so jane is now in miami. im glad that shes going to be finally repaired. now shes be more amazing. that was the only thing. she plays beautifully and dark, but the slide was the diminishing factor. which will no longer be a problem. im still thinking about the engraving. but...i need to save money. so yeah. went to wb practice, im having fun there ( Read more... )

jane is getting twin sisters. thats right, ive bought two trombones. thinking of names still, but the thing is, they will be my marching horns, so that means, ill be able to beat them up, and not care if theres dents. so jane will stay pretty ( Read more... )

not going to lie, im tired of the bs.

one step forward, only to be thrown 3 steps back, and another person to move forward two.

two steps forward to set another person back.

three steps forward to lose it all, and another person to be thrown back two.

three steps back to gain it all, and another person to lose it all.

and of all of those, ill take one step forward.

you dont realize what you have till its gone, or in my case, near gone. and now i never want to let go.

"And, no, no, no, I won’t let you go

No, no matter how far we’ve come
I can’t wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we’ve come, I
I can’t wait to see tomorrow"

do i even exist in anyones world?

i just dont know what to do. about anything really.

i dont know what to do. maybe i have to just step aside completely. only then will she/everyone be happy.

heh its funny how it all works out. whatever for personal gain, isnt that the goal of why people do what they do? so what the hell do i gain. except this agonizing pain.

please say it was all a nightmare. let me wake up from this.

ok so aside from me being realy dumb and just god awful at tests, i got a three in music theory. im so ugh. i wish i was better. im so bad at school. how the hell am i going to make it in college? i mean, i did decently in high school, like enough to get inot college. haha, i wouldnt be suprised if i became a college dropout. i should just fold in ( Read more... )