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Two
"Love does not traffic in a marketplace, nor use a huckster's scales. Its joy, like the joy of the intellect, is to feel itself alive. The aim of Love is to love: no more, and no less. You were my enemy: such an enemy as no man ever had. I had given you all my life, and to gratify the lowest and most contemptible of all human passions, hatred ( Read more... ) -
Renovation
Renovation
Bash down my walls
Hunt down my pain and pull from me
the bloodied, tangled tendrils by it's roots.
Reach in through scars laid open here before you
and prune away the rotted, seedy fruits
of shame and fear and all that came before you
and rearrange the crumbled bricks as suits.
(copyright 2007, radanols_girl)
The very kind radanols_girl has allowed ( Read more... ) -
Faking It
I’m getting less good at faking it.
People in my family are noticing and asking what’s wrong.
My friends give me invitations to talk, to cry.
I love them for their caring, but I want to run from it.
I have lost their language, their facility with words that convey feelings.
I am in new territory and feel like a foreigner in theirs.
~Martha ( Read more... ) -
never stop fighting
To be nobody but yourself
- in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else
- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight;
and never stop fighting.
~e.e. Cummings "A poet's advice to students"
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Night Lover
I know this is silly, but there is just a part of me that is wishing he will look my journal up while he is away
and will see this and know I was thinking of him at this very moment.
So, if you are.....
Your good girl misses you and waits for your safe return.
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The Passion
"I didn't know what hate felt like, not the hate that comes after love.
It's huge and desperate and it longs to be proved wrong.
And every day it's proved right it grows a little more monstrous.
If the love was passion, the hate will be obsession.
A need to see the once-loved weak and cowed beneath pity.
Disgust is close and dignity is far away ( Read more... ) -
Curtain
"Never value the advantages derived from anything involving breach of faith,
loss of self-respect, hatred,
suspicion, or execration of others, insincerity,
or the desire for something which has to be veiled and curtained."
Marcus Aurelius, Meditations
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Convinced?
Usually we walk around constantly believing ourselves.
'I'm okay' we say. 'I'm alright'.
But sometimes the truth arrives on you and you can't get it off.
That's when you realize that sometimes it isn't even an answer--
it's a question.
Even now, I wonder how much of my life is convinced