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Why is that when I'm needed most, I fall short? Somehow I miss the mark and just end up sounding like a broken record and unhelpful. When a friend asks me if I can help them, especially with relationships due to the fact I used to be an unbiased party, I just take in what they tell me and end up spewing the worst? When something is at it's end I can see that, but they want to know there is a cure-all path that they can take! It makes me sad when I know that there isn't and it's time for them to leave the other person.
But they love them.
DAMMIT!!!! Fuck it all man! I fell like I should just send her the song 'Leave!' by VV Brown. Goodness.
Then there is MY boyfriend who just... yeah. It's happening. We're going into mundaneness and I don't even know. I think I did myself a disservice by jumping into a relationship without hanging out with him before him. Revise: hang out with him for more than one night. I'm not sure if it's him or it's me. He's awesome but just... is a guy. Plain and simple. I now know that is meant by every person in a relationship where they claim that their partner "Doesn't share their emotions" with them. First and foremost some of his exes were hot, I'm bi so I can judge with more clarity too, and then there is me. I'm not sure if they were geeky or not... or what. I'm so fucking confused!!
Did he think I was an easy lay or something? I mean it hasn't happened yet but it's still tempting. Fuck... am I turning into a whore? Really? GAH!! I hate this so much, just saying. Relationships are complicated and annoying, I'm just saying. OH, and I hate confronting people about things so that means I can't tell people that I think they should sever an almost one-year relationship without feeling REALLY fraggin' bad about that.
This rant doesn't even make sense anymore... I don't know what I'm doing. It's midnight, I'm tired, and emotionally drained. Let the world burn, I'M going to bed.
Goodnight,
Karesu
The Demonic KareBear
But they love them.
DAMMIT!!!! Fuck it all man! I fell like I should just send her the song 'Leave!' by VV Brown. Goodness.
Then there is MY boyfriend who just... yeah. It's happening. We're going into mundaneness and I don't even know. I think I did myself a disservice by jumping into a relationship without hanging out with him before him. Revise: hang out with him for more than one night. I'm not sure if it's him or it's me. He's awesome but just... is a guy. Plain and simple. I now know that is meant by every person in a relationship where they claim that their partner "Doesn't share their emotions" with them. First and foremost some of his exes were hot, I'm bi so I can judge with more clarity too, and then there is me. I'm not sure if they were geeky or not... or what. I'm so fucking confused!!
Did he think I was an easy lay or something? I mean it hasn't happened yet but it's still tempting. Fuck... am I turning into a whore? Really? GAH!! I hate this so much, just saying. Relationships are complicated and annoying, I'm just saying. OH, and I hate confronting people about things so that means I can't tell people that I think they should sever an almost one-year relationship without feeling REALLY fraggin' bad about that.
This rant doesn't even make sense anymore... I don't know what I'm doing. It's midnight, I'm tired, and emotionally drained. Let the world burn, I'M going to bed.
Goodnight,
Karesu
The Demonic KareBear