well, how bout imagining a friend pass away. imagine me >.> although i know that you wont cry over me, nor will you visit me >.o but somehow i believe that will make you feel sad. i think.
shobe, your just believing that you dont care, you think you convienced yourself that you will not miss them. that is what your feeling now, but you never really know what you will feel when you have experience it on your own. surely, you think that you wont miss them, but somehow, deep inside you, you will miss them. and i know you do. you just dont realize it.
The thing is achie, I've experienced it thrice now. First was when my grandma's sister died. She was like a second mother to me in the sense that I'm closer to her than my grandma. When she died I was like "Okay." The next was my mother's cousin, who when she comes over always reminds me of Christmas. She was the one who took care of me from prep school to grade 3, and she died not too long ago. Still I was like "Okay." I don't know why. >_<;;
I don't think I'm capable of crying over anyone who dies >_<;
surely, you think that you wont miss them, but somehow, deep inside you, you will miss them. and i know you do. you just dont realize it. Maybe that'll come someday. *is really doubtful*
Everyone will say that they have best friends or people they trust, but I think that paths just cross momentarily, you can never go back to friendships or recapture love. - :( That made me remember a person who was a really close friend of mine back in gradeschool. Now we're not even talking anymore and I don't know why. Heh, just sharing ^^
When I think about someone dear to me dying, I just feel resigned because there wasn't anything I could do to prevent that, nor would I want to prevent that because for me, everything has an end anyway so why try to stop it?
@_@ Sorry. I actually feel better now. I just had to let it out somewhere. Don't bother too much with what I said though. Those were just passing thoughts. And thanks. :)
Ewan ko...feel ko lang pag mawala talaga mom ko parang mawawalan ako ng "homebase" though not in a literal sense. It's like, when the subject comes out I'd go "ooh, my mom she lives in--" no, wait she's dead! Or "It's cool to take photos of those pretty windowshops in Christmas evening--!" but oh wait what to do it with? Or "I gotta email mom--" but she's not ever going to open her inbox anymore
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Sometimes it's like I get obligated to feel something. - Aiyaa, that's it. That's what I was supposed to type but I couldn't find the right words for it.
Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same. - But my problem is, as of now, I think I won't be missing anything or anyone just yet. I mean, I always think a lot about stuff like that and every time whether or not somebody died it's still that same "Okay. Period." thing. No missing anything or anyone. That's what bothers me a lot. :|
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shobe, your just believing that you dont care, you think you convienced yourself that you will not miss them. that is what your feeling now, but you never really know what you will feel when you have experience it on your own. surely, you think that you wont miss them, but somehow, deep inside you, you will miss them. and i know you do. you just dont realize it.
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I don't think I'm capable of crying over anyone who dies >_<;
surely, you think that you wont miss them, but somehow, deep inside you, you will miss them. and i know you do. you just dont realize it.
Maybe that'll come someday. *is really doubtful*
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- :( That made me remember a person who was a really close friend of mine back in gradeschool. Now we're not even talking anymore and I don't know why. Heh, just sharing ^^
When I think about someone dear to me dying, I just feel resigned because there wasn't anything I could do to prevent that, nor would I want to prevent that because for me, everything has an end anyway so why try to stop it?
@_@ Sorry. I actually feel better now. I just had to let it out somewhere. Don't bother too much with what I said though. Those were just passing thoughts. And thanks. :)
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- Aiyaa, that's it. That's what I was supposed to type but I couldn't find the right words for it.
Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same.
- But my problem is, as of now, I think I won't be missing anything or anyone just yet. I mean, I always think a lot about stuff like that and every time whether or not somebody died it's still that same "Okay. Period." thing. No missing anything or anyone. That's what bothers me a lot. :|
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