life goes on (3/?)
Chapter tree
They just stared at each other, not really sure how to deal with this information. Looking at Reid, Luke could tell that this was as much a surprise to him as it had been to Luke.
While Reid had been talking, Luke hadn’t been thinking about whether he could touch him or not, he had forgotten about time and place, all that existed was Reid. He had just acted on an instinct, just something he needed to do. It wasn’t before he became aware of how good it had felt. Reid’s body against his own, how he could use all his senses in that embrace…he could even smell him, feel the sensation of Reid’s breath on his skin, it had just hit him that it felt so real, despite everything, and he looked at the beautiful man in front of him, looking exactly like he did when he was alive.
“I mean, can you feel it, like I can, like…….a live person?” He was whispering the last part.
“I… I guess I can” He said with a surprised look on his face. Then his expression changed to a more thoughtful one; “I guess it’s our world, Luke, we can do what we want”
It was quiet again for a moment, the silence filling up the room. But it was a good silence, comferteble. The two of them just looking at each other while Luke just ran his fingers over different places on Reid’s torso, lightly, like if he did too much too fast, he would simply just vanish into the air.
“Do you think…we can….?” Luke asked his voice low and a bit shaky. Maybe it was too much to hope for, but then again, Reid was just standing right there in front of him, he didn’t know how that could even be possible. And he had just hugged him…they had both felt it, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“Only one way to find out” Reid answered his voice just as low, filled with desire. Their eyes met again, and Reid lifted his hand up to cup Luke’s cheek, like he had done so many times before. Their face came closer, they paused for a second, Luke licked his lips and closed his eyes, and then their lips met.
It was soft, moist, their lips barely moving at first. Neither wanting to break this spell. Then they deepened it, became more passionately, their hands exploring each other. It was like they put all the want and need from five months apart in to that single kiss. Luke ran his fingers through Reid’s hair. It was so amazing, being able to feel his hair between his fingers, being able to pull on his soft, slightly curled hair. Luke had always loved that, all the times they had made out before. He couldn’t believe this was really happening, finally. He held Reid’s hhead in his hands, looked in to his blue eyes before their lips crashed together again.
Then, the spell was broken.
Suddenly, Luke was unable to touch Reid, still seeing him, but it was like he was fading away. Luke himself felt like he no longer could move as easily as before.
“What’s happening?” Luke asked desperately. This could not happen. Not again!
“I don’t…..” Reid begun, looking down the fading image of himself “I think……you’re about to wake up” he told Luke.
“Luke? You in here” they heard a voice called, followed by a soft knock on the door.
“No no no no no,” Luke shook his head, his hands pulling on his hair. “This can’t happen I can’t wake up now, not now that I found you…..” Luke felt like he was about to cry.
“Relax, Luke! I found you once, we will find each other again….. I promise.” His voice sounding farther away, the voice outside the door became stronger.
“To be continued” he heard, before he was fully awake, and lying on his bed again.
“Luke?” his mother’s voice called again. “We just came back from dinner, we brought you some. I know you are very busy, but won’t you come down for a little while.”
“We’re making ice cream sundaes”, she added in a tempting voice.
He was still a little startled, but managed to get out a short answer, to keep his mother from entering his room. He wanted nothing more than to just go back to the state he was in just a few minutes ago, with Reid. But, as he didn’t want his parents to nag him about him working too much and not taking proper care of himself, he figured if he just went down there and played nice for a few hours, he could excuse himself and have an early night without raising too much suspicion.
Luke spent time with his family.
He ate his dinner while joking and laughing along with Faith and his mother, enjoyed his ice cream with Ethan snuggling on his lap. He played a video game with Natalie and a round of chess with his dad.
But still; time seemed to pass very slowly!
By nine, he couldn’t take it anymore, and excused himself again, telling them he needed to get an early night and headed up the stairs.
He could tell his mom really wanted to talk to him, but ignored her attempt to make him stay. He just couldn’t have a conversation alone with his parents right now. To be honest, he probably couldn’t engage in a conversation with anyone at this point.
When he got up to his room, he just paced around a little, nervous about what might or might not happen. Should he just go to bed and try to go to sleep right away, but could he relax enough to even come close to sleep. What if it didn’t work when he was waiting for it?
But what if it did, and he and Reid would finally have their time alone together…… Luke almost felt dizzy just thinking about it.
Suddenly he felt the need for a shower. Maybe it wouldn’t matter as it was all in his head or whatever it was, but he just felt the need to freshen up. And a warm shower could just be what he needed to get the tension out of his body.
It helped; he came out of the shower, feeling fresh and more relaxed than before. He dried himself of in a hurry, missing a few drops, running down his bare chest. He didn’t care and just tossed the towel on the floor, and curled himself up under the covers.
Finally!
He was done waiting!
He tossed and turned for a while, unable to find a comfortable position to fall asleep in.
“Just relax“he told himself,
”If it works it works. He said he would find you again, he will! If not now, than some other time.”
“Just relax and let it happen”, he told himself again. He bit his bottom lip before taking a few deep breaths, and closed his eyes. He continued to breathe deeply, feeling his body ease up a little with every breath. He didn’t know how long he lay like this, but suddenly he felt the presents of something again, the same breeze brushed trough the room again.
“Dreaming of me I assume?”
“Always!”
They stood there for a moment, taking it all in. Gazing into each other’s eyes, each other’s souls,
The next second they were in each other’s arms.
And once again the kiss started off slow and gentle, but was soon deepened, both men trying to get as close to the other as possible, hands touching everywhere. They continued to kiss like this for a few minutes, before Reid took a step back, holding his hand on Luke’s shoulder.
“Luke, relax” he said breathlessly “let’s take it more slow, lets enjoy this, make it last.”
And they did.
Luke enjoyed the feel of Reid’s naked chest against his own, how it felt beneath his lips, as he planted small kisses on his chest. He enjoyed the feeling of Reid’s lips on his chest,his tounge trailing all the way down, his breath hitched when Reid took all of him into his mouth.
It was all so real;he could feel Reid so close,the warmth of his body, his soft skin. The amazing feeling of Reid inside him, their bodies moving , fitting so well together. Like they were part of each other.
It was all Luke had expected, and more.
So much more!
It was the best, most intimate experience he’d ever had, real life or not!
Luke lied in his bed, sleeping.
And, if someone were to see him , they would see just that; Luke asleep in his bed. A little restless maybe, but still, nothing unusual.
But, if one took a closer look, studying him for awhile, one would notice how flushed his cheeks were. One would notice those shallow, quick breaths, how his pulse was rising.
If one stayed a little longer, one might be able to hear the small moans escaping from his lips now and again, one might see small beads of sweat forming on his forehead. If one stayed even longer, one would witness how he would arch his back, his whole body tighten up for a moment hear a whisper of Reid’s name , followed by a relaxing sigh of plesure.
And then again one would see Luke sleep peacefully, but now, if one looked close,one would see a small, blissful smile forming on his lips.