I found out that you are going out with her behind my back. I don’t know why really, you could have just said you love her instead of me.”
“Sho…” Masaki tried to break his ongoing, nonsensical monologue but he just ignored him and continued.
“How could I be so stupid to believe you actually love me? It’s so easy for you to lie about, well, everything and I know that and yet I fell for it. I really loved you but apparently you don’t feel the same. Why did you even stay…”
“Sakurai! Shut up now and listen to me!” The sudden outburst of the younger man made his jaw stay in a half opened state in the middle of his sentence. A bit frightened by the flames in the constant color changing eyes he stayed silent and crossed his arms in front of his chest. Aiba closed his eyes for a moment and took some deep breaths. When he opened them again they had returned to their normal brown state but the flames were still visible, burning through Sakurai's soul.
“I didn't kiss her, that girl took me by surprise and kissed me. She heard the Treaty is passed on by a kiss and she tried to take it away from me. To make it even worse, she kissed me right after she stated that she hates me and to be honest I think I feel the same about her now.” Sakurai didn't know how he should react to this. Deep inside his heart he knew Aiba was speaking the truth but his jealousy and upcoming insecure feelings about this whole situation, about their whole relationship pushed away all his reason.
“Why didn't you push her away right away then? What took you so long?”
“She took me by surprise! I froze. But if you have seen it, you also know I pushed her away.”
“Didn't look much like pushing...” Sakurai softly muttered. In Aiba's eyes a desperate, pleading look took place of the flames.
“Sho-chan, please. What should I have done, push her away with so much force she would fall down? People don't appreciate that and I wanted to avoid as much trouble as possible.” Sakurai pulled up his shoulders stubbornly.
“You could at least make sure it would have some effect on her. She didn’t look like she minded it at all, that she was turned down or anything like that”
“She is an ignorant girl who is just trying to find her way. I'm not trying to defend her but if I would have pushed her away completely she would have run and who knows what she would have done.” There it was, the final straw that broke the camel’s back. His mind snapped and before he could stop himself he shouted:
“You have no trouble pushing me away every time! How can you expect me to believe you when you run away from me every single time after making love?! Is it that disgusting for you to be with me? Then why do you even bother and don't you just ask for someone to replace me?” The hurtful look on Aiba's face refrained him from going further, realizing he went too far. Still, the pain he felt inside was too strong to listen to anything the younger man had to say at this moment. Silently he excused himself disappearing inside his bedroom and closing the door hardly behind him. He didn't know how long he was staring at his ceiling trying to calm down and sort his thoughts or when he fell asleep but he woke up by the door of his bedroom slowly opening.
“Sho-chan?” Aiba asked softly. He heard the door closing again, followed by some soft footsteps and his mattress moving by the weight of the taller man. Refusing to open his eyes already he tried to keep his breathing as calm and even as possible, trying to fake sleep.
“I know you are awake, will you please look at me.” Aiba begged softly, making him open his eyes slowly and search for the other man’s eyes.
“I didn't realize how much pain I caused you and I'm really sorry. I would do anything to make it up to you, will you please give me another chance? I swear I never touched or even thought of that girl before, I wish I had seen her twisted nature before all of this could happen. She asked me to help her to become a better officer and I wanted to help her but then she suddenly wanted to take the Treaty from me and kissed me out of nowhere. I should have listened to you and stayed away from her but I just wanted to help… I’m sorry.” Sakurai sighed. Who were they trying to fool anyway? How could they ever be together if there was someone or something trying to destroy everything around every corner? He wondered how everything would have been if Aiba hadn't become the Treaty. If they would have met under normal circumstances. Would they be happy in love now? Not having to go through these entire painful situations? Instead of asking any of these questions, he just asked:
“What are we trying to do Masaki?” Aiba lowered his head and sighed deeply.
“I want to make this work, to make us work but then we will need to trust each other. Fully believe in each other and most importantly in us.” Aiba climbed fully on the bed, straddling Sakurai and leaning down to softly kiss his neck.
“I want to believe, I really want to…” He sighed against the soft lips that covered his and lazily returned the kiss. He just wished everything wasn’t so hard on them but realized that wouldn’t happen. At least not soon. All he could do for now was following his heart and believe the words Aiba was saying like he wanted.
“Do you want me to make you fully believe?” The silent, whispered promise made him shiver slightly.
“Can you promise me you'll stay?” For a moment he saw hesitation on the younger man’s face but before he could wonder what it was about a smile made him shine beautifully. After a nod he lowered himself completely, bruising their crotches together as he lay down on top of him. Their lips met again in a kiss, heating things up between them right away as Masaki's tongue slipped inside his mouth. His hands searched for the edge of Masaki's shirt, pulling it over his head when he found it. Quickly they got rid of every single piece of clothing, shivering against the cold air on their bodies but forgetting about it as soon as their lips met again. Masaki, who was still on top of Sho, broke the kiss and made a trail down his body towards his hardening member. He groaned impatiently when the younger man started to kiss all around his member but carefully avoided it.
“Sho-chan is impatient today, even though he was mad at me not too long ago.” Masaki softly giggled, his breathing bushing over the full length of his member, almost making him loose his mind.
“Shut up and…” His sentence ended with a loud moan when Masaki smirked and licked the tip of his member taking him into his mouth. He closed his eyes in pleasure and forgot about everything as he focused on the heavenly mouth which was slowly taking more of him every time he moved back down. After a while, for him it felt too short, he felt familiar warmth taking over his body, indicating he was getting close. Just when he was about to let himself go, the warm cave around him disappeared as Masaki sat back on his heels, looking at him a bit thoughtfully. He started to feel a bit embarrassed and awkward when Masaki didn't move from his position and kept staring at his member like it was the most fascinating view in the world. It looked like he was somewhere far away, lost in his own thought but snapped out of it just before he wanted to ask him what's wrong. Smiling, his lover looked in Sho's eyes, suddenly looking very determinate before leaning down again and softly kissing the head of his member and slowly moving up towards his chest, making him whine softly. He was so close and the lost of contact made him almost go crazy until he heard a soft whisper in his ear.
“I want you inside...” Groaning he turned them around, lying on top of the smiling man. He started to follow the same path as Masaki had just followed on him down, his hand searching for the lube somewhere underneath his sheets. By the time he found it he had reached his lovers already dripping member. Deciding to be just as a tease as him for a moment he sat back and opened the lube slowly, smearing it on his fingers and warming it up a little. At the same time he made sure their eyes stayed locked, seeing the younger man swallow hard as he smirked and finally moved down. His finger entered his lover’s tight hole at the same time as he took the tip of his member inside his mouth, making him gasp and moan loudly. Every time he inserted another finger he sucked hard, making Masaki forget about the unpleasant feeling which his fingers caused. He could feel by the movements of his lover that he was getting close and he tried to swallow him even more, trying to bring him to heaven. To his surprise he felt hands tugging his hair, trying to get him away from his position.
“Sho-chan, not yet. I'm... I'm ready...” Masaki breathed out. Sho smiled and moved up, kissing him passionately before positioning himself. With one sharp trust he buried himself completely inside and stayed still for a short while, letting his lover adjust to him. He pecked his lips and trailed up and down his jaw before ending at his lips again. Masaki kissed him back and moved his hips a little, letting him know that he could move. Of course he didn't need to be 'told' twice as he slowly set up a slow pace, changing his angle until Masaki's breath hitched and for a second tightened around him. Making sure he kept hitting the spot that caused this, he speeded up, making his lover moan his name loudly. The hands on his back pulled him closer and their lips crashed together in a sloppy kiss. As Sho drank up the moans through their locked lips he moved faster and faster. One of his hands sneaked between their bodies, finding the neglected member of the younger man and he griped it tightly, stroking it in the same rhythm as his trusts. Masaki arched his back and tightened again around him, making him groan loudly and his movements wavered for a moment.
“I can't... I'm...” Masaki muttered against his lips as he pulled apart, moaning his name loudly once more before his breath hitched and he came over Sho's hand and his stomach. His shuddering body and beautiful face as he came made Sho trip over the edge as well, biting his own lip and burying his face in his lover’s neck. Breathing heavily he collapsed on top of the younger man, staying like that until Masaki coughed softly. Tired he rolled on his back, giving the taller man more space to breath but it didn't make him stop coughing. Just when he wanted to roll on his side to wrap his arms around the slender body, the other man moved.
“I'm sorry Sho-chan, I'll be right back.” Before he could even think of stopping him the other man already jumped up and ran out of the room. Confused Sho watched him go, wondering if it was just a stupid coincidence that the younger man needed to do something for a moment or if he was getting away again. As the minutes passed by he felt he was getting angry again. Wasn't a promise worth anything to Masaki at all? After fifteen minutes he couldn't take it anymore. Grabbing his boxers from somewhere off the ground he walked straight to the bathroom where he was sure he could find the other man. A little alarm bell ringed in the back of his head when he didn't hear anything but his anger pushed it away and he threw open the unlocked door.
“Masaki I thought we just talked about this, why… Masaki!” As soon as he opened the bathroom door he saw something was terribly wrong. The younger man was sitting with his back against the side of the bathtub with his face winced in pain and his hands clenched at his chest. Quickly he rushed inside, kneeling down next to his lover and softly touching his cheek. In shock he quickly withdrew his hand, feeling the man’s body temperature was much higher than should be healthy. A weak push at his chest made him grab Aiba’s shoulders tightly.
“Masaki, what’s wrong?! What’s going on?!” He shook the taller man’s body but made sure it wouldn’t be too hard as he didn’t want to cause him any more pain.
“Please say something” Tear filled eyes looked straight at him but at the same time he wondered if he even saw him.
“Sho-chan please…leave me…go…” Another weak push at his chest but he wouldn’t let himself be pushed away. Instead he embraced his lover tightly, hoping this wouldn’t cause him any more pain. Aiba gave up on pushing him away and hid his face in his chest. Immediately he felt tears running down on both the other man’s cheeks and his chest.
“Sho-chan please, I’ll be fine…” Aiba’s face winced in pain and his nails dug slightly in Sakurai’s back before he continued. “…in a short while. Please…”
“No, I’m not leaving you alone here. Please tell me what’s going on?” When the younger man stayed silent he gently grabbed his shoulders and pushed him away a little so he could look into his eyes.
“Is this why you are avoiding me after we make love? What…” He gasped and tightened his hold on his shoulders when he saw Aiba’s eyes change color and roll back into his head, fluttering close barely a second later. His body went limp and Sakurai was glad he found enough strength to keep him from falling backwards with his head to the ground and avoiding further injury. Trying his hardest not to freak out he shook the body in his arms and called out his name over and over again, trying to wake his lover up. Soon he realized it was no use and using all that was left of his strength he got up and carried Aiba towards his bedroom, lying him down on his bed and making sure he was tightly covered with the warm sheets. He carefully watched the pained expressions Aiba made, even in his sleep and wondered if he shouldn’t do something or call someone, but the last words the younger man had said made him unable to do so. It had sounded like he had been through this before and knew it wouldn’t take long but the seconds seemed like hours while he waited for the painful expression to go away. Trying his hardest not to panic he got a wet washing cloth on Masaki's forehead, just for the sake of doing something. Finally, after what seemed like the whole night but appeared to be only a bit more than an hour, the body of the passed out man seemed to relax and when Sakurai felt his forehead he noticed his temperature had gone down as well. He breathed out loudly, letting some of the tension he had been holding go out with it and made himself comfortable next to his lover under the sheets, wrapping his arms tightly around the man’s body in an attempt to protect him even though he knew this wouldn't help at all. His intention to stay awake and make sure nothing would change soon faded as he fell into a tired slumber and wandered off in a light, dreamless sleep.