[Multi-chapter] Change (15/??)
Title: Change
Authors: syunikiss1990
Bet: andreja1989 ArigaPYON~!
Pairing: SakurAiba, Aimiya (friendship), Yama (friendship), Junba (friendship)
Genre: AU, Romance, Drama, School
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They are not ours, they belong to themselves...
*MASTERPOST*
Slowly Aiba walked thought the streets on his way home. He had spent the whole afternoon at Nino's place who had immediately dragged him inside when Aiba stood in front of his door. Aiba didn't have to say anything to explain what happened and luckily Nino understood and didn't ask anything. He broke up with Sakurai even though he still loved him. It felt like the right thing to do (and Ninomiya kept telling him the same) but at the same time he regretted it. It felt like it was his fault Sakurai had turned into this; frightening and brutal. Somehow the word monster seemed to be so fitting right now.
Without realizing he took the route home that leaded him close to Sakurai's place. Would he be home now? What would he be doing right now? Sighing he sped up a little, a chill running down his spine. His senses told him he shouldn't be here right now. It turned out his senses were right as a soaking wet figure came around the corner which he immediately recognized. They both froze, the pouring rain on his umbrella breaking the unbearable silence. Slowly Sakurai started to move forward, almost as if he was scared of Aiba running or disappearing if he moved too fast. When he was just an arm's length away Aiba finally found the strength to keep distance between them. In the poor light he could see the mad spark in the older boy's eyes as he reached out to him.
"Masaki, I..."
"Don't come closer Sakurai. I think I made my point when I said we shouldn't see each other anymore." He sounded much braver and stronger than he felt and he immediately regretted it as he saw the Sho he knew so well disappear completely.
"You made me a promise. You made me a promise and you broke it." This wasn't the Sakurai he knew anymore. His voice sounded hollow and his eyes were empty. Almost empty he realized as he saw the mad spark still in them which scared him. Before he knew what was happening his arm was in a tight and painful grip, causing him to drop his umbrella.
"Sho-chan let go." Aiba said softly, not really wanting to cause a scene on the street but at the same time scared to talk.
"You are mine. You said it. You promised me you won't hurt me and you won't leave me..."
"Sho please..." He had to try his hardest to fight his tears. Memories of last week came back to him with full force. He was sure he would have lost control of his legs and fallen if not for the tight grip the other had on him to keep him from moving. All the way to the older boys apartment Aiba could hear him mutter things but he couldn't hear clearly what he was saying. When they walked into the street where Sakurai's apartment was a sudden pain rushed through Aiba's ankle again, making him groan. He was supposed to be resting for that now. Unable to walk further he tripped and fell, grabbing his painful ankle tightly.
"Oh no, you are not getting away with that. I'm not buying it." Sakurai stood above him and with strength that surprised Aiba his sempai pulled him up. With the support of the slightly shorter man he found himself inside Sakurai's apartment with no longer a chance to get help or escape out of his hands. Terrified he looked into the other boy's eyes, trying to find the real Sho inside them so he could pull him out.
"Sho-chan..."
"You promised me Masaki. You said you are mine, mine only."
"Sho-chan please. You made me a promise as well. You promised you won't hurt me remember? Please let me go, we can talk when you calmed down." Slowly the older boy shook his head.
"We don't have to talk. I won't hurt you. I won't if you just believe me and stay with me." Before he knew what was happening Sakurai closed the distance between them and kissed him roughly. He tried to push him away but the older boy grabbed his arms and pulled them down at his sides, making it unable for him to give any resistance. In a final attempt he bit the others lip which got him the wanted effect. With questioning eyes the older boy pulled away.
"Stop it Sho, this isn't you. Please, just tell me what's going on." Aiba breathed, his eyes burning with questions. He highly hoped it would be enough to get him talking, that it would get Sho back to his normal self but when he saw the darkening eyes he swallowed hard.
"Mine Masaki. I have a right to get what's mine." The next thing happened in a blur. Roughly he was pulled to the bedroom and before he knew it he was tied to the bedpost again. Vulnerable and unable to get away, the thought made him shiver heavily. Last time he was here in this position he had been scared but even then felt like nothing compared to how he felt now.
"I didn't want to. I didn't want anyone to be close but you came anyway. Now you have to deal with it."
"Sho-chan you are scaring me. Please let me go."
"No! You will run, I won't let you go. You belong here, with me. I'm not letting you out of my sight again so no one can take you away from me. Not anymore." Tears started to burn in Masaki's eyes, moving his head away when Sho tried to kiss him. He winched when the other boy grabbed his chin and turned his head to claim his lips anyway. Trying to fight against the ties he moved his arms but he found that they were tied up even stronger than last time.
"Sho it hurts. You are hurting me. Please..."
"I'll make the pain go away okay? Just let me... I need you Masaki." Sho ripped open the shirt of Masaki's uniform, some of the buttons flying off in different directions. Hands started to trace his chest, spreading a ticklish feeling Masaki normally loved but now felt strange. He wanted the older boy to stop; he wanted his body to stop reacting to the soft kisses that started to follow the fingers. He bit his lip hard to stop himself from making any noise, not wanting to encourage Sho in any way.
"You like my touch, don't you?" Sho whispered softly, making him shake his head. Sho twirled his tongue around Masaki's right nipple when he wanted to say something. A moan slipped out of his parted lips, immediately biting on his lower lip again after.
"See, you do like it. I know all of you Masaki, your body belongs to me. You belong to me." Slowly the older boy began marking his chest, altering between biting, sucking and licking Masaki's weak spots until he felt himself falling for those touches. Sho pulled his pants and boxers off and continued his slow torture lower and lower while one of his hands started to stroke the taller boy's member. Moaning softly he felt himself grow in the older boys hands. On sudden impulse he tried to pull away, hissing with pain as the tie cut into his wrists.
"Sho let me go." He whispered with tears of pain in his eyes.
"I can't let you escape again. I don't want to be alone, not anymore." Sho looked up and moved closer, gently kissing away the tears in the corners of his eyes.
"I can't let you leave me." Without warning he pushed two fingers inside the younger boy, making him groan with pain.
"I'm sorry. I can't wait, I need to feel you Masaki. I need to know you are mine." Masaki gasped trying to curl himself up to protect himself but Sho sat between his legs to make it impossible.
"Sho stop. This isn't you. I know you don't want to do this. Just aaah..." He moaned as Sho bruised against his sweet spot. Slowly his own lust started to take over as Sho started to stroke his member again as well. The power the older boy had over him was frightening. It made him mad; mad at the other boy but at himself as well.
"Mine..." Sho whispered on his lips, kissing him quickly before pulling off his own clothes. Masaki knew what was coming and he closed his legs, hoping Sho would finally stop. But it was in vain as the older boy simply pushed them apart again and without waiting trusted inside him. The pain made him scream but it wasn't the physical pain that hurt the most. The feeling that the one who he loved so much was doing this pierced right through his soul, making it unable for him to move. He couldn't find the strength to try and stop Sho in any way anymore. He didn't even have the strength to cry about it anymore. He could feel Sho's hardness thrusts against his sweet spot but he couldn't feel the usual pleasure it would bring. He couldn't even feel his climax coming closer until his breath stopped and his body arched, his semen covering Sho's hand which was apparently around him. A couple of thrusts later he could feel Sho come inside him with Masaki's name on his lips. Pulling out he collapsed on top of the taller boy, his head on his chest and sighing deeply.
"Your heartbeat... It's so fast." Sho whispered, softly kissing his chest before laying his head there again.
"Let me go Sho-chan. Untie me please. It hurts..." Aiba started to shake heavily, his breathing still harsh and unsteady.
"I can't. I can't Masaki, I can't let you go. I don't want to be alone again. They will take you away, take what's mine."
"Please Sho-chan... Let me go. Please..." He felt used and dirty but most of all he felt broken. Coughing heavily between his sobs he tried to calm down but it was no use. When he opened his eyes he looked straight into the big brown eyes of the Sakurai he fell in love with. But it was too late for him now. The last tiny bit of trust Aiba had in the older boy had completely vanished. With shaking hands Sakurai started to untie him, muttering some incoherent words Aiba didn't catch. With the speed of light he got dressed as soon as his hands were free, not looking at the other boy until he finally could hear what he was muttering.
"Oh god please... Masaki... I'm sorry... Masaki please... I... I love you." Aiba's anger took over, his fists clenching to his sided.
"If you really love me you wouldn't have done this to me! I gave you a chance to talk but instead... But instead..." Tears streamed down his face, the words stuck in his throat.
"I don't know what came over me. The thought of losing you... It hurt so much."
"I don't know what happened to you in your past that makes you act this way. I wish you told me before, maybe I would have understood it better, maybe I could have helped you. I trusted you Sho, if only you could have done the same."
"Masaki no... Please... I..."
"It's over Sho... It's over..." His voice broke but he saw in Sho's eyes it still sounded strong enough for the older boy to believe him completely. Immediately he regretted his words as he saw the look he feared return to Sho's eyes within a second.
"No! Don't say it's over! It's not Masaki, you are mine." Sho's voice changed again as he grabbed Masaki's arm tightly.
“Didn’t you hear me? I said I don’t want you anymore! Don’t dare to touch me anymore, do you hear that?! You hurt me! You’re a monster!” As if Sho burned himself he let go of him. Wide eyed with regret he stared at him but too many emotions were taking over from Masaki, his anger toping everything else. He didn't want to hear Sho's pleading voice anymore.
Turning around without another word he dashed out of the small apartment, his feet leading him towards the only place he could think of now. He couldn't go home, not while he was messed up like this. It would bring too many unwanted questions. Instead he found himself soaking wet and shaking heavily in front of his best friend's house. Only when the door was opened and Nino's shocked eyes came in vision his mind completely shut down, his body protecting him from himself. Sobbing heavily he collapsed to the ground, shaking with fear, anger and pain, his vision blurring out slowly once he was finally laid to Ninomiya's bed to rest.