[Multi-chapter] Change (8/??)
Title: Change
Authors: syunikiss1990 & tsuchi8562
Bet: andreja1989 ArigaPYON~!
Pairing: SakurAiba, Aimiya (friendship), Yama (friendship), Junba (friendship)
Genre: AU, Romance, Drama, School
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They are not ours, they belong to themselves...
*MASTERPOST*
After what happened yesterday Aiba had completely forgotten what Sakurai said about Ninomiya. Everything had seemed like a dream, the kiss, the confession coming from both sides but he was sure it was real when he caught a short glimpse of Sakurai this morning as he walked to his class. The smile on the older student's face and the wink he had given him (which was completely out of character for the older boy and made Aiba's knees slightly wobbly) confirmed to him that it had been real. Now he could barely wait for today's lunch, his heart beating loudly in anticipation. But then Ninomiya appeared with a frown on his face and his arms crossed in front of his chest.
"I had a talk with that your new friend yesterday." Aiba's friend said without waiting. Aiba sighed and sat down on his chair.
"I heard yes. Why Nino? Why can't you trust him?"
"He is a monster Aiba-chan. Why can't you see that?"
"All I see is a great student who doesn't have any friends. Well except for me now."
"And that's exactly what bothers me. Why, out of all the people, does he want to be friends with you? Why doesn't he have any other friends? And what's more important, why can't you see the danger you get yourself into with him? There is clearly something wrong with him that nobody knows the truth of. I still think it's better if you stop seeing him."
"I'll say it once more Nino, that's not your decision to make. Why can't you trust me on my opinion?" Nino's frown deepened even more, his foot tapping on the floor.
"Because you are willing to believe everyone as long as the pour it into a nice story. I just don't want to see you get hurt Aiba-chan. And my feelings tell me you will get hurt if you keep yourself involved with that guy."
"Nino-chan please. He really isn't as bad as you think, as everyone thinks. Can you please give him a chance? For me?" Ninomiya sighed and rubbed his temples.
"Fine, if you are so sure I'll give him the benefit of the doubt. But I swear if he does anything to you..." Luckily he couldn't finish his sentence as their teacher walked in and he had to go to his own seat. Aiba sighed and looked at his friend. He wondered what Nino would say if he knew they were having a relationship now. Thinking about his reaction just now it might be better to keep it from him for a little longer, at least until he would finally see that Sho wasn't a bad guy at all. His eyes kept wandering towards the clock on the wall, counting down to the time he could finally go to his boyfriend. Boyfriend... He liked that sound in combination with Sho but at the same time it made him frown. Could he call him his boyfriend already or was it still too soon? Mentally he pulled up his shoulders. It didn't really matter, as long as he could be together with the older student and maybe steal another kiss or two from those soft lips...
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The rest of the week passed quickly by and he fell more and more in love with Sho. Luckily he saw he was having the same effect on the older boy. Their secret lunch meetings got even more comfortable and even though it sometimes was still a bit awkward between the two of them when they were physically close together, Masaki had managed to get their lips together for quick and soft kisses. He had to suppress his giggle when he thought about it like he secretly tasted a forbidden fruit.
"What's so funny?" Sho asked, looking at the taller boy next to him in the bus. They were on their way to Aiba's grandmother after Aiba's mother had asked him to deliver some things to her. At first it had been the plan to play some games at his house but Masaki didn't mind the change of plans. It was great weather for the time of the year and he wanted to get out a few bus stops early to walk the last part through the big park that was close to his grandmother's house. Without answering Masaki quickly got up, seeing they arrived at their stop. Sho followed him closely behind out of the bus, looking around a bit surprised when he saw there wasn't a single house close by.
"Your grandmother lives here?"
"No, she lives at the other end of the park. I thought it would be nice to walk with this nice weather." Slowly Sho nodded but Masaki could see the concern written on his face.
"Will you just relax already? We are far away from school, the chance that we will run into someone is almost zero." Sakurai frowned and didn't stop looking around. Aiba sighed and with a brave move he grabbed the older boys hand tightly. Wide-eyed Sakurai looked at their hands and then to Aiba's smiling face who ignored the older boy completely and started to walk, dragging Sakurai with him. After a short while, through their connected hands, he could feel Sakurai relaxing.
"You are right, this is nice." He softly muttered. For a moment Aiba could feel the grip on his hand tightening as he was stopped.
"And since there is nobody around, I think I can also do this." Before he knew what was happening Masaki was pulled close towards the older boy's body and his lips were covered with Sho's. Grinning, he wrapped his arms around the slightly shorter boy’s neck, deepening their kiss but the other pulled away already. Pouting he looked into the beautiful shining eyes, completely forgotten what they were supposed to do. Of course Sho hadn't forgotten and grabbed both of Masaki's arms to get them off his shoulders.
"Your grandmother will worry if we stay away too long." He said smiling, grabbing one of Masaki's hands to pull him with him, just like the younger boy had done not too long ago. As Masaki quickly sped up to walk next to Sho, his smile widened even more, seeing the carefree smirk that lingered on Sho's face. His heart almost bursting with happiness he started to chatter, telling random stuff about his grandmother they were going to visit. Time flew by and before he knew he was already on the doorstep of his own home again, looking at Sakurai disappearing around the corner but with his wide smile still on his face. He had enjoyed today and with more of those days coming into the future he could hardly wait to see Sho again.
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Sakurai was hesitating if what he was doing was right, but he didn’t have anybody else he could talk to, so he pressed the knob and went inside the office.
“Can I come in, sensei?” The boy mumbled, standing next to the door, staring in the floor. His head was full of questions and doubts. Is he doing the right thing getting involved in a relationship? If the thing between him and Masaki can be called a relationship…
“You’re already inside, Sakurai-kun…” Ohno’s voice interrupted his thoughts. “Come, sit here. Something’s wrong? Another fight?” The doctor frowned, trying to find new bruises on the student’s face but he smiled when he didn’t find any.
“No, sensei… I wanted to talk… Things got complicated…” The boy sat on the chair and sighed, still avoiding Ohno’s gaze. “Sensei, I think… No… I know… I am in love…”
“Oh?” Satoshi giggled and took a sip from his blue cup. “Who is the lucky… girl?” The older man hesitated with the last word, predicting that Sakurai is talking about Aiba. Ohno just wanted to get that information from Sho instead of guessing.
“No… It’s… Aiba-kun…” The student took a deep breath and just then dared to look at Satoshi. “And he said he loves me too…”
“That was predictable… I mean from Aiba-kun’s side. He is a type of person who easily becomes attached to someone. But you… You are more mature, so I believe you know what you’re doing…”
“No, sensei, I don’t know… I mean I know what I feel but I have no idea if creating a relationship is a good idea… I am the monster after all…”
“No, you are not! You are just a kid who, even after all the pain you went through, is still standing next to his mother. People don’t understand that…”
“People don’t know anything about it! I can’t tell them the truth, I promised her… Because of that they’re thinking that I am a monster…” Sho sighed and hid his face in his hands. Everything was so messed up… When he was with Masaki, he felt happy. All of his troubles didn’t matter anymore; all that was important was that moment, this second when he was holding the younger boy’s hand… The reality was coming later, when he was alone at his small apartment, thinking about the latter’s safety and trying to protect him.
“Sakurai-kun, are you happy?”
“What?”
“Are you happy that you have somebody who you can love?”
“Y-yes… Yes, Sensei I am happy.”
“Do you trust Aiba-kun? To the fullest?”
“I do.”
“Then don’t think too much and just let it be. Now, excuse me but I have few papers to fill… You can stay here is you want. Oh… Sakurai-kun… Did you… you know…” Ohno stammered and sighed, hoping the boy will understand what he is talking about. Luckily Sho was smart enough to catch Satoshi’s thoughts.
“S-sensei!” The student blushed and gasped, not able to utter a word.
“Easy, I don’t want to know… Just wanted to tell you to be careful. It is important thing, you know?”
“Yes, I am aware of that. Thank you, sensei. I won’t disturb you anymore.” Sakurai bowed, trying to hide his still red cheeks and he dashed from the doctor’s office, stopping far away from school. Breathing fast he sat on the grass, near the river and started to think. Of course he wanted to be close with Masaki… Real close… But he had no idea how to do it, he never… The boy shook his head and tried to think straight. He has no friends he can talk about it with, he can’t ask Ohno-sensei about it either. Sho laughed and lied on the ground, looking in the cloudy sky. He was acting like a virgin before his first time… Wait… He was one… What was the most stressing was the fact that he will be the one who has to take the initiative…
“I am the more mature, huh?” He whispered to himself and sighed. Slowly he stood up and went back home, still thinking about his boyfriend. Boyfriend… That word made him smile, probably because it was put in set with Masaki’s face. He wanted him close. He wanted to become one… Just thinking about it made Sakurai feel hot, but also confused because he never felt like this before. He reached his phone and wrote a message.
I thought you can come to my place after school tomorrow. I want you…
Delete, delete, delete… He can’t write it that casually. It’s far too important to just send it via mail. Sho will have to take all the courage and talk to Aiba. The older boy was sure, there were no doubts; he wanted to make love with Masaki. And as the responsible one, the mature and older one he has to prepare. The last thing he wanted was to hurt his boyfriend, so he has to get ready. But how?! Sakurai looked at his computer and sighed. He knew well that he can find some tips in the internet, but he was also aware that there could be a lot of rubbish. However Sho didn’t have any other option, so he sat down and typed gay porn in the search engine.