Rambling....

[karebare004]

So my journal has lately been about infertility and how bad it sucks. I understand people are like “hey it does, but it will happen when its meant to be” I get this from normal people and infertiles as well. This statement drives me up a wall because How do I know it’s meant to happen? What if it’s not meant to happen, then all of this has

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[claddaughcutie]

At least you've finally let (most of) it out! I'm proud of you for that. You just need to figure out exactly what works for you and your life. It sounds like you're on the way to doing that. As for the visiting thing, I would love to visit more often, but at this point, I'm down to about $40 each month after I pay bills. I wish I could go places more often, but I just can't. Hang in there and I know that you'll figure out exactly what you want and how to achieve it. I love you!

[karebare004]

I love you too, and believe me I understand that money is tight. I just miss how things used to be. It was easier to say the least. I do look forward to decemeber when we can get the bridesmaid dress.

[psychickjb]

*hugs* Be the change you want to see. We have such little control over our lives, but the aspects we can, own it!
Sounds like you're doing some real soul searching. Thanks for your honesty here. Thinking of you!

[karebare004]

Yep that's what I have to do. Be the change. I took my measurements last night while watching the biggest loser. And I was astonished at things. I just can't believe it. I'm almost a straight line. No curves. That's not me, I'm curvy dangerous road. So now its got to change. My gym is about 3 blocks from the office and close to the bart station. I think I'm going to see what it looks like on my lunch and afterwork. We will see.