fic: open your eyes
Title: Open you'r eyes
Author: karinskul
Summary: The day Noah got his sight back, what could have happened if Luke hadn't seen him?
Rating: Pg-13, I think
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters
Noah was in a good mood , no, ha was in a great mood, and he had plans. He wanted to surprise Luke. His eyesight had recovered completely, and he was ready to tell Luke that he wanted back together, that he was ready to give everything to their relationship, to ask him to give them another chance.
He knew Luke said that his feelings for him had changed, but surely he would give him a chance to prove to him that he really meant it this time.
It might take them some time, clearly they had some stuff to work through, but he was prepared for that, as he would let Luke know.
He was however NOT prepared for the sight that awaited him next.
As he walked up to the house, he glanced through the window by the front door to see if anyone was home, -and, yes indeed was someone home.
If he hadn't been on a mission to get back together whit him, and not so completely distraught about the sight in front of him, he would have thought; Good for you, Luke!
There he was; Luke,
HIS Luke ,
kissing someone else!
Passionately kissing someone else. How could this be?
When did this happen? !
Maybe he should have seen it coming.
In fact he kind of had, he knew Luke had tried to tell him something days earlier, by the Snyder pond. But he didn't want to hear it, to believe it, so he had distracted Luke before he could actually say those words, by faking a headache. He knew Luke, and knew he would rush him back to the hospital for a check up.
But still...... He didn't expect this!
But his biggest question was who??
The man was clearly older than the two of them, not as old as the last guy Luke was kissing that wasn't him, though, but still,older. He'd thought he would have had gotten some clue from someone, that Luke was seeing someone new.
A slip of the tongue or an awkward silence or something.
Not even from Casey, and his loose lips, had he received any information that Luke might be seeing someone!
Then he thought of something else;
Dr. Oliver's and Luke’s behavior after he woke up from the surgery. He felt a new tension both between Luke and Dr. Oliver, and between himself and his doctor.
He knew Luke and Dr. Oliver didn't get along that well, but he thought that had changed lately. And even when they "hated" each other they never held back, always snarking at each other one of them had a quick, sarcastic remark.
He always had the feeling that the doctor kind of liked to act that way towards Luke, just to get him worked up as much as anything else.
But now he seemed angrier, or something. He couldn't quite put his finger on it. And, to be honest, with all that was going on in his head, he hadn't lingered on it for that long.
Could it bee that Dr. Oliver knew that Luke was seeing someone, and that he was uncomfortable with Luke's bad timing, or he didn't like keeping his secret?
As all thees toughs passed in his head in something that felt like minutes, but actually only was seconds, he suddenly heard Richard walked up beside him. Startled as he had almost forgotten about him, he felt really humiliated that he had to see this. Especially since he had just let him down, saying they could only be friends, as he really loved Luke.
"No. Richard can't see this, it's too humiliating. I just told him how much Luke always loves me, that we were meant to be. Oh god! I've got to get him away from here!"
«Richard, I can take it from here, thank you so much for driving me man, but I need some time alone with Luke, catch up with you later, yeah?» Noah said, desperately trying to get Richard out of there before he could see.
«Um, okay I guess, but....ehm you sure your eyesight are completely restored, he's not exactly alone, dude........ ?»
“Yeah, I don't know what that is about, but I'm sure there's an logical explanation. Luke wouldn't do this to me. ....Like I said, I'll take it from here, OK?, so just.... see you later”
Raising his eyebrows a little in disbelief, Richard turned around, letting out a breath and shook his head a little. Frankly he was glad to get out of there, this was some drama he didn't want to be caught up in.
Well, a part of him would like to see what happened next...... And Luke and Noah's doctor did look hot together!
Back, outside the house, things had taken a turn for the worse, for Noah's sake that was.
The couple in front of him was no longer standing in the middle of the living room, kissing. The short time he had turned his attention away, they had made their way over to the couch, sitting facing each other. The older man adjusted the way he was sitting, leaning his body closer to Luke. They were kissing like they couldn't get enough of each other, occasionally stopping, looking into each others eyes, silently asking the other if this was what he wanted, asking permission to go on, before their lips crashed together once again.
Noah watched, as the were leaning even closer together, hands fumbling with Luke's belt bucket, to no protest from his ex, apparently.
He knew he shouldn't be standing there still, watching the scene in front of him, like a little perv, he should get out of there or make his presents known or take some kind of action.
But he just didn't know what to do. When he looked inside again, they seemed to have stopped their previous actions.
“Good”, Noah thought, “maybe Luke has come to his senses, he realizes he loves me, and can't do this. I'll let him know I'll forgive him, we can all have our weak moments, it has been a while, after all.”
But then, frozen in place, he watched as Luke got to his feet, holding out a hand to the older man, getting him to his feet as well. Still holding hands, Luke walked them to the stairs leading to the second floor, to his bedroom!
“No! Nonononono! What the hell is Luke thinking, going to bed with this.....man! Is he really that desperate. How can he DO this???”
But Noah couldn't just stand there on the front porch anymore, and before he knew it ,he had opened the door and walked inside.
Now, in the living room he started pacing around the room, pulling at his hair in frustration and confusion on what to do next. He wanted to stop whatever it was Luke and that man was doing, but surely he couldn't just barge in on them like that, could he? He had almost reached the door, leading to the stairs, about to open it,then hesitated before going another round in the room. Maybe he could go outside again and ring the doorbell and pretend he just got there?
That's what he should do.
But instead he went back to the stairs, a determined look on his face. He had no idea what he would do next, he just acted.
He walked slowly up the stairs, trying not to make a sound, although he felt like his heartbeats were loud enough for everyone to hear, along with the angry puffs of breaths escaping his lips.
Now he actually wanted to catch Luke “cheating” on him, see the look of shame on his face, make him feel guilty for being so desperate that he couldn't even wait until his boyfriend were out of the hospital before jumping into bed with some random guy .
"Where the hell did you even meet this guy,Luke?"
He would just pretend he had tried to ring the doorbell and that no one answered. Seeing he was practically family anyway, it wouldn't seem too weird that he just let himself in, right?. He could say he was looking for some of his stuff that he'd left behind when he was still ,living there..
As he came closer to the bedroom door, he could see it wasn't even closed.
“Christ, Luke! This isn't like you! We were always so careful, always made sure the door was looked. What if it was your mother, or your siblings! Are you drinking again, is that it? You picked up this guy in a bar? Well, I'm here, I'll save you from your self, after you have done properly amount of amends of course”
He could hear voices, they were...talking?
“....... Sorry!” He could hear Luke's voice. Curiosity getting the better of him, Noah stopped at the door, getting a glance trough the small crack.
The sight made him almost choke on his breath, but he remained silent.
They both had their shirts off, the belt and buttons on Luke's jeans were opened , but it seemed like they had stopped it there. Luke, was on his back on the bed, whilst the older man on his side, his head propped up into his hand. The look he gave Luke, it was so full of understanding, and so soft, and the same time, so filled of want.
“Hey, it's OK. I get it.... well sort of.”
“That voice! I've heard it before, but where?
He couldn't quite place it, but it was definitely familiar. But different at the same time, softer maybe. If he knew this person, he had never spoken to him with that voice. Something dawned on him in the back of is mind, but he couldn't quite catch.
“It' s not like last time, you know...after Noah's surgery.....”
“What? After my what? My surgery?!!! You should be waiting by my bedside then!! What the hell is going on Luke?”
“I know I want this, I did then too, I guess you were right, but I just felt so guilty then.....”
“Damn right you should!”
“......but now;..... I want to do it right, I just.....”
“Shh! Like I said, I get it, you don't have to explain anything, Luke...”
“Where have I heard that voice, it drives me crazy!!”
“No, no, Reid, I want you to know this.....”
“Reid?! Reid? Who ? What? Reid... REID FUCKING OLIVER????
“It's really not that I don't want to”
Noah noticed the emphasize on those words, before Luke continued.
“You know that, but I'm not a one night stand kind of guy, you know...? Yeah I guess you do." Luke ducked his head a little, biting his lower lip.
" So I just need to know where this is going?” Luke finished as he looked back up into Reid's eyes.
All the time he had been talking, Reid had run his hand up and down Luke's arm, and was no gently cupping his ex's face, letting his thumb make small soothing circles on his cheek.
“And you should know by now, I don't do all of this with anyone either, I mean, if I just wanted someone to play around with, I wouldn't getting involved with my patients ex boyfriend. Too much drama. I don't do drama. So I can assure you, I don't want this to be something you regret later on. If you need more time, then I guess I can wait..... a little. At least I know where I stand now, I hope?....... I want this to be right too.”
“I don't need that much time”
Luke said as he looked at his fingers, running up and down Reid's naked chest.
“But I feel like I should tell Noah about us. I know I don't owe him or anything, we're broken up, but he thought we had a chance getting back together, and he really should hear it from me first, and.... You know, I almost told him about you, well not you exactly, but that there was someone else. And if you think he's ready soon, then I should have that talk with him, make sure he understand.”
Noah was fuming, how could his boyfriend, well ex maybe, and his doctor do this to him while he was fighting to get his life back. How could a doctor get involved with his patients loved one. Luke who had always loved him so much, and his doctor. Taking advantage........
“So, what are we? Do we tell anyone, or do you want to wait or..? or what?”
“Don't make it so complicated..... we're together, let's just start with that and take it from there I guess. Go on a date or something, isn't that how relationships get started?” Reid asked, before leaning down planting a kiss on Luke's mouth.
It started as a soft kiss, like to confirm what they had just talked about. But it was soon turned in to more.
“Mmhmm” Luke answered in between kisses. He pulled Reid down, deepening the kiss, making it more intense. Reid could only give in, and soon they were making out again.
“Mmm..Luke..*kiss*.. I said ….*kiss* ...I'd give you...*kiss* time *kiss*...but if we don't...*kiss* stop soon, I'm not sure I'll be able too...*kiss* stop at all”
Luke stopped for a moment, sighed as he gazed up on Reid's face.
“I want you...-now!” He whispered, before pulling Reid in again.
“I can appreciate that, but....*kiss* what about...?”
“That can wait.....”
“I can't!”
And then all Noah could do was to get out of there. He needed air, it was difficult to breathe, his eyes was stinging, and now he kind of wished he were still blind. He had seen enough!, heard enough!
He didn't belong there!
So he ran, down the stairs and out the door, and since he had no ride home he just continued to run.
Noah was sitting in his living room, -alone!
He was broken.
Defeated.
He had lost.
Now, he was looking through the clips on his video camera. When he came home , he found it there along with all the stuff he had brought home with him from the hospital before heading over to see Luke.
Watching the clip from the day of his surgery, the day Luke apparently almost had sex with Dr. Oliver,he still couldn't get his head around all that had happened that day.
How could everything change so quickly, going from feeling so great, thinking he finally had his life back, to feeling he had lost everything he really cared about?
“.......Don't be, you have an amazing surgeon” The tone in Luke's voice........
“My god, why didn't I pick up on that?”
“Smile to the camera....” He heard, seeing himself and Luke smiling to the camera, before suddenly, Luke's facial expression changed . He looked embarrassed, guilty even. And then the clip ended.
Noah remembered. That was when Dr. Oliver had entered the room. He remembered that Luke had tensed up a bit, but so had he, and he had just assumed that it was just because he was just as nervous.
Little did he know.... He almost got angry again, thinking about how they must have laughed behind his back.
But he didn't really have the energy.
He rewind, looking at the clip before the surgery one.
And there he was.
Luke again. Beaming at the camera. “You're amazing” he said.
“Noah Mayer, you are the most incredible person I've met in my life, and it's an honor to know you”
"I'm so glad to have you in my life"
"I'm glad to have you in my life too" he could hear his own voice answer.
He shut of the camera, letting his arm, go limb, the camera fell to the floor. He could only stare out to the empty room.
He had lost!
“What have I done?” He said out loud to himself.
“What the HELL have I done????”
Fin.
Author: karinskul
Summary: The day Noah got his sight back, what could have happened if Luke hadn't seen him?
Rating: Pg-13, I think
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters
Noah was in a good mood , no, ha was in a great mood, and he had plans. He wanted to surprise Luke. His eyesight had recovered completely, and he was ready to tell Luke that he wanted back together, that he was ready to give everything to their relationship, to ask him to give them another chance.
He knew Luke said that his feelings for him had changed, but surely he would give him a chance to prove to him that he really meant it this time.
It might take them some time, clearly they had some stuff to work through, but he was prepared for that, as he would let Luke know.
He was however NOT prepared for the sight that awaited him next.
As he walked up to the house, he glanced through the window by the front door to see if anyone was home, -and, yes indeed was someone home.
If he hadn't been on a mission to get back together whit him, and not so completely distraught about the sight in front of him, he would have thought; Good for you, Luke!
There he was; Luke,
HIS Luke ,
kissing someone else!
Passionately kissing someone else. How could this be?
When did this happen? !
Maybe he should have seen it coming.
In fact he kind of had, he knew Luke had tried to tell him something days earlier, by the Snyder pond. But he didn't want to hear it, to believe it, so he had distracted Luke before he could actually say those words, by faking a headache. He knew Luke, and knew he would rush him back to the hospital for a check up.
But still...... He didn't expect this!
But his biggest question was who??
The man was clearly older than the two of them, not as old as the last guy Luke was kissing that wasn't him, though, but still,older. He'd thought he would have had gotten some clue from someone, that Luke was seeing someone new.
A slip of the tongue or an awkward silence or something.
Not even from Casey, and his loose lips, had he received any information that Luke might be seeing someone!
Then he thought of something else;
Dr. Oliver's and Luke’s behavior after he woke up from the surgery. He felt a new tension both between Luke and Dr. Oliver, and between himself and his doctor.
He knew Luke and Dr. Oliver didn't get along that well, but he thought that had changed lately. And even when they "hated" each other they never held back, always snarking at each other one of them had a quick, sarcastic remark.
He always had the feeling that the doctor kind of liked to act that way towards Luke, just to get him worked up as much as anything else.
But now he seemed angrier, or something. He couldn't quite put his finger on it. And, to be honest, with all that was going on in his head, he hadn't lingered on it for that long.
Could it bee that Dr. Oliver knew that Luke was seeing someone, and that he was uncomfortable with Luke's bad timing, or he didn't like keeping his secret?
As all thees toughs passed in his head in something that felt like minutes, but actually only was seconds, he suddenly heard Richard walked up beside him. Startled as he had almost forgotten about him, he felt really humiliated that he had to see this. Especially since he had just let him down, saying they could only be friends, as he really loved Luke.
"No. Richard can't see this, it's too humiliating. I just told him how much Luke always loves me, that we were meant to be. Oh god! I've got to get him away from here!"
«Richard, I can take it from here, thank you so much for driving me man, but I need some time alone with Luke, catch up with you later, yeah?» Noah said, desperately trying to get Richard out of there before he could see.
«Um, okay I guess, but....ehm you sure your eyesight are completely restored, he's not exactly alone, dude........ ?»
“Yeah, I don't know what that is about, but I'm sure there's an logical explanation. Luke wouldn't do this to me. ....Like I said, I'll take it from here, OK?, so just.... see you later”
Raising his eyebrows a little in disbelief, Richard turned around, letting out a breath and shook his head a little. Frankly he was glad to get out of there, this was some drama he didn't want to be caught up in.
Well, a part of him would like to see what happened next...... And Luke and Noah's doctor did look hot together!
Back, outside the house, things had taken a turn for the worse, for Noah's sake that was.
The couple in front of him was no longer standing in the middle of the living room, kissing. The short time he had turned his attention away, they had made their way over to the couch, sitting facing each other. The older man adjusted the way he was sitting, leaning his body closer to Luke. They were kissing like they couldn't get enough of each other, occasionally stopping, looking into each others eyes, silently asking the other if this was what he wanted, asking permission to go on, before their lips crashed together once again.
Noah watched, as the were leaning even closer together, hands fumbling with Luke's belt bucket, to no protest from his ex, apparently.
He knew he shouldn't be standing there still, watching the scene in front of him, like a little perv, he should get out of there or make his presents known or take some kind of action.
But he just didn't know what to do. When he looked inside again, they seemed to have stopped their previous actions.
“Good”, Noah thought, “maybe Luke has come to his senses, he realizes he loves me, and can't do this. I'll let him know I'll forgive him, we can all have our weak moments, it has been a while, after all.”
But then, frozen in place, he watched as Luke got to his feet, holding out a hand to the older man, getting him to his feet as well. Still holding hands, Luke walked them to the stairs leading to the second floor, to his bedroom!
“No! Nonononono! What the hell is Luke thinking, going to bed with this.....man! Is he really that desperate. How can he DO this???”
But Noah couldn't just stand there on the front porch anymore, and before he knew it ,he had opened the door and walked inside.
Now, in the living room he started pacing around the room, pulling at his hair in frustration and confusion on what to do next. He wanted to stop whatever it was Luke and that man was doing, but surely he couldn't just barge in on them like that, could he? He had almost reached the door, leading to the stairs, about to open it,then hesitated before going another round in the room. Maybe he could go outside again and ring the doorbell and pretend he just got there?
That's what he should do.
But instead he went back to the stairs, a determined look on his face. He had no idea what he would do next, he just acted.
He walked slowly up the stairs, trying not to make a sound, although he felt like his heartbeats were loud enough for everyone to hear, along with the angry puffs of breaths escaping his lips.
Now he actually wanted to catch Luke “cheating” on him, see the look of shame on his face, make him feel guilty for being so desperate that he couldn't even wait until his boyfriend were out of the hospital before jumping into bed with some random guy .
"Where the hell did you even meet this guy,Luke?"
He would just pretend he had tried to ring the doorbell and that no one answered. Seeing he was practically family anyway, it wouldn't seem too weird that he just let himself in, right?. He could say he was looking for some of his stuff that he'd left behind when he was still ,living there..
As he came closer to the bedroom door, he could see it wasn't even closed.
“Christ, Luke! This isn't like you! We were always so careful, always made sure the door was looked. What if it was your mother, or your siblings! Are you drinking again, is that it? You picked up this guy in a bar? Well, I'm here, I'll save you from your self, after you have done properly amount of amends of course”
He could hear voices, they were...talking?
“....... Sorry!” He could hear Luke's voice. Curiosity getting the better of him, Noah stopped at the door, getting a glance trough the small crack.
The sight made him almost choke on his breath, but he remained silent.
They both had their shirts off, the belt and buttons on Luke's jeans were opened , but it seemed like they had stopped it there. Luke, was on his back on the bed, whilst the older man on his side, his head propped up into his hand. The look he gave Luke, it was so full of understanding, and so soft, and the same time, so filled of want.
“Hey, it's OK. I get it.... well sort of.”
“That voice! I've heard it before, but where?
He couldn't quite place it, but it was definitely familiar. But different at the same time, softer maybe. If he knew this person, he had never spoken to him with that voice. Something dawned on him in the back of is mind, but he couldn't quite catch.
“It' s not like last time, you know...after Noah's surgery.....”
“What? After my what? My surgery?!!! You should be waiting by my bedside then!! What the hell is going on Luke?”
“I know I want this, I did then too, I guess you were right, but I just felt so guilty then.....”
“Damn right you should!”
“......but now;..... I want to do it right, I just.....”
“Shh! Like I said, I get it, you don't have to explain anything, Luke...”
“Where have I heard that voice, it drives me crazy!!”
“No, no, Reid, I want you to know this.....”
“Reid?! Reid? Who ? What? Reid... REID FUCKING OLIVER????
“It's really not that I don't want to”
Noah noticed the emphasize on those words, before Luke continued.
“You know that, but I'm not a one night stand kind of guy, you know...? Yeah I guess you do." Luke ducked his head a little, biting his lower lip.
" So I just need to know where this is going?” Luke finished as he looked back up into Reid's eyes.
All the time he had been talking, Reid had run his hand up and down Luke's arm, and was no gently cupping his ex's face, letting his thumb make small soothing circles on his cheek.
“And you should know by now, I don't do all of this with anyone either, I mean, if I just wanted someone to play around with, I wouldn't getting involved with my patients ex boyfriend. Too much drama. I don't do drama. So I can assure you, I don't want this to be something you regret later on. If you need more time, then I guess I can wait..... a little. At least I know where I stand now, I hope?....... I want this to be right too.”
“I don't need that much time”
Luke said as he looked at his fingers, running up and down Reid's naked chest.
“But I feel like I should tell Noah about us. I know I don't owe him or anything, we're broken up, but he thought we had a chance getting back together, and he really should hear it from me first, and.... You know, I almost told him about you, well not you exactly, but that there was someone else. And if you think he's ready soon, then I should have that talk with him, make sure he understand.”
Noah was fuming, how could his boyfriend, well ex maybe, and his doctor do this to him while he was fighting to get his life back. How could a doctor get involved with his patients loved one. Luke who had always loved him so much, and his doctor. Taking advantage........
“So, what are we? Do we tell anyone, or do you want to wait or..? or what?”
“Don't make it so complicated..... we're together, let's just start with that and take it from there I guess. Go on a date or something, isn't that how relationships get started?” Reid asked, before leaning down planting a kiss on Luke's mouth.
It started as a soft kiss, like to confirm what they had just talked about. But it was soon turned in to more.
“Mmhmm” Luke answered in between kisses. He pulled Reid down, deepening the kiss, making it more intense. Reid could only give in, and soon they were making out again.
“Mmm..Luke..*kiss*.. I said ….*kiss* ...I'd give you...*kiss* time *kiss*...but if we don't...*kiss* stop soon, I'm not sure I'll be able too...*kiss* stop at all”
Luke stopped for a moment, sighed as he gazed up on Reid's face.
“I want you...-now!” He whispered, before pulling Reid in again.
“I can appreciate that, but....*kiss* what about...?”
“That can wait.....”
“I can't!”
And then all Noah could do was to get out of there. He needed air, it was difficult to breathe, his eyes was stinging, and now he kind of wished he were still blind. He had seen enough!, heard enough!
He didn't belong there!
So he ran, down the stairs and out the door, and since he had no ride home he just continued to run.
Noah was sitting in his living room, -alone!
He was broken.
Defeated.
He had lost.
Now, he was looking through the clips on his video camera. When he came home , he found it there along with all the stuff he had brought home with him from the hospital before heading over to see Luke.
Watching the clip from the day of his surgery, the day Luke apparently almost had sex with Dr. Oliver,he still couldn't get his head around all that had happened that day.
How could everything change so quickly, going from feeling so great, thinking he finally had his life back, to feeling he had lost everything he really cared about?
“.......Don't be, you have an amazing surgeon” The tone in Luke's voice........
“My god, why didn't I pick up on that?”
“Smile to the camera....” He heard, seeing himself and Luke smiling to the camera, before suddenly, Luke's facial expression changed . He looked embarrassed, guilty even. And then the clip ended.
Noah remembered. That was when Dr. Oliver had entered the room. He remembered that Luke had tensed up a bit, but so had he, and he had just assumed that it was just because he was just as nervous.
Little did he know.... He almost got angry again, thinking about how they must have laughed behind his back.
But he didn't really have the energy.
He rewind, looking at the clip before the surgery one.
And there he was.
Luke again. Beaming at the camera. “You're amazing” he said.
“Noah Mayer, you are the most incredible person I've met in my life, and it's an honor to know you”
"I'm so glad to have you in my life"
"I'm glad to have you in my life too" he could hear his own voice answer.
He shut of the camera, letting his arm, go limb, the camera fell to the floor. He could only stare out to the empty room.
He had lost!
“What have I done?” He said out loud to himself.
“What the HELL have I done????”
Fin.