i dont know what to do ones telling me something and i want to listen but my hearts saying not to but i really want i mean i just dont want to get hurt again and he means a lot to me he really does i know people tell me other wise but i cant handle it.....i dont know how long i can keep this fake smile...and then someone just doesnt realize how i ( Read more... )

the world is hell..............my best friend left........my other best friend is busy..........im lonely..........im sad......... i want to have no worries............. i want to be loved............. i want my hands to be warm..............i want the sun to come out and shine through my window...........i want this empty feeling to go away for ( Read more... )

i wonder what would happen if i just went away would everyone just be more happy so i wouldnt be able to cause any problems i mean i dont know who to go to now i dont know what to say i dont know how to fell i dont know what to do i really do wanna just die now i mean nothing can be worst than this.....everytime i do something i always seem to hurt

hey hey so its been a while but i think everything is ok since my last entry haha. ive been really busy lately like crazy busy with everything haha my mommys coming back in like a week yay!!! so i have this big outline thing due for english tomorrow and i havent even started uh oh im gonna need help haha so ya bout to get ready and then go to ( Read more... )

wow sometimes i dont realize what i do and i wish i knew what i was doing to others especially my best friend i just want to say im sorry and i hope you understand i didnt mean to do that and i just want everything to be ok....i mean you knew the truth so i dont understand why youre being like this now and if me being sorry means nothing to you i ( Read more... )

india night was different this time like seeing everyone was fun but the dances all kinda sucked except for buntys so hopefully the one in august will be way better i so want to do a dance for that one so we'll see what happens. so after it was over we were all just hanging out outside and i almost got a new lexus but then nishant stole it from me ( Read more... )

yayy its finally friday haha this week has been so long and had too many quizzes and tests and stuff but ya i have a lot next week too but whatever omg 1 month and 14 days till my birthday yayyy haha so lets see umm im going to someones house tonight dont want to go but i have to oh and when i was driving home today from school my dad was in the ( Read more... )

today school was ok felt kinda sick and other sutff but whatever had a fun picture taking time at lunch but i looked weird in all the pics of course ne ways i have no homework at all today which is totally a shock and i had this math quiz which i think i so got an A on so im kinda in a good mood right now and plus i took like a long 3 hour nap so ( Read more... )

so so today was whatever got my way out of the psych test so i can take it later on this week haha then went to some cindy's and michelle's middle school at like 1 30ish and talked to the students there and stuff left and then went out to eat fun times in the car...shotgun...haha umm whatelse oh i got my spcae now except i dont have a pic to put up ( Read more... )